Chapter 43 - Confession

Jihye

We were walking in the garden and looking around while she was just clinging to me and admiring the flowers that she planted. We were just silent since I was admiring her whenever she touched the flowers. She was heavenly beautiful and I still couldn't get over the fact that she's my wife. I know there was a lot of damage in her head but I couldn't care less. She's still my wife Lauren and there's nothing in the world that I will trade her, she's my whole world.

I decided to take a photo of her when she was in the middle of the tulips, she was sighing and smiling from ear to ear, relishing the moments. Good thing I bought my camera, I still have the memories with me and I also bought the letters that she read when she saw my secrets.

"It looks so beautiful in here, it seems like I'm not in my home anymore this is heavenly" she mumbled while we sat in the grass and she was in between my legs.

My feelings for her went deeper, I mean on the very first day it was already deep but now, now that she's back again. Everything went deeper, I became obsessed but in a good way.

I kiss the top of her head when she was looking at the roses and she smiled intertwining our hands together. I don't have any clue if she was feeling something from me, I don't know if she is comfortable and she wants me to be by her side as always. I'm still overthinking things that maybe she was just doing this because I'm taking care of her and maybe because she just want to pay me back I don't know if --

I came back to reality when she kissed my jaw and I looked at her she was smiling at me already "You seem thinking deep, is everything okay?" She asked while I looked at her. Her eyes, her soft eyes. It stays the same. These are our eyes that I was looking at when I have still had a huge crush on her when she was walking on the altar, when I was saying our vows and when we are making love. Is this the sign that she likes me back? She's in love with me? Because I will doe at this moment but I need to confess first.

"Hey..." She said worriedly she was supposed to sit up when I stopped her and kissed her head

"Everything's okay. I'm just thinking something but there's nothing to worry about" she nodded and she came back to her spot again while playing with my fingers "so, what is it that you want to show or tell me?" She asked while I rub her shoulders.

"Well, I don't know how will you react to this but I want to show it and let you know what happened when I was still a dancer, single and a CEO" she nodded and I supported her to sit properly. Now, we are sitting across from each other. I took out the same box where I keep all the letters I wrote for her. I also decided to put all the pictures that I took when we got married.

I handed it to her and she looks at me quizzically

"Open it" I commanded softly, while she nodded and opened it slowly. She gasped when she saw her picture. She looked at me and I nodded. She took everything out slowly while looking at every picture that she saw, smiling from ear to ear whenever she sees the picture of her and Jayden.

She started to read the letters, I wasn't nervous but I'm scared about will she react especially she had amnesia but I needed to let her know what I feel since, from the start, I need to. I need her to stay with me forever, I don't want her to think of someone else but me and Jayden.

To be honest, when she had amnesia I'm scared that maybe she was just pretending that she likes me, I know Lauren is an honest and sincere person but I need to be sure and to be sure I need to show her these letters because she was the one who found it in the first place.

I looked at her and she was smiling already, sometimes chuckling and I could tell she was already reading the cheesy parts. How much I want to be with her and wanted her to notice me. I know it's cringe but I want her to read my mind as always. I don't want us to be apart again and I don't want to let her go not ever.

I was just looking at her while she was reading it one by one. She bit her lip trying not to laugh whenever she sees and read something weird and cheesy but I could she was enjoying it and she can't lie to me because I still remember if she likes something or not and the fact that she was showing right now is that she likes it, I hope she likes me and I'm gonna be patient until she loves me again because I'm always patient towards her and I love her so much that I'm willing to risk everything. I'm whipped.

She was already done reading the letters, and she put everything in the box again still smiling from ear to ear.

"So, you're trying to say in the letters are...you like me ever since then? You have a crush on me even though we aren't married yet?" Gosh, how could she be this smart? She's so smart that I can't pull a joke on her sometimes because I will be the one confused in the end

"Yes.." she smiled and she gripped my hand opening the box again. I tried not to shake since she took out the picture when she was modeling for Chanel.

"Why'd you like? What's so special about me that it managed you to like and appreciate me?" She asked while looking straight into my eyes. I sigh and I kissed her head wanting to hug her saying why in the world I like her.

