3. Crush or LOVE

Sid smiled, reminiscing her every moment, mainly her sweet voice, laying on his bed and closed his eyes. Remembering her when he first saw.

One month back.

My hangover didn't help me. My head is in pain due to a hangover. Yup I drink but only at parties. It is not my habit but as we won the match of basketball tournament so now our college is in first position and I'm the captain so no backoff. So we chilled with beers at night. I came home silently without making a sound and slept in my room. If my mom knows she will start again with her lecture so silently I went and slept in my room.

In the morning my devil sis aanaya came to my room and started waking me up finally I gave up otherwise only god knows what she will do. But my head is spinning and feeling so heavy as if I'm weighing something on my head.

Even though I'm a high alcoholic resistance person, yesterday friends forced me to drink more than five bottles so now my head is throbbing like it will blast at any moment. I just want to sleep for some more time but this devil is shouting as if she will miss some rare diamond.

Bhai came to my room with buttermilk with lemon mixed in it. He is looking at me seriously where I smiled nervously and grabbed the glass.

"Bhai what happen why you are drinking buttermilk early early morning" anu asked me where bhai smirked at me

"Just wish to have it" I said without looking at her.

"You are stinking bhai

First go and have bath" anu said

I immediately rushed to the washroom before someone stopped me and interrogated me.

I mean aahil bhai won't leave me. He doesn't encourage alcohol and nowadays I'm having it frequently to which bhai warned me before too.

I came out after taking a bath but found no one in the room so soon I dressed myself and went to the dining table.

I sat silently at my place where the maid served me my breakfast.

"At what time you came last night"mom asked me

"Unknowingly I gulped and replied "may be around eleven twelve...

"Don't shutter like thief and next time if you come late then be ready to stay in garden open area without bedsheet" mom threatened me by cutting me in middle

"mom I'm sorry that friends planned get together suddenly so came late.." sid said with my head low

where anitha( sid mom) placed tiffin in front of him "have it. don't come late at night..it is not good for health" anitha said while caressing sid hair wo which sid smiled while nodding his head.

After having breakfast I pecked mom cheeks and side hugged dad and bhai and went to drop my devil sister aanaya and it's my daily routine.

It's not like I'm complaining because I love her alot more than that. I love to irritate her more than being normal. After dropping her, I roamed near her college to have tea and started searching for a tea stall.

Vivek didn't come today with me as he is still sleeping like a log and now I need to go to his home to pick up but before that I need some relief to my headache and hangover. Soon I found one and I went near the tea stall which is near to her college by parking my car beside it.

I ordered ginger elaichi tea. When having a sip of my tea I heard some murmuring or talking. I don't know but it's just relaxing and soothing to my mind.

I don't know why I want to hear that voice more. It's just calming me. I just search for the voice and one girl coming in the opposite direction putting her head down with half asleep eyes wearing her back bag. She almost covered her face with a scarf. She is just looking like a feather.

She crossed me and moved towards the college. I don't know what came into me. I just followed close to her. Her cologne makes me go crazy as it is so fresh and she smells like sandals and oranges. I just feels like relaxing that unknowingly I closed my eyes and enjoying her fragrance. After a few minutes, I guessed she was not murmuring and may be cursing someone badly. I just want to eavesdrop on her words.

"Aaaaa these floor incharges are sadist psycho that 'aaahhh yawning' is the only reason even their husband family children 'aaahhh yawning' send them soon sorry sorry kicking them out of their house and throw on us. 'aaahhh yawning' Who will get up this early to see it's going to be 'aaahhh yawning' 7:30. Because of them I also got up at 6only. 'aaahhh yawning' Psycho incharges. If we don't study 'aahhh yawning' they will be scolded for not getting good marks in front of the whole class. 'aaahhh yawning' if we study they torture in different way saying need to be top rank student. 'aahhh yawning'. Oh god this sleep also not leaving as we are in love for so 'aaahhh yawning' long na. Psycho incharge. Why can't they fall sick at least for one week. So that I can sleep peacefully." Listening to her cursing I chuckled loudly.

she immediately turn back. I masked my expression and walked as if I'm not listening to her. She just observed her surroundings and went inside with a clumsy face with somewhat angry frustration. Sleep may be all emotions showing in her eyes.

