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For Gauravi, everything felt as if she was living in heaven right on Earth. Well, apart from Ben nagging at her but then again she was used to it. Other than that it was complete heaven, cute little calls, texts and those dates. She didn't knew that dating can make you feel like this. She only dated one guy all her past life and that was in high school. Dumb shit. After that it was waste of time for her, dating that guy proved that to her. She never tried dating after that until now. Just thinking about him makes her all giddy. 

"This is what he was talking about that time?" Gauravi muttered to herself thinking about the time when Ben had grabbed her ear dragged her away from her prey to straight home. He had given her nice, long lecture. 

"What do you think you are doing Gauravi?" Ben asked. No, Gaura, no babe. He is pissed. Gauravi thought averting her eyes as he settled down on couch in front of her. "This is what you have been doing?" He asked. 

"What do you mean?" Gauravi muttered still not meeting his eyes. "I was just enjoying myself until you dragged me away by my ear. So embarrassing."

"Enjoying yourself? This is how you are enjoy yourself? By sleeping around with anyone you find?" Gauravi looked up opening her mouth to retort back but flinched when she saw the look in his eyes. "What is aai gonna think when she finds out that her daughter has been sleeping around with anyone? What she's gonna feel? That she lacked in raising her daughter. That she failed."

"She didn't!" Gauravi exclaimed. "What is wrong with sleeping around? It's better than wasting your time on single piece of shit! I rather sleep around than waste time on something so meaning less!" She snapped clenching her fist. She didn't want to turn out like her mother! Waste time on someone so useless, who didn't care one ounce of anyone but himself! She knew how it would end, in a room alone crying to death. I would save myself from that pain.

"Gaura..." Ben stood up walking towards her, he came to stop in front of her. Kneeling down he took her hands in his. Rubbing circles with his thumb he smiled sadly. He knew why was she doing this, he knew her reasons but couldn't let her destroy her life like this not in front of him. "It not always gonna be like that. You know someday you are going to meet someone. Someone who'll make you feel all giddy and warm. Someone to whom you will be ready to give up everything. You'll feel like you are living in heaven. Everything will feel like first with them."

"You know you are describing fiction shit here." She rolled her eyes. Ben laughed shaking his head.

"Maybe I am." He chuckled. "But you know saying that it is waste of time is like saying aai was wrong all her life. From loving a man to bringing their love in this world. From fighting back to, raising you to be independent woman. Is that what you are saying Gaura?" Gauravi stared at him before averting her eyes. "Aai forgave him Gaura because she understood that people change, she knew blaming him would do nothing. She overcame it but that doesn't mean that it was waste of her time. Their love was real. You are the proof of that." Ben smiled holding her chin to turn it to face him. "If you ask me, what you are doing right now is waste of time." 

"Hey what are you thinking about?" Ben plopped down beside making her turn and smile. "Huh? What got you smiling like this?" He asked throwing his arm around her shoulder and pulling her close.

"Nothing, it's just I was thinking about that time. When you told me that it was not waste of time." Gauravi replied leaning her head on his shoulder. "I think I understand it now." She smiled. 

"You do?" Ben asked holding her close leaning his head in hers.

"I thought you were shitting about all those feeling but I really feel those, warm, giddy." She said. "I really feel like I am living in heaven." Ben laughed and placed a kiss on her head.

"I'm glad you do. Even though I haven't talked with guy in person but I feel like he feels the same. Plus I trust Jin." Gauravi rolled her eyes that. Of course him. They have become inseparable these days. "I'm really glad babe." He kissed her head again. Gauravi smiled snuggling closer to him. 

"I can feel him." She muttered after few seconds causing Ben to furrow his eyebrows. 

"What?"

"I can feel him drilling holes in my back." She said, Ben turned to his side to see Ha Joon staring at them. He snorted as Ha Joon looked away turning red. "You know, someday I feel he'll murder me in sleep." Ben burst out laughing. 

"Gosh! He can't do that." He laughed. "Aww he's so cute. I wanna just ki-"

"Okay I'm off to bed!" Gauravi stood up pushing Ben away. "Night you two. Please remember the walls are thin." She warned and walked away.

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Gauravi huffed and puffed to fit in her jeans. "Fat ass." Ben coughed making her roll her eyes. "Thick Ben. It's called being thick." She said buttoning her jeans as Ben rolled around in her bed. "What are doing in here? Shouldn't you pack or something?" She asked turning around to check herself in the mirror. Running her hand through her hair she flipped them back.

"Done with packing." Ben sighed out. "Babe at least put a comb through that." 

"Nah. Too much hassle." She waved her hand off before spraying some deodorant. "Okay. So, I'll see you later." She said. Ben nodded and held his arms open. Rolling her eyes again she walked towards him and pulled him up before hugging him.

"I'll miss you." He muttered kissing her cheek. 

