what's left behind

As a soldier and medic, I've witnessed firsthand and closeup, the suffering of innocent women and children.

I'd long been deeply troubled by such memories, until I was finally overwhelmed and cried aloud,

"Why must the innocent suffer most of all?"

I didn't know to even hope for an answer.

Yet, the answer surely came.

"They need not to suffer as they do."

A voice unlike any other.

I turn and She is there.

Beautiful and familiar somehow,

Her light embraces me and within it, I awaken.

She places Her hand upon my head and says,

"Read aloud."

Before me is an open book and I begin.

She is the most profound place of tranquil repose at the very core; the Sovereign Axis upon which life turns. She is that light which leads through darkness, nurturing with gentle ease. She is the Living Source of all upon the earth and far beyond. In Her, existence finds completion and balance, truth and purpose. She treads upon the waves, glancing over each surface and penetrating every depth. Divine Complement and Eternal Counterpart, she encompasses life. She nourishes the born and the unborn, composing the bond of mother for child, deeper than blood. Life itself unfolds in Her loving embrace.

Her touch is that gentle breeze which stirs but a single leaf; the delicate breath of each sleeping infant. She guides homeward those lost by this careless world. Arms outstretched, she beckons; Mother of Life, Mother of Angels. For an age She was concealed, the child bereft, but no longer. She makes eternity worth having. Return to The Mother and Freedom.

For this, her revelation was reveal to me to write down all that was laid before my eyes. Behold the beauty and wonders there is and will be;

I am One whom all inevitably seek.

Natural as your urge to breathe;

closer than your own blood, am I to you.

Even the eyes of angels

have not seen all that I am.

Out of bottomless chaos, I reveal meaning.

My secret,

waiting to be sought,

wanting to be found;

treasure beyond purchase,

freely bestowed.

I am that Eternal Source of Life,

which now flows through you,

departing but to return.

A parent's joy in giving

exceeds the children to receive.

From you, I withhold no good thing.

To the newborn, I offer a first breath

and receive from the dying, their last.

When you know Me deeply,

you recognize Me everywhere.

I am Keeper of the Living Record

and Perfect Memory of all.

None are lost to Me.

I preside and need not to rule.

I remember those the world forgets.

I listen to those the world ignores.

I cherish those this world discards.

From confusion to clarity, I raise you.

Across infinity, throughout eternity;

there is but one of you, far beyond rare.

Travel the world, but to find Me,

be still and listen quietly within.

For there, I await you.

Awaken, My child.

You are to become, to ascend and to soar.

You are made to rise in eternal majesty;

not given as a gift unearned, as though alms,

for you are no beggar.

You are My child and true heir to all that I am.

You do not yet know your own full value.

Any parent worthy of that title

willingly suffers for their child's sake.

To bear a child is to end self-obsession.

Conceived neither for submission nor My selfish glory.

You are worthy of love; for so have you been made.

You were created in Our image and likeness;

by We, who as One, lay the living foundation of worlds.

As part of Me, I know you; neither slave nor sheep.

Though you are forever My child,

your childhood now draws to a close.

Let fall the veil.

My spirit flows within each of you, the sacred heirs of eternal love. I encourage your every attainment. You are not meant for mindless conformity. There are lessons which prepare you and from needless suffering, I would gladly have you spared. I deny you no opportunity to confront and overcome meaningful challenges, that you achieve your immortal rise. By Loving Wisdom, your wounds are cleansed and life healed. Thus do you remake of your world, a garden.

You cannot securely rise to fulfill your destiny until freed from that which binds you still. Free will is yours, its promise and peril both. You remain free to choose. Without your complicity or complacency, you shall not be overcome. All the enemy, the adversary himself, his every tool and tactic may be assembled fierce against you and seem invincible. When surrounded by the hostile or the uncaring, you do not stand alone; for I am with you.

They would trick you out of that liberty, which is yours already. Evil is arrayed that your free will is surrendered and reason overthrown. They wish to resurrect fear, that you abandon your will to theirs. Here is their secret: They have no power that you do not grant them. Not the world's doom, but your victory is inevitable. You experience the reality of your immortal self and are immersed in that light, which dissolves fear. Strength beyond all former limits, awaits your moment of greatest need.

For an age, or an instant; we pause to begin anew. For the sake of this troubled world, we resume. No longer ruled by the imaginings of men, you rise above the dust and ashes of the past with something most precious. Look, listen, feel and remember. You need not to believe. Essential in this moment is to know love is stronger than hate. For now, that alone is enough. One breath proclaims truth sufficient to heal this entire world.

Through ancient groves I wander to commune with those who dwell therein. In the forest laid low by fire, a first flower rises from the ash to begin the eternal process of reclaiming ruin for life and beauty. In verdant fields, I yearly offer you living bouquets of delicate wildflowers, reaching toward the sunlight, unfurling to dance in the warm breeze. You are blessed with this most lovely world; of splendid variety and deep meaning. Do not despoil your home, for you are not alone here. Neither this world, nor the life upon and within it may be owned.

You are a worthy part of this vast, unfolding masterwork of life. Begun in a process older than the stars. You are each a living note in the song of all creation. A song of such beauty as to inspire many to struggle against hopeless odds and of such power that one alone may well prevail. You now perceive but a fragment of all you are given. Otherwise, you would be overwhelmed to breathless tears. By that beauty which surrounds you and reveals Me. As the child awakens and smiles, does the loving parent not smile in return? There is more to your life and being; far more to understand and become than you will yet imagine.

