It's finally day off, good thing the sky is clear and hopefully It won't rain later, but first I'm gonna wash some of my used clothes. It's almost been a while since I washed my bed sheets. While I'm hanging it outside, maybe it's better if I go shopping then later I'll cook and spend some of my time enjoying my food, It's been a while since I cooked here. It's just a small apartment but I always treat it as my home, all alone here, I do all the chores such as cooking cleaning and arranging. It's not that I can't afford to pay a helper for that, It's just that I don't trust anyone so I don't have a choice but to do it myself.
I've been thinking about this for a while now, maybe I should go visit Saki and his family, it's not like I hate him, but maybe it's better if I go. He's the one who's looking after me when I was young I admired him for who he was. Right now I'm living like a normal person spending my day offs in cleaning the apartment going to groceries then cooking, and I'm happy that I'm able to spend it peacefully.
~ Right now it's 12:34 pm, l just finished hanging my laundry, maybe it's better if I visit Saki first. Besides, I'm free all day so maybe I can go shopping later at night. But first I'm going to take a bath then change and then I'm going to shop first before going there and maybe I'll gonna bring him souvenirs and some drinks also a food for his wife and his child. How many years have passed since I saw him maybe I'm just gonna be fine seeing him with his beloved wife. Even though I was invited to their wedding but I didn't come cause it was so hard for me to accept that he's already getting married that time and I can't even face him after that. But maybe this time I can face him ,and I hope I will be alright after I do this.
Ughh~ I'm finally finished, I'm gonna go shop for food to bring to them. Hmmm.. What should I bring?
I go buy some snacks for his kid then some vegetables and drinks for him and his wife..
his kid's age, maybe it's around 3-4 years old I'm gonna buy this stuffedtoy. Saki often told me in the past that he like stuffed animals, then I'll gonna buy this stuffed bunny for the kid, I still don't know what's the gender of his kid tho.
~I'm already finished shopping.. Gift for kid: check,Drinks and vegetables: check, my heart?: check? maybe?. Then it's time to face my biggest fear , Im gonna meet him and his family for real, then here I am.
As I ride the bus, I'm feeling like I'm going to end my peaceful life and I feel little bit nervous cause it's been a long time since I see him and spoke to him. Now the bus already stop I feel so nervous that I'm gonna throw up but I'll gonna endure this. It's just a 10 minutes walk from here to their house, and in ten minutes I'll be able to meet him at last I hope nothing can go wrong.