Before entering college she removed her scarf and wiped her face "ohh god she is my doll" I smiled at my thoughts. She is really cute and lovely. I just want to hug her and make her sleep in my arms. I don't know why I'm feeling like that but the horn sound broke my trance, I smiled and went to drag vivek with me.

At evening, I went to pick aanaya actually to have glimpse of my sweet heart. I'm waiting eagerly outside of the college slowly all came out which caught my eyes making me anger and unknown feelings which surrounded me is aanaya hugging that girl and kiss on her cheek saying bye. Aanaya came towards me..

"What happened why you are so grumpy.?" Aanaya asked, raising her eyebrow.

"Nothing," Sid said with an irritatingly angry voice.

"What I did is why you are angry with me. After a long time you came to pick me up. And now you are angry on me" Aanaya said with sad face

Yes I was busy with my practicing. So I never came to pick her up for a long time, maybe almost for one month.

"Nothing, just stress. Who is she. Why are you hugging her? I never saw you before with her, ``Sid asked. I don't know what happened to me. Seeing her hugging someone I mean aanaya only but I don't like it sid thought inside while asking aanaya.

"She is my best friend Siya.. Siya mehra such a cute girl," Aanaya said with smile

"I guess u don't have any friend here" sid asked to know more about her

"Yes, but she joined our class a few weeks before because she is studying well. actually she came from the last section with in no time she proved herself and reached here. Seeing her dedication, college offered free study to her this year and she is down to earth. She always has a smile on lips but she won't talk much to anyone if anyone asks something she says or smiles. It attracted me and within no time we became close." Aanaya said she met a dream friend. The determination and love towards Siya makes him crazy. Some unknown feeling developed in his heart, maybe respect he smiled like he achieved something big.

Daily it became routine to him seeing her far and admiring her alot. Feeling fresh and light hearted doing work with a smile all the time. Time passed very quickly. The smile on my lips says like I found a treasure which is hidden in these years.

These days, I found one thing that she wears a scarf or a tie around her neck even when she wears jeans or a long skirt. I don't know how she will be in class but when she comes outside she maintains herself protective.

"why are you wearing saree chotteyy" I asked while having morning tea

"As today is December 31st we decided to wear saree or lehenga as we are going to celebrate our day in college as this will last year in this college and we are the first complete batch as this campus is new" aanaya said while checking her pink saree which she wore where mom helping her setting her hair style.

Hearing that my heartbeat quickened. I just want to see my doll immediately. Just imagining her in saree makes me go crazy. Soon we started at her college in the car and reached there in no time. I'm waiting near the car to see her where Aanaya is talking with someone near the gate.

"Go inside",I said as she is talking with some girl longer than usual

"No Siya is coming after she comes, we will go in," aanaya said.

I just nodded my head waiting eagerly to see her. There she came like a princess, simple yet elegant.

My breath struck my throat, my heart was running like a moron. She is too beautiful. I don't have a word to describe her. She wore a green colour net saree I guess. She placed some steps on her shoulder. She wore matching bangles. I guess she loves bangles a lot as she is seeing them with love while walking too.

She neatly draped her saree covering herself in perfect shape. Her earrings are waving whenever she moves. Some of her hair falling on her face disturbing a clear view of her. The smile on her face is more adorable than anything.

I just want to hide her somewhere so that no one can see her. I don't know what this feeling is.

Crush or love.

But I'm enjoying it. It's just calming me. I want to hug her tight. Because of air her petals near waist slightly moved showing her curve clearly oh god how can someone be so beautifully sexy. She reached her college. Their aanaya little devil hugged her tight and kissed her on cheeks.

