Chapter 35

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One day.

One day to ruin lives. One day to destroy families. One day to turn the world upside-down.

A single day—10 hours really—was all that was needed to bring a calamity upon magical Britain, shaking their entire world to the core with memories of what once was.

As the Dark Lord disapparated away with Jacob, he left behind a people too tired and weary to act. The Supreme Mugwump was the only reason most did not simply fall flat on their faces and go to sleep.

Well that, and because it would be a smidge too disrespectful for the grieving Potter family that were gathered around the fallen figure of their patriarch.

As soon as Grindelwald left, his magic came undone; and the hanging torches—that had been lighting the quidditch pitch—winked out unceremoniously, plunging the entire field into ominous darkness that was broken only by the sinister glow cast down by the peering moon.

For a few moments, the only sound upon the darkened pitch were the struggling gasps of James Potter and the broken cries of his wife, the rest standing stunned; trying to make sense of the shocking events that their eyes and ears just witnessed.

One would imagine the Chief Warlock to stay composed in such trying times and take the reins of a rapidly worsening situation. But the old headmaster was trapped in his own mind; his mind already past the day's events as it struggled to predict the immediate future…

For it was clear to him now; Albus Dumbledore has made a grave mistake in his assumptions, and the world may now pay for it.

Almost absent-mindedly, the old man waved his wand and the fallen torches rose back up in the air—taking their previous positions—before being reignited anew; lighting back the quidditch pitch.

Yet, as if reading the present mood, the flames cast off a gloomy shadow over the company, bringing a premonition for the dark times ahead.

That did nothing but worsen the despair growing within the hearts of the people present.

They'd all gathered together upon the pitch—Potters, Tonks, and Weasleys; wanting to celebrate the ending of a nightmare. Instead, they arrived only to see one of their own betray them for a Dark Lord, leaving his own father to suffer a slow death.

There were a few who hoped of course. Hoped for everything to turn back to normal; hoped for the nightmare to finally end….hoped that Alice Longbottom could work a miracle.

Gasping and struggling as the dying man was however; even Alice knew that the head of the Potter family had no true chance of survival. Yet, she continued to work her magic, ignoring the black blotches and streaks that spread beneath his skin, looking like ink worms traveling through the veins—releasing a sickly green glow throughout their path—and heading straight for his orifices.

And there was nothing she could do to stop it; for she knew better than to touch the death element directly.

Besides those who'd personally witnessed it before, the only other person completely sure of James' death was his wife, kneeling beside him in a ball of despair and agony as she watched her worst nightmare slowly come true.

No one knew of the war brewing inside her mind then. No one knew how close her mental palace was to collapsing. The only person who had any inkling of her instability was lying upon the ruined ground; dying.

'First Jacob...then James,' The chilling nothingness whispered inside her. 'Soon it'll be Harry.'

'No,' she protested, her eyes shedding tears of desperation. 'No, please no! Anyone but him…please!'

'Soon, you will be all alone once again…unable to help him…leaving him with his dark fate…once again.'

Her mind was on the verge of collapse now, eroding away one piece at a time as memories of her life in St. Mungo's flashed past behind her eyes—reminding her of the torture she'd experienced so long ago….when she'd first touched upon the void element.

'Soon, you will be all alone...failing him once again...unless you accept us! Embrace us!'

She didn't wish to live such a life. Not now, and not back then either. And when she'd reached her bleakest point in life, crying alone in her mind as she lay on that hospital bed, knowing her little Harry was murdered by the hands of Voldemort: she had given in…

For the void preys upon people who had nothing to live for anymore.

Had James not recovered his senses when he did, had he not comforted her as he did, had Rose's promised arrival not soothed her mind—giving her just enough purpose to live on—until the news of her son reached her…

Lily would not be alive today. Well…at least not as she was now; whole and in control.

For she knew, the eternal nothingness that trapped her splintered mind till insanity; whispering sweet nothings to convince her to give in…

It would be better if she were dead than go back to it again.

'Would it truly?' It whispered now. 'Is death truly better than us?...better for Harry?'

