NIGHT WITH HIM

It's already past midnight and we're still drinking, some of us are already drunk and I don't know why but our topic is kinda embarrassing for me, they're talking about their love life, some of them are complaining about their boyfriend or girlfriend, they are having fun drinking and talking with each other while I'm being left out, drinking quietly at the bottom end of the table doing my best not to be noticed. They're still drinking *sake while I'm drinking lemon juice to prevent from getting drunk, thinking that l still need to take a bus going home safely. I feel so out of place thinking that I don't belong here and I don't know how to talk to them like how they talking happily with each other, first of all I can't relate to their topic about boyfriend, girlfriend, and love. Feelings that you're being cared by someone.

While we're drinking, I'm occupied by my thoughts thinking unnecessary things.

I noticed the president was looking at me, l already know that he's trying to get my attention to look at him but I'm not in a mood to fool around and mess with him, so l was planning to ignore him till we're finished drinking, and l successfully ignored him until the end. We already finished drinking with my companions and I'm planning to take a bus and go home after drinking. While we're saying goodbye to each other, I'm making my way going home but the president noticed me and invited me to drink with him, I told him that l don't have a reason to accept his invitations but he grinned and told me that he's gonna discuss with me about the planning for the next project, i already know that he's only using that excuse to make me go with him, sadly I don't have a reason to refuse his invitation cause he's my boss after all. We're drinking and talking unnecessary things and he keep asking me about anything that he remember till I'm drunk. It's already 1:30 am and I'm so sleepy the fact that I'm a little bit dizzy from drinking, I can't handle my dizziness in the end and I fall asleep on the desk where we're drinking.

I've got a feeling that tomorrow I'll gonna suffer from hung over...

It's 8:10 am and I'm in my house right now. I don't know what happened yesterday but I still remember some of it. I hate to recall this but one hour earlier l found my self sleeping in an unknown room naked, laying down in a huge bed with my president, I hate to admit it but he's also naked not wearing a single thing, to sum it up I'm with the president drinking till I'm drunk and he brought me to his house, to analyze the memories in my mind and also my butt feels weird. We did it, l hate to assume but I'm the bottom, so l rushed out of his room and make my way home to run away without waking him up to avoid misunderstanding. I hope that he will forget about this when he wake up, and l don't want to cause a problem because of this, better to leave than to let him see how big of a mess l was, ughhhhh.. let's forget about it and if he remember a vague of it let's just deny it by telling him that he got the wrong person. l hope he's gonna believe it, besides he hates me after all.

For now let's just clean the house and do some chores, even tho l can't move freely because my back hurts as l move my hips, it hurts so much even just for walking.