Preparing For The Visit

Today was the day. Today I was going to be seeing my family for the first time in more than half a year. I was definitely excited and happy, but I was also very nervous and scared. It was like a whirlwind of emotions swirling inside of me as I tried to prepare for the day.

I was scared that they might not even recognize me anymore. I was afraid that they would say I had changed too much and that I wasn't the same person anymore. What if they told me I wasn't the real Addie and they refused to talk to me? What if they said I was a fraud or imposter and demanded that Uncle Dominic and Uncle Isaiah bring out the real Addie.

I just don't think that I could handle that sort of response from them. I don't think that my heart would be able to handle that. It would destroy me completely if that were to happen. And the closer that it came to the time for us to all meet, the more that all these negative thoughts filled my head.