And she could feel it now, creeping along the edges of her mind, beckoning her to its empty embrace. The power of nothingness; one of the elements that she'd desperately tried to master…but failed.

And now it was here to claim her.

'You will fail him again.' It whispered. 'You abandoned him when he needed you the most, you let him suffer his fate alone…he shall hate you for it…as he once did…'

'NO! No, please no!' She shut her eyes tightly, furious nails digging into her palm from a clenched fist.

"..Lily..." James gave a wheezing gasp, his eyes flickering towards her; fully aware of what was to come for him.

'Join us now…and save him from his fate…he will need all your help…with two Dark Lords out for his life….how can you be selfish enough to not do your best?…Take this power, and save him…'

The black gashes were starting to rot James inside out. His skin was turned wrinkly now, as if belonging to an old man, a green tint emanating from his entire body.

"…H-Harry." The dying man wheezed out again, and the emerald-eyed boy knelt beside him, his hand clutching the dying man's palm.

"James." Harry squeezed his palm. "I'm here. You're going to be alright…just hold on tight."

His voice was like a candle in the dark for Lily, pushing back the sharp edge of the void.

She wasn't alone.

The realization almost made her cry anew, but as she became aware of her son—one arm around her shoulder, rocking her body soothingly—she pieced together her mind back, trying to let at least a semblance of Occlumency reign over it.

'Everything's not lost.' She reminded herself. 'We can still salvage this. Alice can save James, then we'll go and kill that bastard Grindelwald and bring back Jacob. And together…we will help Harry defeat Voldemort.'

As long as she is beside Harry, her family will be safe.

A flicker of hope began brewing in her heart, reeking of falseness but solid enough to ground her to reality. For now.

The world came back to her focus; the night illuminated by the dancing flames of torches and the pale moonlight that gave this nightmarish night an ominous hue.

The African wizards were beginning to leave now—grave and quiet—not wishing to intrude upon the grieving family, nor wanting to witness the harrowing death.

Some would see it as a sign of disrespect—not even waiting for a fallen to depart—but the elemental users present understood; no one wishes to see the death element in its natural form. At least, no sane one.

Their leader alone stayed back, standing beside Dumbledore, both solemnly staring at James; knowing his death was imminent, having seen such cases before—though none as grim or painful.

The rest came closer, shuffling upon their feet uncertain and distressed—wanting to help but not knowing how.

Dorea was kneeling on the other side of James, comforting a bawling Rose who didn't understand why no one was saving her father.

"Can we do something!?" A frustrated Charlie Weasley yelled at Alice, who waved the young man away.

"Prepare for St. Mungo's now! They were supposed to close the hospital for today but you need to tell them it's a level six emergency. Tell them Alice sent you!"

As the boy scrambled to follow, the rest scattered; some joining him to help, the others asking for instructions from Alice.

Through all this however, James had eyes only on Harry.

"..S-save her…." He whispered, weak eyes flickering to Lily—specks of black and green now floating inside his pupils.

"James, would you lie still for a fucking moment!" Alice bellowed, physically trying to control the man, knowing direct magic will simply aggravate the death element inside the man.

Yet, James didn't care. Neither did Harry, nodding with a matching solemnity. "I will. I promise you."

The man shook his head, tears of black liquid now trickling down his cheeks, the unnatural green hue now glowing inside his sockets. "…S-she's not…alright…do w-what you...must."

And then the man stilled, his eyes losing their glow. The black dots and green hue disappeared promptly, not only through his eyes but his whole body—leaving behind a dry husk with cracked skin.

"James….James!" Alice shook him, her voice quivering—not wishing to believe her patient's death.

Lily…Lily fell apart.

'The time is nigh at hand!' The void bellowed in triumph and promise. 'Join us and embrace your true self! Your one true duty…you shall serve the master of death!'

'No-ooo-oo!' A shriek went up high in the air; despaired and disbelieving.

'Please don't leave me, please don't leave me!' She clutched at her son, never wishing to let go.

'Not him, not Harry please!'

