chapter 3| I'll always love you

I think today is also myday because it's so peaceful, how I wish Declan is here too. Maybe he's busy,

it's been months since the last visit of him here. I guess being a prince is hard than I thought, will he

ever visit me this week maybe not.

Week pass and he did not, he only left a letter

"Ilaria

I am sorry If I did not visit you this week or even this pass month because I was busy mylove.

Declan."

I did not respond to his letter, maybe he will come because of that and think am sulking.

Will he really? Or maybe he already fell in love with someone maybe his family already had a plan for him. What can I do like I said I have no power to make him stay.

It's already morning, maybe today he will come. This relationship tension is making my heart pound's faster than ever before. Maybe there's something wrong about this relationship I choose. I hope not

The bell ring and there was carriage outside, he came. My heart is pounding so fast like it's about to burst seeing him. I miss him. It's been so long mylove.

I can hear his footsteps coming upstairs into my room. How I love to listen to this everyday we hangout in the past. Can we go back. Will time let us. I'm scared I don't know why, but am scared of what may happen between us.

When he knock at my door and I opened it.

"what brings you here Declan is there something you would like to tell me or you want to hangout?"

I was smiling while saying those words but he didn't smile back.

"I have something to tell you will you let me in?" that's what he responded in my words. With smile,

that's all?

"What do you want to say Declan?" the room was silent for a second, I think I know what is going on.

"Is something wrong?"

"are you tired?"

"do you want my help?"

"do you have a problem? Are you here to let me help?" how many have I said but he was still silent Infront of me.

"I don't need anything Ilaria." He's hands are trembling.

"it- it's just- can we-"

"oh" I knew it, he won't go silent Infront of without a reason.

"You want to end our relationship right that's why you're here?" I blurted it out, the words he was going to say. He was shocked.

"don't be shocked like it's not what you want to say." I can feel my tears falling down on my cheeks.

It's been so long since someone made me cry it's ironic. How ironic.

"yes, am sorry but I have to my father is forcing me to marry a princess from another king-" I did not let him finish.

"I knew it, but why did you not fight for our love, how could you not? Is it because I have nothing-"

"ilariaaaa! Because I have to because I have to save the Kingdom from the debts we have from another kingdom and we can't pay it, so I have to fucking marry a girl from that kingdom to pay the debts we have!! Do you understand that?!?!"

I think this is the first time he raises his voice on me, but how can he have a tears in his eyes? Is he hurt to because of this? Am hurt too because k thought and dream our love would last. Is this really the end. I can't .

"I'm- I didn't know." I can't stop trembling from fear of his voice.

" Ilaria mylove I'm sorry for raising my voice."

"i- I didn't meant it to sound like that." I can feel his scared of something.

" no it's okay, I understand. If that's it if we have to end this because of our kingdom debts, okay let's end this." I can't stand this anymore.

" let's end this peacefully, Declan I am ending this relationship." I can't stop but just let my tears fall.

I can feel his hand wiping my tears but it just let out more tears.

"stop" I say to him and looking away.

" Ilaria I am ending this relationship." His tears are falling too. I can't wipe it.

"Ilaria I'll always love you wherever I go mylove." He come closer to me and hug me tightly.

"you'll always be my first love Declan." I whispered to him. I can't stop sobbing while hugging him tightly.

"Meeting you was the happiest memories I have in my mind." Saying that to him he can't stop his tears.

"ilaria, even our promise did not go well like we dreamed I hope you live your life with the freedom you want." "I hope you live your life happily even without me, because I'll always pray you on your journey in life."

"I love you my Ilaria."

"it was fun till it last mylove." Before we apart we had our last kiss.

The day my world fell apart was the day you break my heart. You promise me everything but it was a promise that meant to be broken, how ironic. It was supposed to be a happily ever after of the two of us.

Goodbye is hard sometimes because the action of leaving is so permanent, and yet that person still occupies so much of the space within your chest. Goodbye isn't final, it isn't a finish line you have to step over in order to forget. See, you can't unlove someone. You can't get their scent out of your pillowcases, can't unlearn their name and forget what it felt like to be immersed in the hope and

beauty of another human being. People never stay gone. They show up in street corners, they show up in familiar laughs and the booth at that one restaurant where you first held their hand. Goodbye isn't as simple as many make it seem; goodbye isn't really goodbye, not for someone who still cares. Not for the person left in the aftermath of a hurricane they once loved.

"I'll always love you in silent Declan".