It's Hard To Be On The Edge

Warning : maybe triggering for some reason your own discretion

It's hard to be on the edge because every day I'm struggling not to fall it's hard to be on the edge because it makes me to sensitive to emotional so everytime you're demeanor changes I wonder why I wonder if I did something wrong if I said something wrong but I don't want you to know that so when you say something that upset me even if you didn't mean it that way my anxiety uses it against me and I believe every little lie she tells me because I'm so close to the edge I can't make myself believe it isn't that way and everytime something's wrong my anxiety tells me it's my fault everytime you're upset my anxiety tells me it's my fault and it makes me feel like a fuck up because I can't fix it because I'm so close to the edge I'm not completely in control so it's not that easy for me to change the narrative it's not that easy for me to change the negatives into positives that's why it's hard to be on the edge