Chapter three

I don't know what was going on and I am trying to open up my eyes but it is too heavy for me. I am afraid, I want to shout but my mouth was like mumbling.

I feel the presence of him. Slowly approaching. It was like a bell when he suddenly spoke and kindly ask, what is going on. I did trying to speak but still, my mouth was mumbling.

I have no idea who is this guy infront of me because it is vague to clearly identify who actually it is. He just like a shadow, and then again, slowly approaching me. Memorizing my image.

Even I am in fear and panic I tried to move, to think that I can still scape. I need to scape and get out of here. But I realized it is too late to do it.

My whole body was numb and lost my balance. I fell into the floor weakly. The man was sitting besides me.

My lips are trembles. " Who... Who ... Are... You," and finally I found those words.

He stroke my hair and wipe my pitiful tears. After that he suddenly close my eyes using his rough hand.

Is already my time to leave?

No, it can't be!

I have to live!

My mom doesn't get her justice!

Those words shouting into my mind and feel my heavy.

Let me live!

"Everything will be alright."

"Ha," I shouted. I was in a deep and creepy stage of sleeping when Neil's face surprised me. It was too closed.

" What's wrong with you? Are you having a bad dream?" A shock voice coming from a guy.

It is still blurry so I can't identify who it is. I close my eyes and open it again.

" Wha-what are you doing here?!" I exclaimed.

What the hell is he doing right here? Is he watching me while sleeping?

He cleared his throat. "It doesn't look like what you are thinking."

I glare. " Then what do you think you are doing right here? Spying? Stalking? Tss.." I cross my arm and look away.

He smirked and rub his forehead. " Well, none of the above, I think?" He said sarcastically

I stand up. " You know what, get out of my house, right now!" I give him a pissed face so he will afraid to crossing me.

He stands and put his hands on his pants pocket."If you insisted. But let me eat before I leave." A dismayed voice of him.

I feel so terrible right now, knowing he prepared food and clean-

He cooked and cleaned my house? So... Embarrassing!

Wait, what is that smell? Is it adobo? Jesus!

" What are you glaring at?" Wondering of what I am glaring.

I step closer to him while my arms are crossed. Glaring, like am going to eat him. The more I stepped on, the more he stepped backwards. His eyes are blinking and his lips was shaking. He reach the wall, so, he stop. He waylaid his hands on his chest whereas his eyes and lips still blinking and shaking. There is a part of my head are loughing because of what I am witnessing.

I stop as he stop, staring at him like I am out of my mind.

A man who break my heart is look like he's afraid of me. Hahah! This is it! You can change your dream, lately.

With all my force, I raised both of his hands and pressed to the wall.

He is smiling at me and look away, biting his lower lips.

"Do you think I am joking?" Seriously I said.

"Well, it doesn't look like, but I am too excited for the next step you will do." His smile was never fading and I realized that, we are too close to each other that I can feel his warmth, smelled his deodorant and his scents.

The butterfly started to stumble inside my stomach. I feel the heat from my cheeks and beat my heart quickly. I am already shaking, my marrow bones, my body. I was realizing that, I am not yet ready to face him especially of what I am doing right now. It is so embarrassing for me, doing this.

I am going to run, but it was too late for me. Niel change our position, he turned around and gently press me on the wall. He is staring at me with hesitate. Our eyes meet, and I know anytime, my tears will be fall infront of him.

Why do I need to suffer for his love? It hurts so much from the start until now. Why are you cursing me? It is your all fault, but why I am the only onewho's suffering while you were enjoying the show? Why the world is so unfair! I just want is to be free. No more hurts, no more worries. That is just all I wanted, but why you can't give it to me?

Neil, look at my lips and prompted to kiss me, so passionate. A kiss that showing a strong feeling, it is? or I am just overthinking of what he is doing right now, to me. He actually driving me crazy. I don't know what to do.

I feel like we are burning inside. Neil started to moved his palm to my back, slowly. Feeling his warmth hand that gently caressed, like he is doing a massage at my back.

Like the hell, I am kissing him back, like I missed him.

His lips down to my ears while his hands are busy on my back.