Lisa

I can never get tired of pretending to be okay when I am actually hurting. I miss him and I hate it . I hate it how he left me for someone better. I was shaken when I saw him without his mask for the very first time. He was telling me how amazing it was but I deserved someone better than him .Oh God ! I hate it . It has been a month but I can't move on . Noting my strange behavior , my parents decided they had to do something for their only daughter as they thought their poor daughter is getting bullied.They didn't knew how strong I was now as a teenager. Meanwhile it was my first love so I was doing all that after-breakup stuff. Eating ice creams, watching horror movies and listening to sad music. Enough! Enough is enough. I have to feel better. I can feel the adrenaline rush. Before I could stop myself I called him and to my surprise he was apologizing so I hung up . What just happened. He was telling me he was sorry for leaving me for a mean girl and now she dumped him so he wants me to get back. I felt myself smirking. Karma is real. I called him again and Cursed him a bit just a little bit and I told him that he deserved it .He was speechless obviously he thought I would forgive him . I still love him but my self respect is my priority. Just when I was done talking to him I could hear a knock on my door, it was my mother in a beautiful green wrap dress with a sweet faint smile and shining green eyes indicating that she wanted to talk. She sat on my bed one leg folded and one swinging as she was thinking about something very deep. As I was about to ask her she said, "Honey we thought a lot about it and we have decided that we are going back to our hometown. It's the best choice. No more discussions . Please. " I could hear my Dad screaming " We love you. We are here for you always. "

Before I could process it she caressed my cheek and left my room. I didn't want to go there and now that my parents have decided they won't listen. I have to leave my house, my friends, my favorite places , school and almost everything.

'Zeran' my hometown. Ah! I don't want to go there . Why did I act like this . Nooooo!! That place is good for nothing. My childhood friends who just make fun of me . No no no !!!!!

The only good thing about that place is that my grandparents live there . I have got no choice but to be submissive right now.