The distraction

Chapter Five

Ryker

I have been avoiding the café and all the places surrounding it. I know she must live close to the place.

I can't meet her again.

It has been three days since I last saw her and I haven't had any reason to go back to that place but now, I am left with no choice.

When there is a death looming, I have to be there.

I have to be in the area.

It is my job. one that I haven't hated in a long time. I hate it because I know that I am going to have to go into the real world. I am going to be so tempted and I am going to look for her.

Three days and she has been all I can think about.

It is not normal.

I have never thought about a mortal being as much as I have been thinking about her.

I see her death. Over and over again.

I know what is going to end up ruining her but I can't find her face in the visions. I can't see the one thing that I want to see. Today's death is easy. The light triumphs the darkness. Once I take them, they accept it most times. They see something so beautiful and they can't refuse it.

They don't cry.

They don't fight.

This is one of the easy ones.

Death in her sleep.

I walk into the house.

I am only visible in the supernatural realm right now. the person I am coming to meet is a woman in her sixties. A heart attack in her sleep. painless.

The kind of death everyone should wish for.

Her daughter is in the next room.

She is going to find her. she is going to cry but her mother's death is going to be painless. She is going to find solace in knowing that she is one of the good ones.

I walk through the walls and into the room. The feeling never gets old. I see the scene and it is what I already knew it would be. Two of the same people but one is dead.

She is confused.

Unsure of what is happening but she is very calm.

"What is going on?'' she asks me quietly once she notices my presence. This woman is not old. She shouldn't be dead but these things are out of my control. I can't question the heavens. I cant challenge it and I can't interfere.

That is the only way I can continue with this. being banished from the heavens was my punishment. I took it with grace. I have done everything to stay out of trouble and just thinking about her makes me feel like I am just digging this hole up again.

The one that made me who I am today.

"You know what this is, just come with me and I will be free,'' I tell her. stretching my hand out to her. the light to the heavens is bright. She can see it. that should get her to do this with me easily as it always does.

"My daughter. I can't leave her right now. she needs me,'' she cries as the door opens and the daughter walks into the room.

"Mom,'' she calls her mother's name.

I watch the scene play out. This is not my first rodeo. I have seen this roo many times. I know how this is going to play out but for some reason. I don't have the patience today.

"Sarah, my baby,'' the woman cries. Standing up and walking over to her. I watch as she tries to communicate with her but I know it won't work. It never works.

"Please let me tell her I am okay?'' the woman begs.

It hasn't registered that I am not going to do what she wants. I am not that kind of person. I only care about myself. I have never cared about the people I take. I completely detach myself from them and their demands. I could if I wanted to but I am not supposed to and I won't start for this woman.

"You can't. This is the end of this journey for you. greater things are waiting for you, all you have to do is take my hand,'' I stretch my hand out again. the light gets brighter but she doesn't focus on it.

"Come on,'' I tell her, ignoring the cries of her daughter, who has realized that she is dead.

The woman is crying but she agrees. There is no point in fighting it. this is the easy way out. darkness is not looming over. she has lived a responsible life and she is being blessed.

Who can refute that?

Once she is gone and I am outside the sun hits me. my legs find their way to the café. The one place that I know I shouldn't go to. I said I wasn't going to test fate. I said I was going to nip curiosity in the bud and I have the strength to but I just want to watch her. I don't have to talk to her. I don't have to make this real.

I just want to see her.

I don't even know if she is going to be in the café but my legs still carry me there. I walk into the brightly lit place and take a seat in the same place I have sat on for the past week.

The owner of the place has been watching me. it is almost like he doesn't trust me and he shouldn't. I have heard the things the people have been saying. Their words travel into my ears but I don't pay attention to them.

Yeah, I have had slip-ups. Shown myself too soon in the scene of murders and deaths.

Maybe it is just the part of me that craves the excitement. Getting caught, even though I know nothing will happen to me.

I do it for fun.

This man must have heard.

I don't give a shit.

I look around and away from his glaring eyes. she is not here. I should thank the heavens and leave. this is for the best. I shouldn't be looking for someone that would end up messing things for me. I don't know how this will play out because I can see everyone's future but mine. I don't know what I am going to do tomorrow. I don't know the mistakes I am going to make until they are made and it seems like this girl is going to be the cause of big problems for me.

The door dings and the bell rings and instantly without even looking, I know she is the one. I feel her before I even see her.

Her hair sways just as the AC hits her. her eyes are brown, almost a little too golden. She looks at me immadietely and it feels like the air is being ripped out of my lungs.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

This is bad.

I have seen everything about this girl.

Everything about the life she has lived.

I have played it over and over for the past three days. I have wondered and thought. Desperate to make a face to the life and just looking at her now is messing with me.

Stealing the air that I need to breathe.

This is bad.

This is very bad.