The rest of the night I struggled to fully enjoy myself with everyone. Damon kept me close, using every chance he could get to brush his fingers on my skin. To everyone else this was normal but only I could full understand.
I saw a new side of Damon last night. I was used to the caring and protective boy that I had known for years but last night he showed me something different. A different side of him.
Which is why all morning I've been spending time with Lily. We took one of the cars and drove out to the nearest city, deciding that we needed some girl time away from the overwhelming testosterone inside the house.
We were just heading back but as Lily was talking about her plans with Adam, I was currently deciding on how I'm going to avoid Damon in his own home. I only just escaped him this morning when he tried to talk to me after breakfast.
I just need some time that's all.
"are you even listening to me sky" she calls from the passenger seat. I know I probably was spacing out.
"Do you want my honest answer or should I lie to you" I'm glad I still have my wits about me, don't know if Lily feels the same though.
"forget it, I'm just lucky you spared a day for your little sister," she says honestly, I admit I barely have time for my little sister but in my defence, she is very busy these days. It's not all my fault.
I noticed that we were reaching the house. Every time I really look at it I just wonder how Damon actually managed this. I found out last night that he has an apartment back in the UK. which almost relieves me I didn't like the idea of him staying in France. When we were all in England.
"I'm also aware of the fact that one of the only reasons you're out with me right now is so that you don't have to see Damon." She comments.
I groaned, why does she have to be so fucking observant its annoying.
"one of them, I still love you little sis" I reach over pinching one of her cheeks. "also lay off the nuts, its bad for your skin" I scold her. She never listens, she knows that eating peanuts gives her acne. Just because she gets facials doesn't mean she's off the hook.
I step out the car waiting for her to follow. I frowned when I realised that there were barely any cars in the driveway. I was just hoping that Damon was out too, that would mean that I could relax finally.
My tranquillity was short lived when Adam stormed out the house's main doors, his phone in his hand. He wasted no time in eying his girlfriend "c'mon gorgeous we're going for dinner" he says latching onto lily and pulling her in the opposite direction.
I narrow my eyes and the force he was inflicting on my sister.
"I'm not hungry," she says standing back forcing Adam to finally let go. I was instantly proud of her, glad that she stood her ground. I don't miss the harsh look he sends her almost warning her. They seem to be having their own little conversation with each other.
The sound of a car pulling into the driveway caught both mine and lily's attention. I didn't instantly recognise the car but as soon as the door opened I panicked. There goes my plan on ignoring him out the window.
No wonder why everyone is out the house, preparing for another screaming match between us.
"Just go lily, I'll be alright try and enjoy your night," I tell her sending her away with her boyfriend. I watched her get into the car and drive off leaving me alone with the brooding man who was making his way to me.
But I didn't bother waiting for him I just start heading inside, in desperate need to take off these heels cause frankly, they are killing my feet.
"Sky" he starts as soon as he closes the main door. I raise my hand up. "No, I'm going to shower it's been a long day," I say loud enough for him to hear. My muscles are aching from carrying our bags and what not. Lily is really into fashion and made sure to advise me on new styles of clothes that she promised would suit me.
I was relieved that he didn't try to stop me, that was the last thing I wanted I knew I would snap at him if he did. I took my time in showering making sure to let the water soak my back. Once finished I stepped out and applied cream to my whole body and applied some special gel to my hair after.
I decided on wearing a silk button-down top and matching shorts. These were a cream colour not like the black ones. Now it makes more sense, Damon bought them for me he knows these are my favourite type of pyjamas.
I know I shouldn't have but I stayed in my room most of the evening, I couldn't face him right now not when I'm still recovering from last night. I'm guessing the alcohol got to him and he was just being extra flirty. Probably did the same with most of the girls.
I'm not stupid, I know I'm attractive, my parents brought up both me and lily with a mindset of confidence. I grew up having amazing family, friends and clothes. All the material things. Plus, I was graced with some nice curves.
I wouldn't say I'm big headed either, just confident in my own skin.
I walked out to the lounge looking around for him. I wasn't surprised when I saw him outside on the balcony. He had a cigarette between his lips as he looked out over the city. France was beautiful at night, you don't actually realise it until you go.
I scanned the table and spotted a bowl of what looked like spaghetti and meatballs. I grinned once realising that he had cooked. I could smell the delicious sauce from the kitchen.
I dug my fork in and took a generous bite. The sauce hit my mouth like a firework, instantly spreading across my whole mouth. As I was swallowing the last bit I glanced over and found his wallet. It was a black one, plain and simple just how he liked things.
I bought it.
For his birthday when he was 17, his dad helped me pick it out since I was clueless about what to get my best guy friend. I didn't want to be stereotypical and get him some fragrance and I knew that a lot of his girl friends were buying him things like that.
I picked the wallet up and opened it, wondering if it was still there. My eyes zeroed in on the picture of us. His dad took it when we just having fun. I was laughing at Damon and Damon had his eyes glued to me, watching me look crazy.
Little did he know I was crazy for him.
Damon's dad was a great father, I took his death hard too. He was a major influence on me and Damon being so close. Since Damon didn't want people thinking he was weird because his best friend was a girl.
Damon was a hard boy at the beginning very stubborn. Influenced greatly by what people thought of him.
I closed the wallet briefly letting my heart slow-down in pace. What do I do with you Damon?
I took the brave decision to go out and speak to Damon, he's been gone for 5 years and now I'm ignoring him, I didn't want him to feel like I wasn't happy to see him back.
I slid the door open relishing in the breeze that followed causing my shirt to fly open. I quickly buttoned up the shirt hoping that the wind isn't too strong tonight. I know he heard me, his back tensed and he blew out the smoke.
"I thought you stopped smoking, "I say breaking the silence. My mind was racing wondering if he was mad at me for ignoring him for the last day.
He didn't turn to face me, it was like he couldn't bear to look at me. "I did for a few years, I've only just started again" he answered his lips taking in another drag.
He only smokes when He's stressed or sad, I know for a fact that I am the cause of him starting again and that makes me feel terrible to have pushed him to it.
"I'm sorry, I know I haven't been very welcoming. I'm still just getting used to this." I walk up and stand next to him. "I've been living without you for far too long, so many things have changed," I tell him.
I desperately wanted him to look at me. It's funny I've been desperately trying to ignore him and avoid him and now in my mind, I'm begging him to look at me.
I boldly reached out and placed my hand on his, it was perched up on the bannister. I didn't know how he was going to respond but when he did I struggled to mask my surprise.
Damon quickly flipped his hand over to interlock our fingers. My hand fit perfectly in his large one. Soft and gentle nothing like the man I met last night.
I didn't hate the man I met last night but it wasn't what I was used to. No one ever could be the same as Damon. Gentle and caring yet rough and protective, it was the perfect mix.
"I haven't slept at all since the party, I wanted, no I need you to come to me. I was scared that I frightened you and that caused more pain than you could ever imagine" he explained to me. His fingers moving against mine.
Almost like he has to keep touching my skin just so he knew this was real. Me being with him was real at this very moment.
"I don't know how to make up for the lost time, I've missed so much in your life and I regret it with all my being" he whispers his body finally turning to face me. I watched his eyes brighten before reaching up and cupping my face. The gesture was gentle.
"you're here now. That's all I care about" I reply back to him. I Loved the way his hand felt against my face. The warmth soon travelled to my eyes, the sensation was all too intense for me yet I was hungry for much more.