Arc 4 Chapter 4.10 ( The abandoned ) part 3

Opening his eyes again , Zone weakly sat up and looked around the new room . Because of the divinity he had absorbed from the world conciousness before. He can now maintain his memory while reincanating. 

Zone rubbed his temple and gritted his teeth to maintain his turbulent emotions . Everytime he opens his eyes , Jiro's body would always flash within his minds constantly tormenting his brain into deep Insanity.  Zone was a type of man who easily gives up and doesn't want to get his hopes high up. He has a high pride and doesn't want to be on the losing end.  He admits he was hurt when Jiro left him , it was so painful that thinking about makes him feel that there's millions of pins stabbing at his heart and index fingers poking at his head ridiculing him for his deeds . He felt thousands of malicious spirits laughing maliciously at him. 

" Aaaarg!!!! " Zone shouted and clutched his forehead .

Tears started flowing down from his eyes . He felt his brain and chest breaking into peaces and it was agonizing.

" Stop it!!! "

The door was suddenly opened and a gentle looking middle aged woman entered with a worried gaze and sat down on the bed , held both of the young man's head and hugged him to her chest .

" Son ... Calm down . "

The woman noticed the agonizing pain his son was suffering . She couldn't help feeling bad for her son . She tightened her hug and kissed his temple .

" You can withstand it son . I know she doesn't love you anymore but mom is still here . We love you . "

Zone sobbed and hugged her back.  " It hurts.  " He hoarsely uttered .

" I know "

A head dyed in golden popped out and entered the room . Shade secretly watched Zone , not expecting to see this kind of side to Zone . The Zone within mind was bright and sunny , and as time passed changed unto numbness with real emotions masked within a stoic and seemingly calm persona. When he met him again , he has a depressed and gloomy atmosphere upon his face. 

Shade was concerned for Zone but Zone always alienated everyone from his world . It is now their 40th reincarnation ever since Jiro left Zone and it also meant that Zone reincarnated 40 times without Jiro beside him . He knew it was painful , he himself felt hurt when he tried putting himself within Zone's shoe .

He admits that Shade developed a kind of feeling for Zone out of pity thinking that he could do better and love Zone better if it was him who was Zone's husband. 

But he doesn't want to be labeled as an adulterer , and just emersed himself with his fate of a second male lead .

" Oh , Donie you're here . Can you pacify this heartbroken man? He cant just stay depressed because of a mere love you know . How come this kid had fallen so deep that he would torment himself like this? " Said Zone's reincarnation's mother in distress .

Donie (Shade) , smiled and nodded to Mrs. Echevas . " I'll take in charge with him Auntie don't worry . "

He entered and sat at the edge of the bed . Mrs. Echevas nodded and smiled at Donie before giving her son another hug again before exiting .

After Mrs. Echevas exited the room . Shade couldn't help laughing and pointed at the gloomy man .

" Dude , you're a second make lead right now unexpectedly . I didn't expect you would reincarnate as a second male lead when you mostly reincarnate as a villain or a protagonist.  "

Zone clicked his tongue and climb down the bed before taking off his upper clothes .

The body he possessed this time lacks blood and he felt dizziness when he finally stand up .

" I'll excercise , go out . "

Shade nodded and reminded Zone . " Don't act out of character.  "

" I know " responded Zone as he started doing sit ups .

Shade exhaled and exited the room . He was just an extra character and doesn't need to worry about death flags so he immediately went out to waste his time .

But remembering Zone's bold move of removing his clothe in front of him. Shade subconsciously smiled foolishly .

On the other hand , the stoic faced Zone came out of the bathroom all naked and started dressing himself amd went out for breakfast .

Staring at the delicious food in front of him . He calmly began eating and dazed around with dark circles around his eyes .

It's been 500 years ... 500 years since Jiro left him . Zone frowned as his eyes turned watery . He bit his lips amd burried his face to the food .

It tastes shit after Zone remembered how long he's been seeking for his husband . He almost wanted to give up. 

" I guess , our status as lovers is no longer valid? "

He muttered , this thought always popped within his mind . Even modern people would find someone else as replacement to their husband after they were left behind .