'Come, Lily…' The Void called. 'For it is time…or he shall be next…and you will fail us all…'

'I…I-can't…'

Someone was shaking her shoulders but she struggled to get out of the pit in her mind. She simply clutched onto her son, only one thing in her mind:

"I-I can't help you...I'm so sorry…I can't help you…"

"Lily." The voice was gentle and urgent, but try though she might, she couldn't place it.

It slipped through the crevices of her splintered mind like sand running between her fingers.

"I can't… I can't, I can't..."

"Mother."

Finally his words managed to pierce through her wall, and unfocused eyes pinned on him with a craving he's never seen.

"Don't leave me...don't leave me please…" She clung to his chest. "Don't go, don't go, don't go..."

He rocked his mother gently, closing his hands around her shoulder.

"Please, please...no, no no...promise me you won't go...don't go!...I-I'll help you…"

Harry's heart clenched up, memories of old swirling in his mind.

"Say you won't leave…" Hermione whispered, her lips brushing against his own softly. "You don't need to save anyone, Harry…you owe them nothing. Promise me you won't go back…"

'Don't leave her.' Ginny's voice whispered, dark and accusing. '... just like you left us...'

His heart was beating wildly now, almost touching the back of his throat.

"Promise me...promise me you won't go...promise me..." Lily whispered desperately against his chest. "I'll help you...I'll do it…for you. Just don't go. Please don't go."

'Promise her Harry...even if you have to lie...'

Not this time.

Harry pushed the woman back, looking into her teary eyes. "I won't, Lily. I promise you."

'Liar...'

Not this time.

This time...he meant his promise. Whatever happens, he won't let them go. Lily and Bellatrix...they will not die this time. Whatever he has to do...this time, he won't hesitate.

This time...he will keep his promise.

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The crack of Disapparition announced their arrival, and Harry landed upon the Potter balcony with Lily in his arms. It was nearly midnight now, and a picturesque night sky welcomed them back.

The moon—for the first time that night—was clear and whole, with a black to navy gradient as its backdrop, and a sky so clear you could almost see every crater under its ethereal glow.

Harry had left the pitch in a hurry; parting from the rest of the group as soon as Lily dropped unconscious.

The relief that should've spread through him at finally getting past the day was missing, buried underneath the knowledge of his father's death, and worry for the safety of his new family.

But James…his death had struck Harry hard.

So long had he spent holding himself away like a stranger, as if he didn't want any family, but now that James truly was gone, Harry found himself... regretful.

'Would it have killed you to spend a minute or two with the man? Get to know him better?' His own voice needled him. 'Would it have been too much work to write him a simple letter?'

Well…now he won't be getting that chance again. He'd lost his father in his first life, and now lost him again in the second.

'What a night.' He chuckled bitterly, picking Lily up in a bridal carry and making his way for the back door under the bright luminescence of the moon.

This day was supposed to be one of triumph and long-due revenge for him. The beginning of his vendetta against Voldemort, the start of the culling he was going to deliver.

But the truth was often harsher than reality. And this time, reality's answer to his thirst for vengeance was a simple no.

'Of course you won't just get your revenge easily! Of course the Fates would fuck you over! Which of your plans have ever actually worked out as intended?'

Sometimes he wondered if it were not better to just go back to his impulsive self. Why care about plans when they would just fail?

'…Naah…had I been as impulsive as before, I would've probably done something as stupid as Jacob.'

Or maybe not. He was still surprised with his twin's actions. Did he truly not know who Grindelwald was? Did he truly not realize what he was getting into?

Sighing, Harry shook his head and focused on more pleasant things; namely the radiant figure of Lily.

She was light as a feather in his arms, her slender body fitting perfectly within his elbows.

Even unconscious as she was; lacking her usual fire and marred with dirt, Lily Potter could still make a man's heart throb like a badly beaten drum.

Looking at her sleeping face; troubled and tear-marked, he couldn't help but want to hide her away from the world like his most precious treasure.

Resisting the urge to push the few flapping strands of hairs behind her ears, he started making his way inside the Potter manor.

Only as his feet crossed the balcony did he realize he'd fucked up slightly.

'I wasn't meant to let anyone know of my Apparition!'

