The world is it dangerous place, anyone and everyone is not safe. I cannot say that I'm happy because I have long forgotten what happiness is.
We each day that passes, I am reminded of the fact that I gave up the most important thing in my life.
Waking up every day is torture. Walking the land I want to walk to the one I love but sadly there is no road. That can lead need to him. The two of us are forever set apart.
No matter how much I want to be with him, I can't tonight but he's no longer with me. For the rest of eternity he is forever gone. I promised him forever but I'm the one who broke him.
That is not telling but I didn't love him. I love Tim beyond words. I truly wished that our circumstances were different that way I could at least feel less guilty.
Having lost love in my life is not an excuse for what I have become. It's not an explanation just a scar in my heart I can never heal.