Unrequited Love
Unrequited love,
A strange feeling that's new.
I've never experienced it before so I don't know what to do.
This is different I can see, we both know it's true
There was once a time where you fell for me too.
Unrequited love,
This feeling that I hate.
Can we talk it out? Or is it just too late
You kept me in the shadows,
Locked me behind this door.
Alone with these empty feelings,
I wish I could ignore.
You made stupid decisions
Without considering mine at all.
No wonder it lacks precision,
Now our backs are against the wall.
Sorry, I think I made a mistake
It's not 'our backs', but just mine
Because actually, well-
You seem to be doing just fine.
I'm so sick of this feeling,
It's like I'm stuck in time
Don't know where to go
Should I turn left or right?
No sense of direction
Should I run and hide?
You gave me petty excuses,
Empty promises, bet you had fun.
Come on love, seriously?
all you wanted to do was run.
"I'm gonna marry you someday"
You said and I quote,
As I recall Your sparkling eyes and smile
That night you wore the burgundy coat.
"I love you"
Those three traumatizing words-
Now that's just about the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.
You kept saying sorry
As if it fixes your mistakes.
Your lack of sincerity,
Just makes my heart break.
You gave me false hope saying "Well maybe in the future we'll get back together"
But you have no intention, which just makes my heart bitter.
You regret it you said, Really?
You had your chance to make things right.
There's still time for you to do that, I think...
Never mind, just get out of my life.
My heart is big,
That's nothing new
One thing for sure,
You know it too.
No matter what you did, I was always here
Even at times when it was too much to bare.
I guess that's how I am, stupid, naive, and kind
For a guy, I wasn't sure if he was ever really mine.
Depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts,
That's the package of which loving you brought.
Depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts,
The unknown and silent battle of which I fought.
I'll be lying if I said it wasn't difficult to manage
But to be honest this relationship brought me a lot of damage.
How you may ask?
Well, it's simple facts.
As I previously said, you kept me in the dark
You simply hid perfectly behind your mask.
This mask, a mask full of lies
Lies that completely built your disguise.
You lied till the end-
I guess your feelings were dead.
Unrequited love,
That's what I get.
The things I did for you, I'm now full of regrets.
Why did you try to help me
Build my self-confidence?
When this is who you turned out to be,
Without warning, You said good riddance.
You left and now my confidence is gone
I constantly found myself asking
What did I do wrong?
Was it me? Or am I just not good enough?
Every word you've ever said, was it all a bluff?
Unrequited love,
When did it start?
Our story is like an unfinished work of art.
I guess that's what it was,
Perfect at the start.
But in the end, you never did your part.
So here I am, all alone, again.
Just as you met me before this relationship began.
But it's okay, I'll continue to fake a smile
Even if it's just for a little while.
They say time heals,
Which eases my mind
But I can tell it's gonna be a lonely ride.
I'll wait on the time that you leave my mind
But for now, I'll just smile and say I'm fine.
Someday, who knows when maybe soon,
There'll be someone out there for me-
Who isn't you
They'll know my worth and treat me accordingly
And you'll see what you missed out on, unfortunately.
So when I succeed in the future and you see me doing well
Don't try to act like the Beast to my Belle.
Because your time has gone, and I'll move on from you
And you'll no longer exist in my memory like you used to.