Then a second later he let out a chuckle.

More than a dozen people had seen him fighting Grindelwald and survive. Apparition would be the least of his worries; should the Ministry come sniffing.

A familiar air-tearing crack entered his ears suddenly, and he whirled around to face the intruder, Lily still clutched protectively between his elbows.

"Harry..." Bella's hesitant smile greeted him as she quickly made her way towards him.

Sighing in relief, he gave the woman a nod. "I'm glad you're here, Bella."

"Not for long, I'm afraid." The woman grimaced. "Thousands of people are still stuck in Dartmoor, I don't think I'll be getting any rest tonight. What a disaster."

"…Yeah." Harry swallowed hard, suppressing the urge to convince her otherwise. A large part of him desperately wanted Bella to just leave the Ministry entirely, remembering the shambles that Voldemort had made of it by the time he was done.

But he also knew better than to demand such things from Bella. A stubborn woman like her will need to be convinced slowly.

"Plus…" Bella started again, hesitant and cautious. "There's also the matter of James' body. We'll be keeping him preserved until…well, until you decide to hold the funeral."

Harry frowned. "Why me?"

"You're the Lord of House Potter now, Harry." She announced, blunt as a bludgeon. "You will have some duties to see to. One of which is taking care of the Potter Manor and all its members; dead or alive."

Sighing, he shook his head and put the info in the back of his tired mind, focusing on the present. "I'll see to it, but can you please bring Gabrielle here? She's someone I gave a Portus to for Black Cottage. Poor girl is probably crying alone. I'll appreciate it if you can also offer her mother and sister a stay here. They saved my life."

The last line seemed to completely vanish the subtle animosity brewing behind Bella's eyes, and she gave a forced cough.

"Oh, and my sisters as well. Send them back here. Also..." He stopped himself short, feeling an unnatural hesitancy.

Bella quirked her eyebrows at him.

'Eh, fuck it. Worse comes to worst, she'll just give a polite excuse and laugh it off.'

He ignored the painful sting in his chest that the thought summoned.

"I think you should shift here as well." He finally let out with a sigh, feeling drained all of a sudden. "Permanently."

Thankfully for him, the worst did not happen.

Bella's face shifted through a multitude of expressions, before a bashful smile finally broke through to the surface. "I….Thank you, Harry."

She stepped forward, standing on her toes, and placed a chaste kiss on his cheeks.

"We will talk." Bella promised, a lot of her feelings left unsaid.

And he nodded, ignoring again the warmth that lit up in his chest.

The nightmarish day was finally over. It was now time to recover and heal...and Harry found himself wondering when he would finally come clean to both the women. After the things they'd witnessed today, it was no longer a question of 'if', but selecting the correct timing.

For some reason, he doubted either of the women would love him any less for it.

This was the start of a new age, preluding darker times ahead….and Harry wanted both of them at his side when he finally faced it head on.

The warmth grew even more.

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Harry soon found himself traversing through the Potter Manor, finally reaching Lily's bedroom. As he entered the room, he gave an absent wave of his fingers at the door, letting a flush of wandless magic shut it close.

Then carrying her forward like a gentle princess, he slowly placed Lily upon her bed, taking care to create no disturbances.

'Alright, what next?'

He gave her a quick once-over, noticing her dirty and torn robes.

He hadn't looked more closely before—feeling a flicker of displeasure at himself—as his eyes took in the small bleeding cuts and bruises littering her right leg, up from her shin to her thighs.

A quick Episkey healed all the visible ones, but he couldn't be sure if there were more hidden from his eyes.

'Right. First job, clean Lily up.'

Letting her sleep while covered in dirt and blood would be foolish, almost as foolish as ignoring any hidden injuries. He didn't know much about wizarding infections but he remembered having to saw off a rotten finger from one of the girls when on the run.

And try though he might, he simply couldn't keep the images of James' ugly blackish skin—slowly peeling off of his arms—away from his mind. Perhaps he was being paranoid but he really didn't wish for Lily to get even a speckle of that thing on her.

'First clothes, then change the sheets as well.'

Being extra cautious is never a bad thing.

