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"Ka? Ka? Ka? (Why? Why? Why?)" Gauravi muttered leaning her head on the table. After the barging scene at Yoongi's lab she had ran away from there, directly into security room to hid her embarrassed self.  She lifted her head as her chin rested on the table now. "Stupid coffee." She glared at the coffee mugs sitting in front of her eyes. "Argghhhh!" She groaned smacking her forehead on the table again. Why I had to lie like that?! She screamed in her mind groaning. She could've just said that she came to meet Yoongi. Why blurt out useless lies like that? That too in front of him.

"B-but they, they looked so close." She muttered thinking about close they were standing. Too close. He wasn't the one with close proximity like that. He hated that, then why they were standing soo close. And that lady, she-she was so beautiful. Her hair. Unconsciously Gauravi's hands moved to her hand. Plain black short hair, not even straight and silky like the lady's. Gauravi was pretty sure hers wouldn't be like bird's nest in morning unlike Gauravi's. Squeezing her eyes close she stopped her thoughts. "Stop! You are being insecure little bitch." She scolded herself for having those thoughts. It felt like she was her teen self again. The teen that was insecure to such a point that she lost so many good opportunities. But somehow she had evolved into a butterfly leaving her past self behind into the confident Gauravi she was now.

Sighing, she cleared her thoughts. Think about good thoughts. Gauravi good thoughts. She thought but as soon as her mind cleared they both flashed in her mind again. "Argh! Goddamn it!" She screamed slamming her fist beside her head on the table.

"Wae? Wae? What is wrong with you?" Gauravi tilted her head to see Soo Young walk into the room and sit in front of her. Gauravi sighed and turned her head back to previous position. Why? She cried in her mind. "Coffee?" Soo Young said. Gauravi heard the shuffling, sighing again she said.

"You can have the damn coffee."

"Uh? Really? That's new. You handing out something for free." Soo Young said as he shamelessly took a sip from one of the mug. "It's gotten cold." He complained taking another sip. Gauravi would've said few words back but she wasn't in mood to quarrel with him today. "What is with you? You seem quite happy for last few days. Ha Joon left saying you were skipping around whistling today." He said poking her head. Gauravi just ignored him huffing. Her brain wouldn't stop with those stupid imagination.

"Arghh!" She groaned again smacking her head on table. Stop!

B-but, what if they really are?

Why does that even matter? Her egoist side said.

They really looked good together though.

Again why does that matter? Her egoist side said again. You are pretty too. He couldn't keep his hands to himself all these days.

She was so pretty. Was it her eyes? No- her boobs! Yes, they were definitely bigger than hers. Gauravi thought as her hands moved to feel hers. Yes, they were definitely bigger. He does love bigger ones with the way how he always grope mine and share at them, he's palm covering them easily. Her butt was juicy too. But mine isn't that bad, is it? She thought moving her hands from her boobs to her butt. It was good thing that Soo Young was busy blabbing to notice her. Two idiots in their own world.

Realizing what she was doing Gauravi jerked up making Soo Young squeal in shock. "Ggam nol!" He squealed jumping. "Yah! Neo michyeosseo?! (Are you crazy?!)" He screamed glaring at her, who completely ignored him as she stood up.

"Going out for smoke." She abruptly said turning around and left.

"Yah! Yah? YAH!" Soo Young screamed but she was long gone.

Gauravi was back at her smoking corner. In parking area behind the building beside the bin. It's been days since she returned here. Pulling out a cigarette from box, she held it in her lips, lighting it up. Bitterness spread in her mouth as she took in a drag. Taking the white stick in between her middle and pointer finger she let out a cloud of smoke from her lips. Sighing she leaned her head back on the wall behind her.  "Why am I stressing about these things instead of focusing on my job?" She muttered closing her eyes. 

I am a possessive man, Tigress.

Her eyes snapped open. A scowl took place on her face as she took another drag from the white stick. "Possessive man he says. Huh!" She snorted. "How many woman does he have to be possessive about?!" She bellowed. "I am a possessive woman too!" She ranted letting out another puff of smoke. "P-possessive? Ahh! Kay bolteys tu Gauravi?! (What are you talking about Gauravi?!)" She groaned pulling her hair realizing where her thoughts were leading. "Possessive? Since when you started doing that? It was only use it till it last?! Where are these futile feelings are coming from?" She groaned turning around, her head leaning on wall as her fist collided with it in frustration. She moved her head side to side stomping her feet. She definitely looked like a child throwing tantrum to on lookers who were staring at her as they climbed out of their car.

"Umm Jungkookie? Isn't that noona there standing beside the bin?" Jimin asked pulling his sunglasses down for clear view.

"Where? Uh- ye, she must be out for a smoke." Jungkook answered looking at his noona.

"Smoke?" Jin asked from behind him crossing his arms. Jungkook flinched clamming his mouth shut. Uh-oh, he got noona in trouble now. He thought turning around with nervous smile on his face. "Ben, did say she has many bad habits." Jin said with narrowed eyes zooming onto Gauravi. "Yah, what is she doing? Has she finally gone crazy?" He asked the younger ones who were also looking at her act like a fool.  "Is she having a seizer attack or something?"

"Mwo?! Let's go see!" Jimin exclaimed in worry starting to make his way towards her. Jungkook and Jin following behind. "Noona! Noona!" Jimin called for attention. Gauravi stopped her movements turning around to see three Korean men running towards her.

"Mr. Jimin?" She said as they neared her. "Huh? What's wrong? Is everything okay? Did something happ-" She stopped when Jimin started coughing, while Jungkook and Jin covered their mouths. "A-Ah. I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" She fumbled quickly putting of the cigarette and tossing it in bin before flapping her hands to get rid of the smoke. "Is everything okay?" She asked looking worried. Jin glared at her while other boys kept quiet. "Um Mr. Jin?" She asked gulping. Her guts screamed alert.

"You were smoking." He said. That was not a question but a statement. Gauravi opened her mouth to answer him. "Ben, told me you had bad habits like this." He glared.

"Ben? Why are you even-"

"Do I have to answer your question?" He said calmly, too calmly. "Don't you know that it kills you? It not only affects you but others around you." He said.

"I know, that's why I put it off right awa-"

"Ah noona, are you okay?!" Jimin suddenly said trying to save his noona from Jin's wrath. It wasn't the best decision to talk back to Jin like that. "You didn't look good earlier. " Jimin said looking from Jin to her. He nudge Jungkook to distract their hyung.

"Y-ye, ye. Noona, gwaenchanh-a?" Jungkook asked with his doe eyes wide in nervousness.

"Uh, yes? I am okay. What's gonna happen to me?" She said looking at them confused.

"You looked like you were having a seizer or something." Jin said with scowl still on his face.

"S-seizer?" She choked as her ears took a shade of red realizing that they saw her acting like crazy person. "N-no, no. I am fine. I was just-just thinking about some things."

"Like that?" Jin asked raising his eyebrow.

"Um yes?" She said avoiding their gazes, too embarrassed. "B-by the way, what are you guys doing here?"

"We just arrived." Jimin answered her.

"Just you three?" She asked looking behind them. Jimin nodded his head while Jin said, "Yes, nobody else saw you acting like that." Gauravi snapped her eyes towards him before laughing, which sounded like she was choking. Jin was about to say something when she cut him off. "Let's go inside! I'm sure you have a busy schedule to go to rather than chatting with me." Passing through them she urged them inside the building. Successfully avoided Jin's further questioning, for now.