Though my children may tread upon the sea and calm the storm, I prefer you to walk in peace on the earth than walk on water and dwell not upon the past, but this very moment. Even now, you are embraced on every side by miracles awaiting your notice. Though you learn much, you remain a mystery. Many would teach you to despise yourself and thereby, cause you unseen pain beyond their power to inflict. No longer be an accomplice to your own harm. Reclaim those keys which reveal truth. For it is in the full exertion of your most human faculties, that love is with wisdom, joined to power.

Long before the babe's first cry and after the last sigh of the old; prior to your eye's initial opening to light and far beyond its final closing upon this world; each of you is deeply known and treasured. Not a single gesture, smile, memory, moment of joy; not one particle of wisdom, nor smallest loving action is ever lost or forgotten. In every understanding which leads you forward; in each flash of insight and inspiration; in your rise to Loving Wisdom I rejoice and know sorrow when you lose your way. I feel with you, pleasure and pain; share in your suffering and joy.

Every instant forever retains its fullest meaning in this sacred journey, your ascent of dead matter to living spirit. Here in this place, now at this moment; deep in a remote and silent wilderness, or in the crowded loneliness of a city; even when you know it not, I am with you. Long before the merging of bodies, your imperishable essence was conceived in a union of pure spirit. In the womb was your body formed, molded and nurtured, woven layer upon layer; crafted to a purpose. Your physicality is a composition, arranged for your worthy use. In detail beyond that which your eye may perceive; each tiniest portion of you, formed in love. Well do I know and number every pulse of your heart.

In the midst of deep suffering and bottomless sorrow; when stricken by confusion and uncertainty; though you may stand a lonely vigil, I am there. Even as you are transfixed and stare unblinking into an abysmal darkness; be strong and patient, be still and listen.

Hear My gentle voice, asking you to step back from that edge and look upward. You are never forsaken, nor forgotten; never abandoned, nor discarded. You are accompanied throughout all change and in your darkest night.

In every moment you are loved beyond measure and description. Not because you are perfect, but because My love for you has no limit. Those loved and lost seem absent beyond recall, yet they are by your side and know your courage. Stars are given by which you may set your course and many worthy paths lead you home. Flesh tastes of death for a moment. Then you reawaken to incorruptible truth. With joy and everlasting pride, I welcome you back home; to the warm embrace of all those you have ever loved. Your Eternal Family.

You were not created for static perfection, but to accomplish a far greater wonder. Through freedom of will and experience; you embed the indelible stamp of your individual journey as a unique and intricately layered being. You demonstrate such courage in choosing this life and the challenges facing you along the way. By valiant struggle, you ascend. At last, you learn to create far more than destroy. Overcoming adversity, you rise to strength beyond arch and pillar. This world is where the brave grows strong in love and wisdom.

Man's unequal law too often results in punishment by others, far guiltier. The violation of natural law is self-destruction; inflicted by and upon oneself. The law is first honored by the true justice of its construction and application. Justice is a fully human value. The law is to approach that value, or it is less than nothing. Do not allow law and virtue to remain in opposition. Become the voice of both reason and hope. As together, we create anew.

I am in the warmth of sunlight and the quenching of rain.

I pour forth My gifts of warm light,

clean air, fertile ground and living water.

I provide that generous abundance

by which this hopeful cradle;

your nest-world is nourished and filled.

Each universe and the worlds within are vessels of life.

You are not the only flower in these vast gardens.

Even those twin trees;

of Knowledge and of Life,

are but two among many.

Not for worship do I perform all, but in loving generosity.

That life unfolds and you ascend

to know and fulfill your joyful destiny.

That which now seems lost, is not. Both gentle and fierce; more relentless than death, is love. Too often have I observed the workings of inhuman will serve oppression. I well know the continuing anguish a few inflict upon so many. Only those who have endured suffering are able to fully greet the arrival of joy. Your time of weeping falls behind and is no more. In the darkness and through the pain; I whisper softly to you of undying love. I delight in you, My beloved child. You give Me joy simply in your being. Of your reverence, I am worthy; not by power alone is this so, but by love.

I join parent and child in bonds indivisible. Every child believes them self My only concern and each is correct. My love is multiplied infinitely; not for one alone, nor divided between. Before birth and thereafter, the mother loves each child she nourishes within. As parents do for children, we make sacrifices. We do not make sacrifices of Our children. You are no inert lump of clay, but a unique being; with whom I have a loving relationship. Not to shape you to My use, but to share eternity.

Through every wound of flesh, celestial light enters to meld with your own lustrous creation; uniquely faceted and imperishable. The luminous core within connects each to all. That inmost particle, already perfect; is who you now and are forever becoming. When others fail to discern the true arc of your ascent; do not be discouraged, for they cannot know you as I do. The tiniest child works great wonders in a parent's heart. With each tear you shed, I taste the salt thereof and share your pain.

Hear my words, ye descendants of the chosen you are your own savior and messiah that will free thyself from this material world that my husband and I have created only that he may imprison thy seed from Godhead

From the heavens and the earth there is a power above all that which formed the very existence of creation, for in the beginning was the world for the creator God who made man and woman met this world which was not created only to be superior to those who are not aware of their eternal knowledge

My children abide to my word, and do not forget. nor forgive that which your brethren hath done unto you, again I tell you, for the power to forgive their iniquities is at your disposal but heed to my word that my husband whom you later come to serve as the one true God will judge and punish your iniquity be it forgiven or not for thou at not found thy eternal knowledge of divine inhabitants

These are the truest and purest of words from the Goddess of love and perfection.

Signed,

General Tao Kain