"Tergeo." He intoned softly, and the grime, blood, and dirt that littered her body were siphoned off of her instantly, disappearing into the nothingness.

His eyes flickered around, wondering where she kept her clothes.

His senses went through the room, absently picking up on the sound suppression wards, before continuing their search.

His feet came to an abrupt halt as a thought went through his mind.

'Do I really have to change her clothes?'

He coughed, giving a glance back at the woman.

'Yep, still sleeping.'

He could only hope she was wearing something beneath her robes.

If not…he cleared his throat, feeling hesitant all of a sudden as he realised his situation.

He was alone in a room with a recently widowed woman, a moment away from stripping her naked…

Tsking, he shook his head. 'Am I actually hesitating due to some stupid shyness?'

He'd burnt away such hesitations a long time ago! What was shame to him now? Absolutely nothing.

He shook his head, letting Occlumency vanish away the bits of resistance from his mind.

'But if you're so tough…why do you need Occlumency for this?' His evil self mocked him.

Grunting, he dropped the Occlumency and approached his mother.

Lily was tired, injured, and a step away from complete breakdown. It was his duty to see to her comforts, and 'limit' was not a word in his dictionary when it comes to his loved ones.

Lily needed him now, and the least he could do for abandoning her—When she needed him the most, at that—was to take care of her when at her lowest.

Mind like a stone—cold and unmoved, almost as focused as Occlumency—he started picking her clothes off of her. She was wearing Dragon-leather robes, just like him, and he had to slowly work his way through the three laces that closed her front.

The Dragon-hide, even processed and remade, was harsh to the naked hands.

Frowning, his eyes went to his own robes. Sprinkles of powdered stone and dust were lingering in places, and he couldn't be sure if his robes had touched that black stuff on James…

Sighing, he stepped back and quickly started undressing.

"If someone saw me now, the amount of trouble I'll get into for some stupid misunderstandings will be unlimited."

Only halfway through in undressing did he realize that he was completely naked from the inside.

Coming to a freezing halt, his eyes flickered to Lily once again.

Aww, fuck off. She isn't getting up so soon anyway.

He let the robe fall.

Cool air of the room bit upon his naked skin, eliciting a groan. He quickly conjured an undergarment for himself and went back to work.

'Alright, what's my job? Remove Lily's robes, conjure clothes for her, then find some actual clothes before the conjured ones vanish. Clean a naked Lily, dress her up, and finally tuck her to bed.'

Plan made, he headed for Lily, all naked except for his privates. Working like an utter professional, he quickly dragged Lily's robes away.

...And found that just like him, she didn't wear anything else besides her dueling robes either.

Keeping himself composed, he slowly peeled away her robes off of her shoulder, making sure to keep his eyes locked to her closed ones.

Yet, he could see the twin peaks of soft flesh rising up and down from the corner of his eyes, and the red cherries topping those peaks...

And his shaft started waking up rapidly, reminding him that he was in a puberty-stricken body that had recently received a large hormonal increment.

He closed his eyes with a deep struggling breath, put his arms below Lily's waist to prop her up a little, and finally peeled away her robes completely.

'Easy part, done. Now for the more challenging bit.'

When he opened his eyes however, they looked directly into two emerald green orbs, glinting startlingly like the shade of a killing curse.

Lily was watching him.

Eyes colder than he'd ever witnessed stared at him like a bug under the microscope. Watching him like a hawk assessing her prey...looking for the best way to attack...

He ignored the inhuman eyes that flickered around the room; assessing and observing, too focused on the fact that he may have fucked up a little.

'Why couldn't you at least conjure yourself a shirt, dumbass?'

Still, he didn't need Occlumency to compose himself; he wasn't a blushing maiden.

Nodding calmly at her dirty robes, Harry began explaining. "I'm glad you're awake, Lily but I can't let you sleep in this, you understand? Wait just a mo-"

As he began moving away from her though, two strong hands suddenly clutched at his arm in desperation, a small amused smile curving up. "Why do you wish to leave me?"

Harry's breath hitched slightly at the husky, purring voice that questioned him.

'What the hell...'