"Hmm. I'll miss you too." She replied pulling back. "I should leave. Bye." She said and walked out. "Huh?"Gauravi looked up when she felt a shadow over her while putting on her shoes. "Where are you going?" She asked looking at Ha Joon who stood in front of her all ready with car keys in his hand.

"To work?" Gauravi rolled her eyes.

"You can stay home. Spend time with him." She said nodding behind him where Ben stood leaning by doorframe. Ha Joon opened his mouth. "Ah no. It's fine. If you want you can tag along later when he leaves." She said turning around and opening the door.

"Let me drop off."

"Nah, I'll take a cab." She waved her hand. "Use protection! Later!" She shouted closing door behind her. Smiling to herself she walking down on street, waving her hand she caught the cab. She grinned when she heard her boyfriend's song playing on the radio. Boyfriend. She giggled earning few looks from the cab driver. Controlling herself she looked outside of the window tapping her foot to the rhythm. 

Three weeks since they made it official. She couldn't even believe herself that she was dating. Dating Yoongi out of everyone. Who would believe it after all they were at each other's neck the moment they met. She chuckled again remembering how things have changed. Well, other than his possessiveness. That didn't change at all. What's more funnier is that he wanted the kids to stay away from her after knowing their status but somehow it backfired. The kids would deliberately clung onto her just to rile him up. 

"Ma'am?" The cab had stopped. She didn't even notice. Paying the cab driver she bowed and climbed out.  "Hmm?" She furrowed her eyebrows as she walked into the building scanning her id. What's this ruckus? She thought looking at the security pushing back two men who looked like reporters. Wondering to herself she stepped into the elevator when a man came rushing towards.

"Wait!" He shouted. Quickly putting her foot in between she stopped the doors from closing. "Ms. Apte!" He panted walking into the elevator. "PD-nim, h-he has asked for you." He breathed out.

"PD-nim? What for?" She furrowed her eyebrows before nodded her head to towards the man. Did something happened? Heh! Not possible. They didn't go out yesterday at all. And even if something happened, I would've known about it. She turned around to the man beside her to ask but stopped. Nah, let's just wait.

"We tried contacting you." The man said making her raise her eyebrow. Contact me? She pulled out her phone to see it was on flight mode. Huh? When did that happened?

"Oh! I'm sorry. My phone was on flight mode. I must have accidently did that." She muttered. "Is something wrong?" She questioned. 

"Umm.." The man hesitated just when the door opened. They had reached their destination. "Please." He held his hand out. Gauravi nodded and stepped out. They both silently made their way towards the PD-nim's office. "Please." He opened the door for her.

"Uh huh. I have a bad feeling about this." She muttered to herself as the man closed the door behind her. Stepping inside she saw Mr. Bang surfing through his tab. "Mr. Bang." She called. He looked up and nodded his head motioning her to take a seat. Her instinct were screaming. Something is not right. "Is everything alright sir?" She asked once she settled down.

"Hmm." Mr Bang hummed and passed her the tab he was going through. Furrowing her eyebrows she moved to hold the tab in her hands. Global Star BTS's Suga seems to have found love! The headline read. Sliding her finger on the screen she moved the article upwards, few pictures popped up. More importantly pictures of them. Her and Yoongi holding hands. She clenched her fist placing the tab back on the table. "I assume those words are true." Mr Bang said. Gauravi stiffened and staring at her clenched fist.

"Yes sir." She replied shortly. Mr Bang hummed taking back the tab.

"You know the contract with signed with them had no dating policy but that was long ago." He said. "I have no issues with what my artist does with his private unless and until it disrupts his public life." He continued. "But you on other hand Ms. Apte. I have heard of your company strictly forbids to have any sort of relationship with your employer, don't they? Far more importantly Mr. Auchenbach said his employees strictly bid by keeping their professional life out of their private life. Am I right Miss Apte?" Gauravi's nails dig into her palms. She knew this was going happen someday but so soon. 

"Yes sir." She replied again. 

"You do know what I am asking for Miss Apte don't you?" She knew. She knew it from the start. No matter how much she wanted to be selfish to have that little happiness, she couldn't. Her happiness was nothing in front of those seven for her. She knew of the consequences but her heart wanted it no matter how many times her brain tried to warn her. 

"I know sir." She said squeezing her eyes shut. "I'll bear the consequences and the cost of taint sir."

"Hmm wise choice." Mr Bang nodded his head. 

"But sir, there is a request of mine." Mr. Bang nodded his head again motioning her to go on. "The consequences, it will mine to bear." She looked up straight into his eyes. Mr. Bang stayed silent for few seconds before nodding his head. She didn't want anyone to suffer for her mistakes. It was her choice then she was going to face it alone. 

"Understood. But knowing him-"

"I know, Please take my request into consideration." Gauravi said cutting him off. She knew how it's going to turn out. The moment he knows, he'll retort aggressively, he will done something reckless, to prevent that she has to be the one who take it to herself. 

"I have no other choice. He is my artist and I will do anything to prot-"

"PD-NIM!" The door slammed open cutting Mr. Bang off.