Chapter 51: Harry

I waited an hour for her, but she didn't show. In the end I drove away toward the city. My head was screwed, and I needed to calm down before we talked. The flashbacks were back, riddling through me, reminding me that I was never supposed to be in love with anyone.

I recognised it as a panic attack so I pulled over on the side of the road and stuck my head between my knees. Breathing became hard and the knot in my throat expanded.

The roads were busy, people were passing by unaware of what was happening in my head. I kept taking long deep breaths, waiting for it to pass. The throbbing in my skull was unbearable. All my previous meltdowns had always been behind closed doors. I refused to take medication. Over the years I just dealt with it, but right now I thought that enough was enough.

Something needed to change.