I am not an angel

Xaddrin's p.o.v

It hurts me when I have to look into Zhakhil's eyes and see the hesitation in them. The reaction in them was like shards thrown at my heart that broke the very shield that protect me. 

His piercing gaze accused me and called me names without him having to move his lips. All of which were tearing me apart. 

In my life, I have only ever given my heart to two people. He and Iggi and if I was asked which one of those times I regretted my decision, it would be now. 

It is just so hard to love someone who doesn't dare to stay. With Zhakhil, I always feel like I am begging for his love, he looks for every little opportunity to get a reason to turn his back on me and leave. 

How can someone who can't get himself to love me for the good and the bad even claim to love me at all? 

"You said that our bond is forever. Then why do you walk away each time?"