Feeling The Pain.

Pov. Izzy

Last night it was strange, I was attacked by a Wolf that didn't hurt me, my brother hurt the animal, Valentina appeared and took care of it while I filled her with questions about the animal while she answered simply and objectively. Her behavior seemed strange to me, after all every time we meet she becomes the queen of sarcasm, but yesterday she was not like that at any time, in fact she seemed unwilling to have a dialogue with me, I say that because after she took care of the animal, my brother invited her to watch the basketball game that would happen this afternoon and she accepted the invitation and they talked for a long time while I was with the animal unconscious.

That left me... Intrigued ?

I think so.

What more serious ?

I sigh leaving my lunch aside and stand up over Nick's watchful eye that says nothing, just observes my apathetic state. I go towards the access door to the garage and open it slowly seeing the Wolf raise his head, when he sees me he growls quietly, but there would be no danger, valentina put a muzzle on him and he is with his leg injured and his head, attacking me would be worse for him. I approach him with care and he keeps growling, when I kneel beside him he rolls, I stretch my hand in his direction and he looks at me alarmed, but does not make any movement, when I touch the hair of his head he lowers scared, but I do not retreat, I caress his hair and he growls a little higher, but does not retreat, allows my gesture of affection. I caress his hair and he seems to get used to my approach, I feel happy about it, I stay with the Wolf until I hear Nick call me, then I get up and I hear the animal whining, I caress his hair again and then I get out of the garage and I face Jensen, Henry, sasha and Anne.

- Good afternoon, my little elf puppy. - says Jensen and I smile.

- Good afternoon my fake dobby. - I say and he opens his arms to me and I go to him and hug him.

- Jen is so sentimental. - says Henry laughing.

- Y ou should be more like him Lord robotic. - says sasha and Anne ri.

- It was better to keep quiet. - Nick says and the brown opens his arms and then pretends to be falling.

After all, Henry has always been a bit more serious than Nick and Jensen, but he has never denied any mischief, he just has a calmer way, compared to Nick and Jensen's agitation.

- Are you ready for today's game ? - Jensen asks with his green eyes animation row and Nick sits excited.

- Of course captain, let's detonate the Portland team. - he answers smiling.

- Are you done ? - asks Henry throwing himself on the couch.

- It depends, some kisses are still missing. - plays Nick moving his eyebrows frantically and Jensen laughs.

- Do not fool me. - play back and I turn my eyes.

How foolish they are.

Boys !

- Come on ? - asks sasha looking at the time.

- Of course, you still have to change and command your crowd army. - says Jensen excitedly.

- Want to learn some steps ? - Anne and moreno ask settled.

- Let's go for it. - replies excited.

He drags Anne out while we laugh, look at Nick who picks up the car keys and walks out, sasha and Henry look at me and then do the same as my brother. I take my coat and do the same, but before I close the door, I look at the hours on my mobile, I see that there is still an hour to play and I sigh. Nick already waited for me in the car along with Anne and Jensen, sasha and Henry goes in moreno's car, calmly walk towards the car, then enter and sit next to Jensen. As soon as my brother goes out with the car I stay my attention on the street and on people until Jensen breaks the silence.

- I need to get someone. - says the thoughtful brown.

- Anyone ? - asks Nick without diverting his attention from the road.

- Yes, you have Anne, Henry to sasha, now my teacher yoda has the aspiring mix of Damon and Edward cullen and I can't hold so much candle like that. In a little while I will become a hawker in the wake of a candle. - says upset and Nick and Anne riem while I keep quiet thinking.

I don't have anyone either my young jedi.

This is all facade and I don't even know why my neighbor is helping me to lie.

- You do not need to get anyone, you already have the Nick and me, we are a love triangle. - says Anne amused and Nick settled.

- Of course, we are your consolation prize, hugs and nights of bad are our forte. - my brother and I smile.

- Thank you, but I do not like mathematics and this relationship would require division and I am not good at division then. - he says and I can't hold the laugh.

- Oops, we took one outside. - says Nick laughing and Anne agrees.

They had better keep quiet.

Jensen is too much.

We went to school with only the three of us talking about the game, love and what they would do after they finished college. I was already too focused looking at nothing and thinking about nothing, I don't know because today I woke up with a nuisance, I just don't know the reason, but I feel very anguished, I think this is the right definition. I sigh when I see Nick enter the school parking lot and go straight to the college area where the game open to the public would take place. I hit the ground when my brother parks in his reserved space and then I open the door and leave the car accompanied by the three, I notice the looks above us, but I do what I know how to do best.

Ignore.

In the light of recent events, I do not know if that is what I can do best.

I have my doubts.

I say goodbye to my brother and our friends and go to the gym where the game would take place, arrange a nice place with a good view of the court and wait for time to pass while I listen to a varied playlist with my favorite songs, close my eyes and relax while I think about the latest events and at some point my neighbor became part of my thoughts and all I wanted to know was what would have affected her mood last night, or what I did wrong.

Besides lying and involving her in the middle.

Nothing too much, right, isabelle ballard.

Super good.

Drugs.

I sigh tired of so much thinking, I open my eyes and get up to see that some people had arrived and that probably a long time has passed. It does not take long for the stands to be full, but luckily the row in which I was there were still no people besides me, so I look at coming back as an idiot in search of valentina that by the way I did not find, she has no face who enjoys sports of this type.

She looks like someone who likes to watch wwe.

Aaah, for sure she sees this.

