My father's son

Jake's pov

The following week was filled with a lot of arguments between Sabbie and I. At first it started as a silly banter as to why Jay called me dada instead of Sabrina as mama. She even tried to coerce Jay to call her mama but I think Jay had decided to begin with me. I tried reassuring Sabrina that it was only a matter of time before he could call him mama. Her insecurities were beginning to set in, and I could see in her eyes the wheels of overthinking in her mind turning and if I didn't do anything about it, it was going to drive us apart and I was not going to allow it.

The end of the week after attending our regular Christian service whose theme was Unfailing love, on our way home, Sabrina asked, " Jake are you okay with being a father figure to Jay?" her question proved my fears that in as much as she loved me, she was having doubts about the dynamics of our relationship. So in reply I asked, "Have I proven otherwise babe?"

"I don't know maybe when we get married, it's going to be a problem and you will resent me, or be embarrassed to be with me because you have seen it for yourself, how people still victimize and stigmatize me for the rape. I don't know if you will still be willing to be Jay's father figure, a child from rape." she asked gloomily.

"I am hurt that you think, I am going to change my mind on you and Jay. You both make my world complete, and me not being in it, is the gravest mistake I could ever do. I made that mistake once and am not going to do it again, because I would be miserable and without purpose. As for those victimizing you and looking down upon you, they will have to go through me, because God help me, I will kill them all. Jay is my Father's son but that man did not deserve to have a wonderful son as Jay. Jay is my father's son biologically, but in mind, body, spirit and above all heart, he is my son and I will be his Dad no matter what you say or the world thinks. I am his Dad and will still be his Dad. "I said, as I approached her to embrace her, maybe if she felt how my heart was calm and sure, she would believe me.

"What if when Jay is grown up, he hears what the world is saying about me or reads in the papers what happened, what will we tell him?"

"We will cross that bridge when we get there but still if such a situation arises, we will tell him the truth, the whole truth. And if he is a loving son as I can see him becoming, he will side with his beautiful mom, he will protect you against the world. You don't have to worry, we are in this together. It's us against the world. "

"I just hope Jay won't resent me when he grows up. So when do you think we should have our wedding? We haven't had time to talk about us since you went all romantic on me and proposed." She said giggling.

"If it were up to me, we could do it even now or as soon as possible, because I can't wait to have you in my bed and do the naughtiest and kinkiest with you." I regretted what I had just said the moment it was out of my mouth based on how fear was written all over her face. Damn it how could I be so inconsiderate. Everything sexual must be a trigger to her nightmares. So I asked, " Sabbie, sugar, you do know that when we get married, we will have to make love not once but so many times, right?" She nodded, while shyly biting her fingers. "I know it's going to be hard on you but I want you to know, that we will make love only when you are ready, okay. So should we do the wedding in a week, a month, three months or six?"

Her expression when I said that, showed me that she had thought about it and she might be slightly excited about it, she quickly masked the expression and replied shyly, "Yes, I know, we will do it..." Just to continue making her shyly cute, I asked, "to do what?" She replied, "You know what babe, okay, I will say it, to make love. I know that anything sex related scares me but also I can't stop thinking about how it will be like, doing it with the person I love and loves me, and that is you. So I will not continue second guessing myself, I want to experience this with you and I can't wait another month for that to happen. So how about in two weeks' time we get married?"

"Yes, my lady. You wish is my command. Two weeks it is." I replied happily hugging her and placing a kiss on her forehead.

The following two weeks we filled with wedding preparations, and moving, some of Sabrina and Jay's stuff into our new home. The wedding was simple yet elegant with only a handful of guest. Marcus and Zoe were our best couple. My favorite part of the wedding seeing Sabbie in a white-off shoulder gown that hugged her in all the right places walking down the aisle holding Paps hand and Zoe behind them. I could not wait for the ceremony to be over so that I could show her just how much, I loved her, under the sheets of course. Can you blame me though? I am a full blooded male, in love with the sexiest, beautiful woman on earth. So yes I definitely want to have her in my bed for a very long time. That aside, the moment I was looking forward to was the, "you may now kiss your wife moment" and Damn, I took my time with this. I started by kissing her forehead, both cheeks, nose and when I landed on those luscious, inviting lips that have tormented me since the last time tasted them at the launch, I was overwhelmed and it took the cheers and nudging from Marcus to stop so that we both could get some air and of course the oohs and whistling from the crowd was causing Sabrina to blush profusely.

The highlight of the moment was seeing Jay in his little tux in his toddler stagger bringing the wedding bands to us, he wanted to give me the bands, lifted his hands and called me, "dada" but the little man changed his mind when he saw how beautiful his mom was. He lifted his tiny hands to Sabrina and gave her the wedding bands and shouted happily, " Mama" earning an oh my God moment from Sabrina and cheers from the guests. Sabrina picked her him up in her loving embrace and my little guy was so happy that he shouted again giggling, "mama!" and Sabrina wept with joy and I joined in the moment and hugged my family, my wife and son.

**** The End****