Chapter 60: He is not a bad guy!

"You woke up?" Beomgyu opened his eyes and saw Soobin sitting beside him. He rubbed his eyes as he was still sleepy.

"Um." Soobin looked at the other way and replied. He couldn't look at Beomgyu directly because of his own actions from earlier.

"I must have gone crazy!" Soobin thought while blushing. Beomgyu stood up and came closer to Soobin. He cupped his face and made Soobin look at him.

"Your fever didn't subside!" Beomgyu said. But little did he know the reason behind the hot face of Soobin.

"Boot ui Am fooling okie (But I am feeling okay)" Soobin tried to talk but his words got affected because his cheeks were suppressed by Beomgyu.

"Are you hungry? I brought some congee for you. Wanna eat?" Beomgyu asked and released Soobin. When he asked about food, Soobin suddenly felt hungry as he didn't eat anything for four days.

"Sure!" he gave a smile and was trying his best to forget about the kiss. Beomgyu went outside to microwave the food. Soobin sat down properly and started thinking about himself. One thing he got assured of that he developed feelings for this boy. And it got so deep that he wouldn't be able to go back no matter how hard he'd try.

"I'm f*cked!" he said to himself because when he thought about making up with his dad, he was certain of his feelings for another boy. And his father won't agree with it at all. Soobin sighed and thought of his mom.

"Mom! What should I do? Would you accept me if you were here? Am I really abnormal? But I can't help it! How can I restrain myself from having these feelings? Tell me, Mom! What should I do? I can't take it anymore!" He sighed again and leaned on the bed.

"Young master! How're you feeling now?" the middle aged man who always stayed by his dad's side came inside and saw Soobin sitting on the bed. He ran to him and asked if he was feeling okay.

"I'm fine. How about my dad?" Soobin asked with a soft voice.

"Um....He didn't wake up yet." the guy hesitated at first if he should tell him about his Dad's condition.

"You're his right hand, right?" Soobin asked without looking at him.

"You mean, assistant? Yes, I am!" the guy replied. Though he was curious why Soobin asked that, he couldn't question him back as it wasn't proper for him to question his boss's son.

"Can you tell me about him? I wanna know what he has been doing and why he said those things before passing out?" Soobin asked. Though the guy didn't know what his father told him, he could guess what Soobin wanted to know.

"Young master! The master is suffering! I was trying my best to help him but he needs someone who'd love and care for him. He's been overworking every single day and has been stressed out. And as it was his second heart attack, his condition got worse. He....." the guy couldn't finish his words because Soobin spoke up.

"What? It's his second time? When was the first time? Why don't I know anything about it?" Soobin looked at the guy while being surprised.

"Um....it was nearly a year ago." he replied.

"What happened to his underground business? Like smuggling, kidnapping and so on?" Soobin asked as he wanted to know everything about his father.

"Pardon?" it seems like the guy couldn't understand what Soobin was saying at all.

"Didn't he used to kidnap people and smuggle them for money?" Soobin asked.

"What? No! You got him wrong! He never did such a thing! He used to work for a mafia who is his father-in-law. But he himself never did something like that!" he replied as if he was so sure about it and the listener had to believe every word of him.

"What? Are you telling me the truth? B-but I..." Soobin stopped and looked at the guy with a surprised face while shrinking his eyebrows.

"What could I gain by lying to you?" the big guy replied.

"Can you start from the beginning?" Soobin asked. That time Beomgyu came inside and saw the heavy air between the two of them.

"Um, Hello!" Beomgyu smiled awkwardly and bowed to greet.

"Then....I should go back." the guy was trying to avoid Beomgyu since he didn't know him and thought it would be inappropriate to tell the story of Soobin's father in front of him.

"Wait!" Soobin grabbed the guy's coat so that he couldn't leave the place.

"It's okay. You can tell us." Soobin could understand why the guy hesitated right after Beomgyu came inside. The guy looked at Soobin to check if it really would be fine.

"Nearly twenty five years ago, I met your father for the first time when I used to work for your grandfather. He was in a very poor condition. Someone beat him up and made him half dead. He was lying in the middle of the road where my old master's car would pass by. The driver stopped the car after seeing him and informed it to Mr. Xi(Soobin's grandfather). He came out and observed your dad's situation and told us to send him to the hospital. Thus, Mr. Xi saved his life and he visited the master almost every day until he got better. Master was grateful to him so he asked if he could do anything.

Then, they made a deal and he started working for Mr. Xi. Master didn't know your grandfather was a mafia. And he lied to your dad saying they were undercover agents who serve the government. He worked very hard to train himself when he understood he must need to be strong if he wants to survive. He was proud of himself until the day he met your mom and she revealed all the truth while making a fuss over something to Mr. Xi. Maybe she was angry because her friends bullied her. Master was there to report him about a mission and he heard everything but didn't want to believe what he heard. Though he didn't want to do illegal things, he was bewitched by the power of money. And I don't know how but Miss and Master fell in love with each other but he knew he needed to work harder if he wanted to be acknowledged by your grandfather.

When Mr. Xi saw potentiality in him, he arranged marriage between Master and Miss.

After that, Miss tried very hard to convince the master to leave the path and lead a decent life. But he was so into money that he didn't listen to her at all. But he tried to change when your mother was in a very bad condition and nearly died after giving birth to you. That time, he promised her that he'll change at all costs. Your mom got well but it was never easy for him. He was involved in the underground world so much that he couldn't just leave the world overnight. Every person involved in the world is powerful and once you enter, there's no way to get out unless you're willing to give up on your life. He knew he had many enemies and he'd get killed at any time if he shows the weakness to the world. And to protect you and your mom, he couldn't leave the world. He finally realized, how big mistake he had made. At that point, he was chained to the underworld." The guy took a break as Beomgyu also gave him a bowl of congee.

The three of them started eating silently. Soobin listened to everything but he was still curious and confused about something.

"If he loved mom that much, why did he kill her?" Soobin asked the guy. Listening to him, the guy made a very despondent face as if he was afraid to answer the question.