It was already a surprise that he could endure for more than 500 years .

Zone put down his spoon and stared mid-air . " We're no longer together ... Why am i still hoping for him to come back? "

" There's a lot of worlds in the universe.  How am i suppose to find him? I bet he already loves someone after several reincarnations.  "

Thinking about that possiblity , a crazed look surfaced upon his face for a while before it turned desperate as if he couldn't believe and accept such a thing. 

" Why? Why do you have to hate me so much as you would resort on leaving me as soon as i had freed you? Why? "

Zone couldn't help bursting again and weeped . Everytime his mood rocked bottom again , Zone at the same time felt that he was so pathetic . This kind of suffering could be called martyrdom . Why does he has to suffer from the pain of being left behind while secretly hoping that he would someday come back to him and say sorry to him .

Why can't he move on?

Why does he not let his heart get some space away from Jiro and just get over with it and love someone else?

Why?

Zone clutched his heart and weeped again .

Is it because he felt that Jiro was the only one who truly cares for him and he was the one for him?

No

Zone was not blind .

He could see and he knows that Uno was there for him and there's a lot of people out there who actually has genuine love aymd concern for him . As long as he emersed himself and live his life peacefully . He will definitely see that Jiro was not the only one who cared for him .

Is it because of the prophecy?

His promise that he would cherish Jiro? And that he would never hurt him again?

Why did Jiro not left him at that prophecy when he found out that he was the one who sealed his soul?

Zone clutched his throbbing head. 

" ... I quit "

" As long as i no longer hurt him.  That would be already enough for my promise to the prophecy.  "

" We're already far away from each other ... It's time to move on now.  "

But the moment Zone uttered those words , his heart seemed to have been completely broken.

Just like that , Zone continued reincarnating and reincarnating until he can see any hope that would light up his dark world again .

In an ancient world , he portrayed a role as a general . A teacher , a scholar , a boy , soldier , a painter , a poet , an author , a chef , almost all of his lifetime . He spent it learning and learning until he drives away the figure of a certain someone within his head .

Gradually , his impulsive nature turned calm and cold and at the same time apathetic .

Doze and Uno became more and more worried about their master and this kind of life persisted until Zone reincarnated in a time he was cuddling a woman .

Zone blinked and looked down . In his arms , there lay a beautiful peony that could entice any man in the world to press her down . She's beautiful and looked tranquil. Zone stared at her , although his heart didn't beat . He was already numb to it .

He doesn't even care about the fate of the characters in this world . He was just like a subject that had already lost his goal in his life , wandering again and again to find the oasis .

It is his first time to awaken with a beauty in his arms but unlike other stereo gays , Zone did not feel disgusted . He was just numb and enjoyed being back to masculinity again .

He no longer has a lover . It couldn't be considered cheating .

He left me ... Why would i protect my body for someone who might have already touched someone else . Thinking about that the man might have already married someone else in his lifetime . Zone surprisingly didn't feel rage .

Numb ...

Apathy ...

Nonchalance ...

All painted clearly upon his face .

The woman within his arm suddenly moved. The moment she opened her eyes . Her eyes met a cold lair of red eyes . Aya , a beautiful asian drowsily rubbed her eyes . She didn't feel that the crimson eyes were suspicious , thinking that it were just contact lenses.

Suddenly , warm hands peeled her hands away from her face . Followed by a hoarse yet charming greetings of the man cuddling her .

" Good morning "

Aya paused and looked up to the man beside her . She smiled sweetly and kissed the man's forehead .

" Good morning too honey . "

That man was stunned for a while , before the cold mask melted and a gentle smile surfaced .

" Sleepy? You can go back to sleep. I'll cook you breakfast. "

Aya giggled and nodded obediently , before tucking herself again to sleep . A drop of cold sensation touched her cheeks before the man exited the room .

Once Zone exited , Aya couldn't help screaming inwardly.

_ The rumor that Actor Lu was a cold man was false!!!, He was so gentle aaaah . _

_ i finally get to be his girlfriend .... Aaaah I'm so happy that i could die . _

End of the fourth Arc. Next Arc ( Actor Lu's Fanboy )