8

I cannot sleep.

I'm not even sure what keeps me awake but I stay up all night, wondering what Geon Woo is doing.

If he is thinking about me.

If he is already beginning to catch on to the web of lies that I am creating.

And I end start drawing the the look on his face when I had stopped him at his car, the way the streetlights had made his green eyes blend with the darkness.

Then at about Seven am in the morning, I had made a call to Noona who did not hesitate to pick my call.

Actually she seemed surprise I even called her.

"So let me understand this. You had sex with him?"

I use my free hand to keep sketching as I say "Yes. Is it unbelievable?"

"The fact that you posess female genitals, most definitely"

I sigh, pausing to add more shades to the shadow that most definitely formed behind him last night "I used a strap on"

".... Explain how it happened"

"Oh. I had him naked, he was tied and blindfolded with his clothes shredded and trousers down while I keep staring at him. I keep hoping that I can look his eyes to see if he is scared or appeased about..."

"That's not what I meant"

"Do not interrupt. As I was saying, I urgently want to see the look in his eyes, especially when I have a vibrating dildo up his behind and a ball strapped in his mouth and all that comes out from him are muffled sounds and drool, his body trashing on my bed"

"Eul Song"

"I want to see if he is scared. That he is helplessly tied and I might slit his throat. That I can take pictures and blackmail him for years. That the fact he does not know me might even be a turn on for him. Then I feel angry because if he does this for me, he must have done so for others and I get angry"

"Eul Yi Song!"

I pause as I stare at the paper now filled with raw scratch marks as I sigh, tapping the pencil on my head "I must sound insane. It is because of lack of sleep"

"Why have you not been sleeping?"

"Nothing" I say as I crunch up the paper in my hand, now throwing it into the basket with the other ones as I hear her sigh.

"Are you planning to keep something from me?"

"You would only worry" I say as I take another empty paper, staring at it "Have you ever thought of having a vacation?"

"Even if I wanted to. I doubt that I will with the current situation going on"

I sit up there, now dawdling on the paper "What is wrong?"

"The company is having some setbacks with certain contracts, trivial things really but Your Father seems to be really incident that you be with me and help sort it out"

I sigh there "You're more than competent Jan Yi Song. I know this because half the time I'm with you, all I do is just nod while you talk about the plans"

"We both know you're the hidden brains while I take all the credit. I have never told you how grateful I am"

"Well don't. I do not want to hear it"

"If there is anything about you I despise, it is your ability to dismiss things like it is nothing serious"

I chuckle there as I say "Speaking of contracts, I made one with Kim Geon Woo"

"Oh no"

"It is safe"

"If you made a contract with him, your lawyer must have been aware and...."

"It is not a legal contract"

There is a pause at her side of the phone as I stand up and go make myself a cup of coffee as she says "What do you mean by it's not legal?"

"He is not aware that it is not but he believes that is"

"Why would you lie to him?"

"To keep him obeying his part of the deal. I cannot make the contract legal without it not reaching the ears of Father and complicating my secrets so I settled to...."

"Lying"

I pause there as I put milk into my coffee, the word hitting me like a blow "No, it is not. It is simply improvising"

"How far are you going to keep this up? Lies upon lies? Are you even hearing how deluded you sound? I suppose to you it is natural to 'improvise' in busing contracts, but this involves a human being"

I let the words sink in as I stir my coffee before I say "Your therapist sent me an email. Apparently you have been going through too much stress. Have you thought about this vacation?"

"Sending me away won't stop me from trying to speak sense into you"

"It is only because I care" I say as I raise the cup to my lips and sip "And because yes, your words seem to make me change my mind and I refuse to do so but also I would like you to be okay. I doubt I would be sane if you leave"

"Your honestly and fake flattery don't sit well with me"

I smile "Rest well. I need to make a call"

"See how quick you went off the topic of my mental health because you don't care"

I laugh "I love you too. We talk later"

I hang up as I finger the rim of my mug for a while before I call him.

The phone begins to ring at first and I consider even hanging up before I hear his voice "Hello?"

It is husky, like he was just sleeping a minute ago as I rest on the counter in the kitchen and say "Do you like sleeping in?"

"What?"

"You're a breakfast in bed sort of person?" I keep asking "I always picture you to be up early in the morning smoking and walking about with your briefs"

I hear him snicker "Such a stereotype. Though you're not far from the truth. Just that I had something doing all through last night"

My memory flashes back to the moment at the car as I say "What were you doing?"

There is silence, like he is weighing the thing to say as he says "I waited for you"

"Really?" I purr inside the phone, a small smile coming on my face "It must have hurt. Not being able to do anything about it"

"I.... I did do something about it"

The smile in my face slowly dissolves as I say "What?"

"You can't be fucking serious. You think I wouldn't fix it. It hurt like hell and you being..."

"You're older Sunbae. I've mentioned this before, being a brat shouldn't become you"

"Hey! You shouldn't talk to me like that!"

"Did last time not make a mark?" I ask "Would you rather I hit you? Leave a visible bruise that when you try touching yourself you would see and reconsider?"

I hear his little pants and I know he is somehow turned on again and I whisper "Imagine. You're already wanting me as it is"

"I can just..."

"I dare you" I say slowly "I dare you to disobey me one more time"

"You must feel really cocky"

"I'm not the one getting turned on when I'm being spoken to like a child"

"Come see me"

"Beg"

I cross my legs, my coffee now forgotten as I wait for him to speak before I hear him say "Please"

"Louder"

I somehow hear him let out a whimper that sends shivers through me as I say "Please Master"

I hang up there, blood rushing to my head as I hurriedly pick my coat and head to the door.

Though the surprise I meet there as I open the door has me freezing to a spot "Baek Ji Daewi"