The mixed feelings

Chapter twenty-eight.

Harley

I open my eyes and I am in the same room he brought me to the last time. This is the third time I have fallen asleep in his car. What the hell is going on? There is something fishy about it and I don't seem to understand it.

Unlike the last time, he is in bed with me.

Watching me.

"You're awake,'' he mutters with a smile.

My heart lunges in my chest at the sound of his voice "Why did I fall asleep?'' I ask remembering.

He shrugs "You were tired.''

I raise a brow because I don't believe him. He is lying to me but I don't know why "I always fall asleep in your car. I don't even know how to get to your house.'

The words of his friend is still in my head. He doesn't want me to be with him but obviously, Ryker doesn't know he came to see me. How would he react if he finds out that he came to see me? How would he react if he knows all the things, he told me?

I know I need to tell him.

It has been on my mind, since dinner but I don't know how to.

"Hey, come back to me," I blink and he is watching me "You were lost for a second," he points out as he cups my face in his palm.

I take a deep breath "Weird things have been happening to me all day.''

He furrows his brows in confusion "Weird how?''

I know this is going to ruin the night and I don't want that but I also need to be honest with him. I need to tell him the truth.

"It felt like someone was watching me all day,'' I confess, letting out a soft exhale of relief. "And then I met your friend.''

He furrows his brows in confusion but I don't need to say anything else because he knows who I am talking about instantly. Jolting from the bed, he walks to the door but I am quick to stop him. "You don't even want to listen to what I have to say?" I ask him incredulously.

His eyes dart to my grip on him. There is a lot of anger in his expression and I see it. I want him to calm do0wn even though I am the one that is supposed to be upset. A lot of weird things have been happening ever since I met him and I know it has to do with him and whatever he has going on. The man I met, obviously doesn't want us to be together. I just don't know why and this is something that he should tell me.

He needs to be honest with me or this thing between us—whatever this thing is won't work.

"I will be back. Just stay in the room until I come back.''

He disregards my question; he can hear me but he is not listening to me.

"Who was that man? I know you know who I am talking about.''

He sighs "This is something you can never know about. Not in this life or the next. I just need you to trust me. Can you trust me?"

His words soothe me but I can't let him sweep me off my feet right now. I need him to tell me what the hell is going on. I need him to tell me the truth and stop shielding me from whatever this is.

"Who is that man?'' I ask him again.

I need answers and he needs to give them to me. That is the only way that man's warning will stop scaring me. There are times in life when you need to listen to your head and not your heart. Everything I have been feeling with Ryker, every emotion. My heart has been involved and now the part of my body that thinks rationally is warning me that somehow, I am in danger and the only way I will listen to that part of me is if he trusts me by telling me the truth.

I watch him, all my hope stuck on the next words he utters out of his mouth 'Please just trust me, please.'' I am desperate and he can see it.

I know he feels whatever this is.

He knows what he means to me and I mean a lot more than he is letting on. I know that he doesn't want to hurt me but I need the truth.

"He is my brother. He doesn't want me to be with you. Actually, I can't be with you."

"Why?''

He raises his hands up and I watch him run his fingers through his hair. This is hard for him but for the first time since I met him, I see weakness in his eyes. He is afraid, all the questions I am asking him are taking a toll on him. He doesn't make an attempt to leave me though. He wants to tell me the truth. He wants me to trust him.

"I can't tell you why.''

This is hard for him.

His eyes are red.

I see the vulnerability in them and I can't force the truth out of him. I can't force him to do something that he thinks is dangerous.

"Come here,'' I tell him, stretching my hands out for him. He walks into my arms and I pull him in for a hug. His big build engulfs me and the warmth is as soothing as his voice. I close my eyes for a second as he pulls me tighter.

"You have to trust me, I will never hurt you,'' he voices out in the darkroom. My hands clutch unto him, I don't want to let him go. This man just came into my life and completely took over my whole being. I definitely wasn't looking for this. I didn't even think I could fall in love but here we are, in this room, alone and he has my heart.

Wholly and completely.

"I trust you."