Re-think

Jade's point of view:

Knowing that my brother didn't attack me, instead, he saved my life erased a bit of bitterness that grew inside of my heart.

That was defiantly one of the worst days in my entire life. After that my brother was declared innocent, we made our pack toward the packhouse.

Not that he would be killed or thrown out of the pack if he was found guilty. That would've happened to anyone but not the alpha's son. He would just be punished or scolded by my father. Also, lose all sorts of respect from his pack which is not a good thing for someone who's being the next alpha.

Thank God, nothing from the previous things I've mentioned is happening. He proved to be the best alpha ever….

I was still in my wolf form, and I didn't want to meet or talk with anyone, especially my mate. So, I made it inside my room by getting inside using the window, only then I shifted back to my human form.

I cursed my luck since I was putting on my favorite peach cream off shoulders dress, and it was torn apart when I shifted to my wolf.

The lack of clothes on of my body made me to anticipate some cold water. I've always pushed myself under cold water whenever I wasn't feeling like myself.

I have all rights to not be myself, especially with what my mate has done. In fact, I'm even questioning if mating after my brother's ceremony would be a good idea.

I mean, I don't think we still have the same harmony we used to have when we first met. He changed, and I don't know what I have to do to have my soft and caring mate back.

Not wanting to think for too long, I decided to get inside of the bathroom. The more I think about James, the more I think of his betrayal. He was supposed to protect me – even from myself. That's what a mate does. Yet, he… He… I just don't want to think about it anymore.

I tried my best to chase every single thought about him, and the cold water helped me indeed to do so. The cold shiver that ran down my spine brought a fresh sensation that covered all my worries. It's like I wasn't only washing my body, Instead, I was washing my mind from the issues I was facing lately.

I slid my hand toward the nearby shelf, then took a shampoo – my favorite one. The sweet peach perfume running out of the shampoo over my head brought me to the one scent I wanted not to scent for the moment – James.

It's funny how my mate's scent seems exactly like the scent of my favorite shampoo. A weird mixture between peach and lilies that I never thought I'd adore until I met him.

I tried to force myself out of the shower since I don't for how long I've been there. Only God knows the sort of relationship between me and water. Still, it's my only way to erase stress and bad, negative energy.

I wrapped my wet body under a towel, then made my way out of the bathroom.

"Get out of my room!" I shouted the moment my eyes spotted my mate, but he didn't seem to be doing what I've told him to do.

" I was worried…"

He started, but I cut him off without hearing what he had to say.

"Worried my ass!" I cursed out loud for the first time in a while, "If you were really worried about me you wouldn't let me alone to die inside of the woods."

A weird silence consumed for a tiny while, then he started explaining again. A mixture of guilt and pain crossed his eyes while speaking.

"I didn't mean it that way… I thought you're safe since it's our territory."

Oh my God, does he think I'm way too dumb to believe such a thing? Or he perhaps counting in the mate bind to fix the entire situation. If so, he's way mistaken.

"How dare you? Have you for a while had that thought that because we mate you get to do whatever you want and I would act cool about it? Well, James - not going to happen! You could've at least kept your mind link open for me since I was your mate. Never heard in my entire life about a mate blocking his mate…"

" … I didn't believe you would need my help!" He interrupted, trying to make a point. "You've been always great when it comes on relying to yourself, and I didn't think for a while about the possibility of being attacked or outnumbered. It won't ever happen."

I wanted to believe him, but something inside of me screamed against him. I can't feel the sincerity of his feelings through his world.

While lost in my thoughts I was, I felt my body being pushed into the nearest wall. The sweet smell of the familiar perfume hit my nose hard, causing me to lose control over myself. My wolf howls rejoicing the sparkles and tingles caused by each and every skin contact between me and my mate. He skillfully ran both his hands around my body.

As one of James's hands was roaming around my waist, the other one captured both my hands above my head. My eyes went wide open in surprise, and I was able to feel my cheeks heating up as he was spreading kisses around my throat and neck. A moan escaped out of as I wasn't able to the pleasure I was feeling.

My heart started pounding as the desire I was feeling started burning both my heart and chest ran from my heart to my chest.

His finger moved from my waist to my neck, then started to move randomly, giving me the chills. From my neck, he moved to my shoulders, then started running his lips on my skin towards my ear. His gentle bites don't hurt at all, instead; it makes me want more.

His lips approached my ears as he started whispering.

"I know you can feel it the same way I do... Mate bond or not, we're made for each other! "

I don't know if it's his voice or his touches, or it's just him, but I was burning from the inside. All I was thinking about at the right moment, was the test of his lips on mine.

Though I know he likes to be the one in control, I didn't care about what he wanted any longer; all I was thinking about was what I wanted, and I wanted nothing more than his lips. I placed my lips on him, feeling the taste I was searching for.

The moment my lips fell on his, he let go of both my hands, which helped to keep taking the lead of the kiss. My hands ran through his delicate, sweet hair while his hands were circling around my waist as he used them to pull me closer.

The kiss was too long, yet too sweet. We didn't let go until we were both out of breath. Breathless I was, that I didn't utter a word. Well, I could not say the same about James who was searching for more.

«Jump!" He ordered, and I did as I was told. When I was lifted up by him, we started kissing each other without thinking about stopping.

I was so busy kissing him that I didn't realize how I ended up being thrown in my bed. Well, not for too long. Realization seemed to hit my entire presence, and without thinking twice..

I stopped his hand from unwrapping the towel that was covering my body. My voice would've betrayed me if I spoke so I decided against speaking. Instead, I pushed his body away from me.

I was feeling his angriness from a far, and his voice echoed through my ears making me feel ashes burning inside of my heart.

"Okay, fine! I'm leaving… Take your time… Perhaps, re-think if we're even good for each other!"

With that, he raged out of the room, and I was left alone…