Go crazy for you now

Ivan rested his hands on the kitchen counter and let out a heavy sigh. He couldn't understand how to survive his heart in this situation where Kai has been treating him most softly. It was winning him even when he was heartbroken. Because all Ivan could find was the genuineness on Kai's face every time he assured him that made him believe in his words. Perhaps he is telling the truth or not. He didn't know what exactly happened with Kai but the conviction in his eyes now made him think about him once again and not give up on him soon. He had an urge to trust him but he was scared of one thing.

What if he breaks my heart again? 

For a moment he thought that because Kai doesn't know about the truth between him and Augustus and that's why treating him with respect.

How will he react if he gets to know? 

He might get angry, thrash him for life, break ties with him. The heartbreak seemed inevitable.