"I didn't like you just because of your beauty, sexiness, and wealth but I liked you because you have such a beautiful heart, soul, and mindset. You are so hardworking that you planning everything already when it comes to your future, you care about all the people surrounded by you especially your family and all your employees. You're so smart, you're sweet and you're lovable just like your parents. You aren't easy to get because a lot of people were trying to apply to your company but you denied them sometimes because you want someone who is professional at everything but at least your giving them the chance to put them on training and that's what I like about you because your not greedy. You have such a warm heart and that makes me fall harder for you" She smiled at me and she gripped me tighter wanting me to continue

"I adore you so much because you aren't hard to get when it comes to love but only for the good ones" I joked which she chuckled "You aren't hard to get when we got married, you showed me how bold you are and you didn't show me that you aren't interested at all but you showed me that you want to work things out and want to get me to know better even though we're still starting everything but you know even though we're just starting at that moment you showed me your love and adoration towards me, you took care of me even though we aren't that close yet. You showed me the real you and you were confident saying everything towards me and that's what I like about you, Lauren. I love you that it hurt so much when I saw you that you were hurting and when you got the accident I almost died, I was crying at that time and begging for your parents to wake you up. That scared me to death. I thought I'll lose you"

This time, I couldn't help my tears. I needed to tell her that because I want to confess everything because I know it will be worth it. Because all I know is she's still the Lauren I know, the sweetest, my wife, and my everything. When I was looking at her from afar whenever she was doing something in the house I know her attitude stays the same.

She sat across me but our hands are still intertwined, I'm also wiping my tears with my left hand. I don't know what will she answer, I don't know if she's happy about this because she's still in the process of healing and I don't want to shock her but I couldn't contain my feelings anymore. I'm scared.

She cups my cheeks and wipe my tears using her thumb and smiled at me. She kissed my forehead and she told me to rest my head on her shoulder, Gosh. This warms what I like about it. Even though she's beside I still missed her so much. I still want her beside me and I need to know if she's doing okay or not if she's happy or not because if she isn't I will do everything just for her because I want her to be the happiest girl again.

"I didn't know what to say Jihye but I appreciate you so much, I certainly do. I have a lot of things to say to you but I want you to be honest with my question" I nodded my head "Why are you always zoning out? Why do you always have a nervous and worried face?"

This is it, this is what I'm saying. What if she was just pretending? I need to tell her the truth.

"Jihye, you can tell me anything. You know that" I breathe heavily and hold both of her hands.

"I'm overthinking things about you" she frowned "I'm scared that you might just be pretending everything pretending that you care about me, want to be with me. I'm scared that someday soon you'll leave me.."

"Hey, don't say that," she says while my tears didn't stop again "shh"

Lauren

I didn't know that she was feeling all this. She rants to me everything and my heart is sinking deep in my chest. She was so vulnerable in this state. My soft heart couldn't handle it, she looks so happy in the past few days, she was playing and teasing me and I was thinking all the time that she doesn't have any problem because she was showing me that she truly loves me.

But then, whenever I see her zooming out it's making me worried I wanted to ask her about this but this is just the time because she confessed. Should I also confess? I don't want her to feel this way again, I need her to know that I care about her a lot, I claimed her already and there's no going back from it. She's the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I want her to be with me forever because everything feels so right.

"Jihye, don't ever think about that okay? You certainly don't know how I feel right now. I'm not hurt that you told me that I'm just pretending everything I understand you because I just came out from the hospital and the top of that I suffered from Amnesia. I get you but Jihye. I claimed you already," she gasped and I nodded "I was waiting for you to take me out on a dinner date since I want to confess to you already because I'm scared that you might get tired towards me and I never want that to happen because you are so important to me feat Jayden" I smiled and she chuckled "I fall in love with you Jihye. I certainly do ever since you started to taking care of me when I woke up and you showed me that I mean so much to you"

"When we got home in this big house, That's when I cleared everything that I like -- not scratch that. I love you and I want you to be tied with me forever because I don't want you to feel this way and overthink things. I'm also scared that I might lose you Jihye." She chuckled but she hugged me tightly while I feel her tears streaming down "Stop being a cry baby for now. Come one. I just confessed" I pout

"It's a happy tear" she pulled out the hug and she cups my cheek "You don't know how happy I am, thank you. At least I know that everything is true and real, I know you are sincere Lauren. I can see it in your eyes" I am sincere I certainly am.

"Everything is true. You don't have to worry" she nodded and I rested my head on her chest while she kissed my head from time to time. Gosh, everything is real. Especially the love of my life, My wife. Jihye.

I pulled out from her and look at her straight in the eyes. I wanted to try something, that couples or married couples usually do. I bit my lip and she looks at me to my eyes and my lips. She leaned in closer and I leaned in also, she was just looking at me and she slowly held my chin to finally let our lips touch.

It was soft, her lips taste like strawberry, our lips moving in sync and I was just holding her shoulder and her left hand was in my waist wanting me to be closer to her. She was sighing in the kiss and so do I, it was so perfect. She was good on this, even I am. I feel like I was a veteran when Kissing. My heart is beating faster and I know this is right. She's my tall person and my love. Nothing will change that, she's mine. Everyone should back off. She pulled out the kiss and I was still closing my eyes and I bit my lip while opening my eyes. She smiled at me and I hug her tightly.

"I love you, Lauren. I love you so much" she kissed my cheek.

"I love you too, Jihye"

I finally confessed this is my love story. The start of my love story.