A New Start

I left two years ago, hoping never to return... so many times, I wanted to imagine what my life was like there...so many times, I didn't want to think about it...I couldn't find the strength to think about it and...

Not finding the strength to think about it and go back...and now this letter is pushing me to go back again...why me?!

maybe it would be good to go back to understand the past, now...is it the right choice...I don't know...I'm afraid...

There was a silence in the apartment, for a long moment, frozen in my thoughts, clutching the letter in my hands.

The decision was made, yes I'm leaving! .

Not to change my mind, I called my mother.

She still doesn't answer!

Finally, she decides to pick up.

-Hello, she answers furiously

-Mmm...yes mom...I answer shakily.

-Linda... is that you?

-Yes, I miss you, I confirmed, crying.

-Ah, girl, how are you? I miss you too... she announced through tears.

-I'm coming home tomorrow and I'm so sorry for everything that happened... I love you!

-What a surprise! And I was dreaming of this day when you would come home my dear child. I love you too!

-So...see you tomorrow, good night! ...I hung up immediately.

After a short conversation of two strangers, a bit awkward, I froze again, thinking about everything...

I was shaking and crying again and again.

what I went through was horrible and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, not even you... I continued to sob.

-How can I go back after all they did to me?

I have to prepare myself now....physically and morally...I will gather the rest of my things in the morning.

My eyes are closing, maybe I should go to bed.

No sooner did I hit the pillow than I immediately fell asleep and had restless dreams again all night.....

The big day has arrived.

I don't even know if I should do it... if I should face everyone again... I can't go back to the old me. I have to change who I am, what I look like... everything about me.

I hate feeling different but I have no choice.

Locked in the room, I prepare to be a new person by disguising myself: putting on a gray wig, long high boots, a long torn dress like a new version of Lady GAGA .... a real queen of darkness. It's the day of darkness: Halloween ...

Everything is black with a jaded tone, outside . tanned and with well drawn scars.... I say I'm a girl from California who just landed in this fucking bewitched town.

She's coming to visit her grandmother who likes to bake cookies and is friendly to everyone.

Perfect cliché of a small, traditional, boring life in this unknown fucking town of nowhere. My new name is callie....

-Hey yeah callie...?! What are you hiding too?! Who are you really, behind that mask .... are you complicit in Rosenwood's secrets?!

Jessica walks in without knocking and looks at me dumbfounded like a fan who just met her idol...wow what perfect irony!

-Are you sure about this?! announced Jessica

-I don't know, but one thing is for sure...I have to know the truth no matter what the cost and it's time the world is ready for it!

-I know you Linda, I know that no matter what I do you will never change your mind but I am coming with you and together we will succeed. I won't leave you alone and don't forget that I am your big sister even if you refuse me!

- I throw a pillow in the middle of her face and I stick my tongue out at her saying: Thank you sis, I'm happy that you really exist and that you believe in me!

My sister is everything to me, she was there by my side when everyone turned their backs on me.

She was there for me when I was in prison as if she was there every second, she took care of my mother when I wasn't there and she made a lot of sacrifices for me and my mother.

I will give it all back to her one day, I promise. my family didn't let go of me after everything that happened.

Believe me there is no better love in the world than family, no one can replace them even your loyal friends who leave you at the last moment without any remorse or pity...What cowards!!! I went through all this two years ago .... it's horrible to see and painful to feel .... I will get my revenge and I will get my dignity, honor and those damn years back...