I will become his...

Alexia

Damn! I didn't expect to be alone with Romao, not now. I needed more time to eat my anger, for waiting too long to act even though we could never be together and now he was in front of me, no doubt wanting to explain what had happened, if there was any explanation.

"Alexia, I didn't want there to be a weird atmosphere between us, especially after everything that happened."

"Are you talking about the kiss I witnessed in your living room? It's not necessary..."

"I'm talking about the two of us." I took a deep breath, swallowing hard, felt my heart race, I had to sit down to compose myself and have this conversation, which could be a definite conversation. "We need to define this situation."

"I thought it was set, at least for you, after all I wasn't the one who surprised me in my office, kissing someone else."

Okay, I was being a little mean, but I needed him to understand that we couldn't be together. He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. This subject was delicate for both parties and I was still moved by what I saw in his office. I didn't know how this conversation was going to flow.

"What did you see in my office..."

He bit his lower lip and looked away, not knowing what to say or how to say it.

"Have you been going out a long time?" I asked, feigning interest in the papers I took from her office.

"Alexia, we're not staying."

"Not?" I looked at him. "So what was that kiss?"

"Well…" He looked lost. "Complicated!"

I smiled sheepishly, biting the corner of my mouth. I felt my heart ache, that's why I didn't want to fall in love, I didn't want to feel this pain, I didn't want to suffer because I was liking someone. How could I let myself go? How could I fall in love? How could I get so lost and not know my way back? How did I let myself be a Muggle? But I could still go on with my plans and my promise that no one would take away from me.

"Romão, I'm already full of complications. I need solutions."

He sat in an available chair across from me and looked directly into my eyes.

"She's the company's new marketing director..."

"So her competence impressed you so much and you decided to kiss her to make up for it?"

"How absurd, Alexia! I would never do that, with any employee."

“She's not really an employee, she's the head of a department, which is now making more profit than before. She's pretty and probably single, which wouldn't stop her from having a relationship."

"You're also beautiful and single, which didn't stop you from bonding with me either."

My heart pounded, or rather jumped, like a child who has just been given a new toy.

"In my case it's more complicated."

Shit! What was I saying?

"I'm already full of complications, I need solutions" Yes, of course! He had to use my own words against me. "However, our situation is simple to resolve."

I leaned back in my chair and crossed my legs. This gesture did not go unnoticed by him, who shamelessly eyed my legs.

"And what would the solution be?"

Suddenly, the mood of the environment changed. Romao got up and walked around my desk to stand in front of me. He held out his hand for me to take and I did. He pulled me to my feet and wrapped his arms around my waist, bringing our bodies together. How did he manage to do this? How could he disarm me so easily? I was moved by that kiss I witnessed, I shouldn't give in so quickly, but I was here, in his arms. How weak I was!

"At dinner tonight at your sister's house, let's say we're together."

Hi? So quickly?

"But..."

He stopped me from speaking, pressing our lips together in a calm, peaceful kiss, making me forget why we couldn't be together. His tongue entered my mouth, meeting mine in a sensual caress. I should have pushed him away, should have pushed him away from me, but I didn't have the strength. It was always like that, when he touched me, I always betrayed myself. Two months without kissing him, it was torture, I became dependent on him and it sucked!

"I just…I just need to know if that's what you want too?" he asked as he pulled his mouth away from mine, making me open my eyes still mesmerized by his kiss.

I opened and closed my mouth not knowing what to say. Did I want him for myself? Yes, I wanted him! Ignoring all the reasons we couldn't be together. Especially now that I caught him kissing that... What's her name again? I didn't remember, I just know that she became part of the company's board and according to the reports my sister insisted on putting on the cloud, she was doing a great job. Since my sister created an app, from which I could follow the reports of my directors' work, as soon as I transferred it to the app.

Damn! Once again to torment me, Cidinha was enough to hit Romão on the farm, now there will be this marketing director, tormenting me here at the company. I must have done something very wrong to deserve this punishment.

"My situation is quite different from yours," I said, stepping away from him so I could reason correctly.

"You asked me to be patient and trust you, I won't wait any longer. If you show up at this dinner, it means you want to be with me and I'll tell Patricia's mom that we're together, but if you don't show up..."

"What are you going to do? Are you going to fall into the arms of the marketing director?" A lump formed in my throat. Not! I couldn't cry, not in front of him. Filth! "You can't make that demand, not after I caught you kissing another woman."

“My God, Alexia! Do you realize what you're doing?" I grimaced, not understanding what he was talking about. "It's been two months and nothing has settled between us and now you're so jealous you've seen me kissing someone else." Me Was it jealous? Shit! I was jealous, it was over! "Meanwhile, you yourself make a million excuses for not taking on a relationship with me." that, he also had Hector's father, if he found out... Trouble was, I couldn't tell. "How long do you think I'll wait? You don't want me to be with anyone and at the same time you don't want to be with me."

OK! Maybe if I just told him about Hector's existence, he wouldn't need to know about the rest, would he?

"I just need some time, I still haven't managed to resolve everything I had to resolve."

There was Carla I needed to talk to before I made this decision.

"Tell me, let me help you."

He spoke putting his hands on my arms, stroking lightly and with a loving look. That gave me the creeps.

"I can't! Not yet!"

He stopped petting me by taking two steps back, his gaze changed, now he looked upset or disappointed I'm not sure.

"I waited two months, I won't wait any longer."

He turned and walked towards the door leaving me stunned.

"So that's it? Are you going to run into the marketing director's arms just because I need more time?"

"At dinner tonight we talked."

He didn't even wait for me to speak. Romao, simply, made me anxious. I wanted, really wanted it to be that simple, but it wasn't. I had a lot of problems to solve, there was the photographer I needed to locate, it was Carla who needed to convince me to let me find Hector, there were the anonymous threats I needed to find out who was doing this, there was the kidnapping attempt that still I didn't find out who was behind it, Hector's father's secret and now this. But it was like Romão said, our situation was simpler, but also, it was the most complicated to do. What a contradiction!

Taking on a relationship with Romão would imply that he would visit my apartment, he would have to know about Hector, and on top of that I would run the risk of my enemies finding out about him, which would make me feel guilty if something happened. He would need to know everything that happened to me after I made that speech, he needed to know what he was getting into, before we made a decision. I would have to talk to him before dinner and inform him of all the rich people he would rush to get me. And I still had my secret about who Hector's father was that under no circumstances was I going to tell.

But if it weren't for this dinner, she'd have to put up with his happiness with another woman, something I couldn't stand to live with either. Also, I didn't want to see him with that... shit! I didn't have a good feeling about her. I'm under the impression that we're going to have problems with that... Argh!!! I remembered a conversation on the farm of a girl Romao had been in love with as a teenager, but I couldn't remember the name they said. It couldn't have been her, I didn't believe this was the kind of girl he liked.

Damn! Damn! Damn! I couldn't let this…this…I don't even know her name, I couldn't let her be with my man, not him. Damn! You won Romao, I'm going to this dinner, I'm going to become his wife!