I don't know why but I was burning with anger when she hugged the devil back. She is mine. My princess. Queen of my heart. Ruler of me.

'How can she hug someone?' I stood sulking at my own thoughts seeing them.

She is driving me crazy. After she went inside I went to college with a heavy heart as my mind and heart is with her. Vivek asked me why I was smiling like an idiot. I don't know until he asks me to smile like that. The day passed with her thoughts.

In the evening Vivek and I went to their college to see my darling Siya.

'Oyy hello you are going to pick up your sister devil aanaya not your darling Siya and when she became your darling uhh' my mind teased me as if I'm asking permission to call siya as my darling

I ignored my inner voice as it started teasing and questioning me.

So silently I'm waiting outside just to have a glimpse of her. She came outside with the same brightness as in the morning she is. I'm looking at her without blinking my eyes. I didn't notice my devil sister aanaya came and shook me.

"Back to world bhai. Whom you are seeing and smiling."Ananya asked if she was the devil i think and inside my mind mocked me as well.

"Nothing let's go", I said and soon the trio started towards our home where I'm driving and vivek and anu are chit chatting in the middle.

I couldn't concentrate on my thoughts and my heart completely with my doll Siya.

Suddenly I felt some heaviness in my heart. Some uneasy feeling surrounded me. I just want to see her now. So, I took the bike and started. I know the place where she stays but I don't know where exactly her house is.

So, I went to her place and parked my bike aside and roaming around the lanes near her place to see her once.

By seeing her my heart jumped in happiness but soon it was replaced with frown as she is literally having tears and she looked so scared. Seeing her like that my heart winced in pain. She is walking fast, seeing her back often. What happened? I looked at her back. Someone is following her and I will kill him if he did something to her or at least he thinks like that.

She stopped at some place and turned around and asked something in anger. I can see her facial expressions clearly. I don't know what he said but when he tried to touch her. That's it. The beast inside me woke up with a jerk like fire.

I took long strides and moved towards her. She raised her hand to beat him but he held her. It increased my anger to another level.

"Leave her hand" I roared like a lion that she jumped in her place

"Who are you to say? She is mine" he said with a smirk. It boils my blood.

'How dare he is to say like that' I fisted my hand

"I *hiccup don't *hiccup know * him sir *hiccup please *hiccup help me sir" she said while crying.

Seeing her like that my heart whined in pain. I punched him so hard that he fell down on the floor.

He tried to get up but I again punched him so hard that his nose started bleeding and he fell on the ground and whined in pain.

I looked at her she is crying alot I just want to hug and assure her but I can't do now as he already scared.

"Don't cry, nothing will happen. he won't do anything" I said while looking at her

She just nodded her head with her head low.

I saw vivek running towards us. I don't know where he came from.

I gesture him to look after that idiot, and he nodded

She is standing and crying terribly that her hiccups are stabbing my heart.

"Where is your home..?? I will drop you come with me" I said

She silently walked with me and cried. she didn't raise her head for once may be she didn't observe vivek as she is silently stood while crying

"Don't cry he won't do anything"I assured her when we reached her lane.

She wiped her tears and gave me a small smile and whispered a 'thankyou' and left for her home.

As soon as she went inside her home, I came back to the same place and punched him to hell but vivek stopped me in the middle saying "he will die, leave him for now."

As we can't let someone die infront of us as he is bleeding too much and laid unconscious and moreover he should not die in a simple way so we took him to the hospital where my brother works.

My brother aahil asked me "what happen sid"

"Nothing bhai", vivek said as I didn't said anything and glaring that bastard but bhai guessed something as he looked me in suspicious but didn't say anything

"Cool down I will take care of him", aahil bhai said and took him inside after checking his pulse.

Vivek placed hand on me, I turned towards him. He hugged me to calm me.

But her tears are flashing in front of my eyes whenever I close.

