What's holding him back?

After the accidental meeting, Jk went back home while Y/n went on her way...

Time skip...(the rest of the day went as usual)

At night

After completing his night routine Jk went to finally take some rest after a long and stressful day. as soon as he laid down the thought of the girl whom he met while returning back from the company crossed his mind.

Jk's thoughts:

she seemed too familiar to my heart and soul but still too unfamiliar to my mind.. who is she? what was those vivid images that blinded my eyes for a moment? what does she have to do with me?

i don't know her but why do i want to keep her beside me for the rest of our lives? who exactly is she? do i know her? is she someone from my childhood whom i can't remember right now? i don't know and nor do i wanna know i just wanna get rid of these stupid thoughts and this unfamiliar feeling building inside of me.

Thinking all this, Jk shrugged off the thought of Yn from his mind and finally fell asleep.

He suddenly woke up panting and breathing heavily. He woke up with teary eyes, covering his ears in an attempt to stop all those voices inside his head telling him contrasting things; one to go find the person while the other stops him from doing so or he may face the consequences.

JK: As much as I want to run away from it, it chases me even more. I want to forget about it but it always reminds me of a memory that I don't want to remember and in reality I don't even know what it is , it's like this every time I am always willing to meet that person but at the end what I find is always a dead end. There is a voice that tells me to meet that one person but then there's another which always tells me to stay away or else everything will come to an end. The voice is always telling me that I am not worthy of love I don't deserve anyone's love, everyone who loves me loses their life and the sole reason for this is something which I can't figure out in my entire existence till now , I guess I have started to believe it myself, I just want all this to stop. These nightmares always haunt me, it's been such a long time since I've been having such nightmares. These nightmares are all about that person whom I want to love but can't because of that stupid voices that always takes away my reason to smile. Although I am in public eye and being loved by millions of fans but still deep inside I know I don't deserve to be loved.... but who that person is?? why do I want to meet him or her so desperately and why can't I meet and love them and what will end if I do so, all these questions are still a mystery for me which I have to solve to be at peace and it's not just the feeling of uneasiness that rises inside of me because of these unanswered questions and these nightmares that I get since childhood but also the experiences I had in my past. I can't express my turmoil to anyone and maybe this is the reason that I am a totally different person in reality that I cannot show to the world.

After debating with himself he finally gets up and tries to trace the figure which he always saw in his dreams but again found the dead end and couldn't figure out "the person" who always budges his insides since childhood.

After about a couple of hours he decided to have a quick nap since the next day was a big day for him as his most anticipated album after his break was going to be released and he was gonna be really busy in its promotions and interviews but sleep was far away from his eyes and even his mind was not at rest after that intriguing dream.. so he decided to take a walk instead and clear his mind out.

THE NEXT MORNING IN THE COMPANY

Again busy people rushing here and there, sounds of people calling each other, sounds of Music , footsteps of trainees practicing their dance, melodious voices spread across the room.

The same schedule started all over again. the same busy and stressful life was back.

As soon as his album released it became a massive hit and was the most talked topic around the world. he got so occupied with the promotions that he didn't even have any time to rest, also since he had so many interviews and promotions going on he always needed some staff members with him all the time just in case anything goes wrong and due to the shortage of staff members in his team more staff was added and Yn was one of them.

Being one of his staff member, she and JK started to interact more and eventually became good friends and everyone was shocked to see that how the one who didn't even talk to anyone was now all giggly and talkative with the mere makeup artist. Since Yn too had an artistic intellect they both used to help each other in trying new things and getting out of their comfort zone.

JK: I am trying to make a perfect song on the theme one sided love what kind of topic is it even, why does the CEO wants me to make a song on such a stupid topic.. I have never even experienced it.

(he sulked in front of Yn)

while Yn just chuckled at his behaviour and suggested to help him.

Yn : I am not good at writing lyrics but I can help you. one sided love is such a beautiful feeling like you know you have no chance with that person and you can only admire them from afar but still somewhere deep down in your heart you just want to be with that person for once and for always. You know there is something different when the love is one sided, I mean you pray for them ,you laugh at their lamest jokes, you romanticize your life with them, you give that beautiful smile when you think about them, you try not to sound desperate but still love them as hell.

JK: Waah!!!! it's as if you have already experienced it, it all felt so real.....

Yn: N-No No! it was just that one of my friend had such a thing so yeah I know (hehe)

she said awkwardly while in reality it was her real feelings towards jungkook and not of her friend's

time skip

After this incident Yn started to help him in completing his song although she did nothing but just sat there and kept blabbering about her so called friend's story.

At JK's place

JK: hey Yn! can you please just leave your cell phone for once and look at these lyrics.

Yn: sure, just a minute.

JK showed her the lyrics he wrote and Yn was jungshooked and fell in love with those lyrics.

Yn:Waaahhh!! they are so touching I love them.

Jk:uhmmmm naah... I don't really like it that much I'll just make some changes and show it to you again.

Yn: Aaahh!! ohh-kk but it looked fine to me... whatever...

and this continued for about a couple of hours every time JK showed her the lyrics she would love it but he would just feel to change some parts and rewrite the whole thing all over again.

Finally Yn lost it and bursted out saying " what is all this ... seriously JK you have changed the draft about a 100 times already and you still don't like it. like what else do you want it's perfect... and you are just overworking yourself by changing it again and again just finalise it already....

JK: hehe!!! sorry but it's the last one please just have a look.

Yn (looked at him in disbelief): No, I am not gonna do it now cause every time I love it you just change it all over again I am going now it's already late Bye.... take care and go to sleep now. We'll see it tomorrow.

Jk ( mumbled under his breath): But this time I really liked it....

JK: Ok byeee.... Take care and sleep well.

( Jk dropped Yn to her place and went back home)

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when JK went to drop Yn at her place someone from the company saw them going together and assumed that they were in a relationship and spread this fake rumour all around the company which led to the people to be jealous of Yn and gossip about them.

Next Morning

When JK came to know about these rumours he felt anger rushing through his veins as all these rumours were nothing but just baseless false accusation. He thought of solving this out before anything goes out of hand. he went straight up to the CEO's office and told him to shut all this nonsense immediately before letting it spread out side the company.

(he tried to act fierce in front of the CEO as he was scared that the same situation might happen as it happened with Eunbi. But to his relief the CEO immediately agreed to him and called the entire staff to talk with them.)

After the meeting

This matter settled down and Yn went to thank JK for handling the situation so well but JK on the other hand ignored her and tried to maintain his distance with Yn so that the similar situation never rises ever again.....