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They are life problems, do not make yourself more drama and face them, yes of course, it sounds so easy to say that it would not matter at all what I feel or think, if I only have to face the problems as if nothing had happened, as if the same society did not I was doing more shit to me.

Are they just things in my head? Do I only cry for the pure? Why am I weak? I always appear to be a strong woman, one who can handle everything despite any adversity, who does things no matter what calm and continue as if nothing was happening but it is the opposite, I am weakening little by little that my body is beginning to fail me, there were days when I thought about throwing in the towel but I can't, damn I can't and I hate to keep pretending something I'm not, just for the simple fact that others will feel sorry for me, I hate that.

Is it so difficult to understand that? So many signs that I have given them and none of them have paid attention to them, when I really want to leave, when I really am about to leave, there they will want to grab me, hold on to this life, this is not life, this suffering is not life, abuse is not, it is anything but life, if this is life for you, then I do not want to continue being part of this, I can not but my baby, my reason for living, my reason for being, looking into his eyes while I swallow my tears for not being enough for him, for not being the mother he deserves, just looking at him reactivates my hopes that at least something would improve.

Even when everything indicated that it would not happen, the savings were running out and despair consumed her little by little, not knowing what she would do when she saw the completely empty refrigerator, when the bills for electricity, water and other things will begin to arrive without knowing how. to solve it without having any lifeguard, he had gone company by company to leave his resume but as his former boss told him not to expect any letter of recommendation from him of course he understood that but that the embarrassing news has been around as if it were gossip, that caused him to push his limits.

She was sitting on a bench with a can of liquor in her hand feeling so alone, defeated and furious because she did not know which way to cross, she had checked the time on her wrist watch, there was still time that to tell the truth it was a couple of hours to be able to pick up his baby, a tear rolled down his cheek when he thought that he should get him out of there due to lack of liquidity, he did not deserve this, he was still too young to share his suffering.How had the world collapsed in So little time ?, Although she wanted to prove her innocence the cards at stake were against her, she had nothing left but to swallow any insult that she would have to say to anyone who insulted her for not having had ethics or morals in her actions.

—Isn't it too early to get drunk?

She lowered the can, leaving it by her side still with her hand on it, turning her head noticing how the man who had been harassing her for more than two months sat next to her adjusting his neat suit while she thought he was a rich kid wanting to show off what that he had, that he wanted to be envied and he could have whatever he wanted just by snapping a finger or crying inconsolably in his daddy's arms, he laughed shortly at the thought of that taking another sip noticing that his can was almost empty, perfect, now he couldn't give himself the luxury of buying another.

"Didn't they tell you he's a bloody pain in the ass?"

I turn around looking with mockery as the opposite opened his eyes outraged by what he had said, at least he thought that he should have a little fun with him knowing that it would not hurt him, if he had not done it for a long time, although he also thought that he would be waiting the perfect time to do it, she still couldn't completely trust him if she knew his name from her friend by fair means.

"I thought you were a woman with a correct vocabulary, a benevolent and hard-working mother."

She laughed shortly, taking the can to her mouth taking it completely, sighing sadly knowing that it was completely empty, she looked at the time on the clock knowing that she still had time left but she did not want to continue losing it with the tycoon, she snapped her teeth somewhat annoyed by his comment but anyway he found the thoughtful side to her about her funny.

—Oh, excuse me sir for not meeting the expectations of the woman that she wants or that she craves so much, now that I am as you can see, stop fucking me that I have enough problems now.

She snorted angrily getting up from the bench, she started walking towards a trash can throwing the empty can, she sighed looking up at the sky determined to go and pick up her baby, she needed a little energy to be able to continue looking for work however a hand on her The doll did not let her continue causing her to turn to see the man who was looking at her seriously indicating with only his eyes that he wanted her to stay with him, she did not want to, she would say no if he asked her but she felt completely lost in his eyes that hid so many secrets that they died to be revealed.

—To tell the truth, I still like you, this side of you is new to me and encourages me to continue knowing more about you.

He released all the air that he had retained releasing his wrist that undoubtedly felt that the opposite wanted to continue holding her captive, she bit her lip to finally look him in the eyes looking for some indication of what that man really wanted, she knew that she should finish this Weird situation in which they were, which had her harassed, had to end right now.

—What does he really want? We're going to talk like the adults we are and he's going to tell me his true intentions because almost two months have passed and he's still thought I'm going to accept his stupid proposal.

Well, applause for our beloved protagonist who had finally released what she had held back so much, although to tell the truth it had taken too long, while the man in front of her looked at her curiously releasing a small amused laugh when looking at her angrily, we can say that That turned him on, oh without a doubt it turned him on, so much that he wanted to have her at his mercy so he could punish her for speaking to him that way, but he couldn't, no matter how much he wanted, and he had to behave like all the gentleman he was.

—I like you, I already told you that I believe in love at first sight and my proposal still stands, give me the opportunity to fall in love, I will give you everything you want but just accept me.

That left her breathless, different words but the same stupid proposal, before she would have said no again but now the situation changed, she did not want to depend on anyone, she hated begging someone for help when she herself could pay for her things, that She could solve everything herself but now she was up against a rock and a hard place, she needed help and hated not being able to shout it from the rooftops without feeling miserable, she lowered her head feeling the helplessness of not being able to continue alone as she had been doing for the last few years If formerly I were seeing her now, without thinking I would have slapped her for tremendous stupid things she did.

—Okay I'll think about it, give me some time to do it.

—Okay, you know I'll be waiting for you.

He grabbed her hand again bringing it to his lips where he placed a short kiss without taking his gaze from his eyes, so penetrating that it caused her a shiver throughout her body, retaining a gasp deep in her throat and wishing he would touch her more. , hell what was wrong with him, he let go quickly swallowing hard when he looked at how he laughed as if he was playing with her, he turned around walking in a hurry towards the destination that had been planted hours ago, while the tycoon was biting his lips eagerly and now sure that he would receive his call, he only counted the hours for his phone to ring and he would hear the voice of the girl who could have him crazy.

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