I took long breath to relax my nerves and asked vivek "how come you are there"

"Seeing your fisted hands I guessed something is wrong and the way you moved towards your byke confirm me so I just followed you and saw u beating him blue and black" vivek said

"Who is that girl" he asked me with mischievous smile

"I just smiled remembering her. I don't know" I replied as I remember her smiling face

"Should I believe you now", vivek asked with raised brow to which I shook my head

Meanwhile, aahil bhai came out with a serious face but I can see the frown on his face too and I know the reason as I didn't open my mouth till now.

"Sid why you beat him like that his nose got fractured and bruised all over the face and body. His hand also got fractured."bhai said looking at me seriously

I fisted my hands to control my anger. Bhai hold my hand to control my anger and he knows very well that I won't do anything without any reason "sid I'm asking you something" bhai asked me again but I didn't reply to be frank I don't know what to reply so I stayed silent

So bhai asked vivek "what happened vivek..?? don't hide anything, tell me what actually happened..?"

"I don't know bhai I just followed him seeing him furious then later I saw Sid beating him like hell. I stopped and brought him to the hospital" vivek said.

Aahil turned towards Sid who was fuming in anger. He hugged him to calm down and asked "what is her name."

Only Aahil can easily say what's running in his brain and the next person is vivek who is close to sid.

"Siya",sid unknowingly whispered slowly

"Aanaya friend" aahil and vivek asked at a time to which sid smiled and nodded his head as yes.

Both Vivek and aahil hugged sid. "She is nice girl" aahil said where sid smiled

Past completed..

"I don't know for the first time I saw him near my place.",Siya said bringing back from his dreamland where anu talking on phone on speaker

"How he looks", Aanaya asked just to change Siya's mood and to bring her smile back on lips.

"I was crying at that time and you were asking how he looks.

You are becoming too naughty" Siya said while laughing at the end.

"Come on girl just for a change how he looks. And you called him as a sir instead of brother where you call everyone as brother so asking, come on now say", aanaya asked with anxiety and sat on the couch in sid room as sid laid on bed with closed eyes yet he was wide awake.

"Already I'm scared of what happened and added to that his anger makes me more scared. Unknowingly, I called him as sir.

I mean the way he looks strict added to his body structure so I called him like that", Siya said while shrugging her shoulders as if they are talking face to face

"Ooo ohh..so how he looks", Aanaya asked mischievously

"Girl you becoming too naughty", Siya said with slight blush

Listening to her words Sid jumped in joy like a kid in his heart. Acting like he is asleep and not listening to their talk.

'As aanaya is talking on speaker where her phone kept beside her and doing something in laptop so she on speaker to talk may be chatting with vivek in lappi I guess..anyways like this I can hear her words and lovely voice.' sid thought

"Common baby say", aanaya asked with puppy voice

"Hmm..like he is tall maybe 6 feet height I guess. He is fair with dark brown eyes his hair is silky and soft which is in blackish brown colour, with little beard. His muscular body with broad shoulders as he wore some plain blue shirt and....

"Ooohhh you said you didn't remember him properly but now you are saying too much what is the matter baby", aanaya said by cutting siya in middle with mischievous smile.

"Don't blush baby even I'm not with you I know you well enough so tell me did you like him", aanaya asked again

"Aaaa..you girl. I don't know. His cologne makes me feel secure and his anger makes me scared. His voice is cold and sharp just like a sir so I called him sir.

So now leave about that sir and come back with books because he is not going to help us in exams or write our exams so we should only study", Siya said a bit seriously hiding her blush and thoughts of him behind.

So my baby thinks I'm strict so calling me sir. Not bad. I impressed her with my looks but she was scared of me. This is bad.

Why are you in a dilemma, baby. You are mine, my darling, my baby.' Sid thought with smile playing on his lips

But you are also in a dilemma whether it is crush or love then how can you say to her as mine. Sid's mind mocked him.

Scrunching his nose making his lips into a thin line thinking deeply about the words which his mind mocked him.

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when you can't convince,

just give up..

one day they will come to know,

what you mean..

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