Her clear and indecipherable blue eyes look wild, when she looks at someone, I know that the person must feel at least intimidated, even if this is not her intention, she just has expressive eyes. Wow, when did I notice the young girl so much and why I'm still thinking about her.

Where do you press the button to forget the subject Valentina ?

Brain drug will betray.

I take off my phones and focus my attention on the pitch as the teams enter for the warm up, my brother is there in the usual red team uniform, he looks forme in the bleachers and when he finds me, I wave and he smiles. My brother goes back to the warm-up and I watch him, Jensen and Henry talk to each other, I'm happy to see that Nick is in his normal state again, I say that because in the first 15 days after our parents' death, he didn't eat, he didn't say anything, he just stayed in his room or in the park alone until late, he was very upset, I would say he suffered for both of us, because while I didn't feel, he felt twice. But thank god he returned to being the same jester as before, even if it lacks an important piece in our daily lives, especially today since our parents were his number one fans, always Shouting his name during the games and if someone knocked them down, they swore a lot. They were amazing, we couldn't have had better parents. I sigh thinking of how things will be different without them everywhere we go, there will always be a part of us that will never come back, will never fit and that hurts. I think for the first time in a month of mourning, I'm feeling the pain of the loss, I feel my heart being crushed by this painful feeling that makes my eyes burn. I break the back and close my eyes trying to think of something other than my parents when I hear a known voice, I open my eyes and I see four idiots.

- Look at the crazy woman the angels street . - says colton and Travis, Meghan and Justice laugh.

- Beware, she may try to kill you while you sleep. - says justice and I face it.

- Look, she thinks we're afraid of her. - Travis says approaching me and when he comes face to face with me he talks again. - You know, they're saying it wasn't an accident, that their parents threw the car into the forest because they couldn't take their problematic daughter anymore. - he says and I crack my teeth.

- Shut your mouth. - I say irritated.

- Did you really think they would put up with having to live with the crazy woman of the city for a long time ? - question and I feel my heart speed up. - You killed your parents without even touching them, I don't know how your idiot brother doesn't hate you for being a shit killer. - complete and I push it making it fall over the boy sitting in the front row.

- Look at the killer trying to attack again. - says meghan and I hear loud laughter.

I look towards the block and see my confused brother looking at the dawn and that's enough for me to run away. I run as fast as I can bumping into some people in the hallways and when I leave school I go into the woods to take a shortcut to the place where it all started and where my parents are now.

The cemetery of sunset warrior.

I go into the forest feeling that stifling feeling again, my heart racing and my eyes burning and that's enough for me to distract and throttle. I fall down with everything on the ground and I feel a sharp pain in my hand that makes me scream, I look at the place seeing a sharp stick stuck in it, I try to stay calm and take a deep breath.

Shit.

Shit.

Shit.

Why couldn't this drug from the drawer be stuck in the throat of the Travis instead of my hand ?

And ask too much ?

Hell.

I sit and watch the blood dirty my arm and my blouse, I look around and see only trees and woods, I think about how stupid it was to run into a forest and how painful it will be to take it out. I look around in search of a piece of stick and when I find it I put it in my mouth and bite it, then I hold the tip of the stick with my right hand, count to three and try to pull it at once, but the damn one comes out only half, go deep feeling my nerves the flower of the skin and hold the tip again and the too much thrust spitting the stick out of my mouth and screaming in pain. I cry for a few minutes and then I try to calm myself down, I regain my self-control then I throw out my long sleeve blouse and only have a T-shirt covering my body, tie my blouse as best I can to stop the blood and get up, I continue my way towards the cemetery. It takes me twice as long as it would take to get there in a normal situation and I run towards the grave-digger's cabin, but for my misfortune he was not there. I go into the cemetery and go to the grave of my parents, I look around in search of the grave-digger but I do not find him, so I am in front of the grave of my parents I allow myself to fall on my knees on him and cry all that I did not cry in a month. I feel like garbage, my parents died and I acted coldly, as if I was their killer, and if Travis is right, if they were disgusted with me. I made them be called assassins' parents, I never talked about what happened to carter, I never told the truth, I let them be humiliated by the city for having an idiot daughter like me. I feel angry with myself and start digging their graves with my own hands ignoring the physical and mental pain and blood that was wetting the earth. I want to bury myself, die here and now, save Nick from having a sister like me alive, I continue digging when I feel arms around me and then I am pulled up, I elbow the person and throw me on the floor to go back to what I was doing, but I am pulled again, but this time the person holds me firm because when I try to fight I can't do much and not even use my arms.

- Isabelle arrives, you should not bother the dead. - I hear valentina's voice and I try to turn around, she loosens the grip allowing me to turn around to look at her. - do not do this with yourself, do not go down such a hard path, you do not deserve it. - she says and I put my head on the curve of her neck to avoid crying, but I can't and she hugs me strongly. - It's okay, let everything come out, you don't need this bitter feeling. - whisper and I hug her back.

I don't know how long I cried like this in her arms, but I only noticed that I was calmer when she took me away from her body and looked at me from top to bottom.

- You are injured and you are still in a cemetery, digging with your own hands to make everything worse. - it says and I feel my head heavy and my vision become blurred.

- What's too much of it ? - I ask trying to focus my vision on her face and I see her blue eyes become dark and then my body weakens, but she holds me.

- Cemetery sand is bad for any living being, but for people like us it has an even worse effect, isabelle. - says more his voice was distant and everything around me was getting dark.

Until there was nothing else left.

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