Chapter 6

Athira Patel

Imagination is one thing and practically experiencing it is the other thing. From last few hours, I have imagined how his lips would feel against mine, but now while practically experiencing it, my imagination is nothing compared to what I am feeling right now. His lips are so soft and gentle against mine that I want to stay like this forever.

His lips are moving against mine in a slow and passionate kiss. He dragged me until there is no space between us by placing one of his hand around my waist in a tight grip while other is at the back of my head to keep me in place. I can feel the mint and vanilla flavour in his taste which is so addicting. I Stood on my tip toes for better access and gripped his neck with my left hand while my right hand is playing with his soft and silky hair.

He slowly massaged my lower lip with his tongue asking for an entrance which I have granted by opening my mouth. He slipped his tongue into my mouth tasting and ravishing me. Both of them are fighting for the dominance so he sucked my tongue into his mouth taking dominance in the kiss and I moaned in pleasure when he sucked my lower lip. The taste of him was intoxicating and so was the scent of him. His kisses were so gentle at first but became fast and possessive now which is making me skip my heart beat due to desire. I don't want this feeling to end but due to lack of oxygen we broke our kiss and he started trailing soft kisses to the slope of my neck. I moaned and turned my head giving more access to my neck by catching hold of his hair by both hands. When he found my throbbing pulse, he gently sucked and nibbled on it and the sensation of it made my eyes close making me forget the world around us.

He placed his lips back on mine and gave me a short and brief passionate kiss sucking my bottom lip and biting on it. He gave one more peck on my lips and placed his forehead against mine while breathing heavily. I closed my eyes all the while feeling his pulse and trying to catch my breath. My lips are still tingling due to the sensation of the kiss, He does know how to kiss passionately. He placed his hand on my left cheek and started rubbing his thumb gently up and down. I opened my eyes slowly and looked upwards into his eyes which are already looking down at me with passion and so much feeling.

"You are so beautiful Athira," He said kissing me on the forehead lingering his lips there for a moment.

My heart is still beating so fast and my breath is uneven. He said those words with so much devotion that I thought I would fall down if not for his tight grip on me. God, what have I done to meet this one here who is this handsome and hot? Not only did I meet this person but I kissed him with so much passion that I never thought I had it in me. I always thought that Akash was the best kisser but no, Akash's is nothing compared to Abhilash kiss. There is passion and desire in this kiss, and definitely, there is chemistry between us.

Oh my god... What have I done? I kissed him. Ohh god... Shit Shit Shit...

I removed my hands from around his neck and backed away from him making some distance between us. He was looking at me in confusion as if to ask what happened suddenly.

Again my heart is beating faster but now it's for a completely different reason. When I agreed to dance with him I never thought that the situations will lead to this extent. I know that I am attracted to him but didn't think that I will kiss him. It's not completely his fault to blame him because even I have encouraged him by moving forward. What was I thinking by doing this? Don't know what happened to my motives and self-restraint. Everything went out of the window the moment he dragged me towards him by giving no space between us.

I never wanted to feel this way again for anyone. I never wanted to be in this situation. And I never wanted to get attracted to anyone again. I didn't want to get involved in boys matter again. It was all over for me a long time ago when I broke up with Akash which gave me a lifetime heartache and hurt. That was enough for me to know that there will be no other men in my life which involve any physical or romantic relationship.

It has been almost three years since we broke up. I moved on from him but still, it hurts when I think of us which is no longer "us" now. I thought that we will be together for the rest of our lives, but it was shocking when he broke up with me. For the first 15 days, I was not myself. It was only when one day when I got this bouquet with some letter attached to it from a well-wisher that I stopped pitying myself and crying for him. From that day onwards I have decided that I am done with these relationships. My main goal is to become Interior Design and that is the only thing I will be doing. I don't need any distractions from my goal. And I have a feeling that he will become that distraction if I want to be in touch with him, which I don't want.

It never should have been lead to this situation in the first place. But I cannot take back what happened. But that doesn't mean I will let him think that we can be in touch.

I composed myself and masked my emotions making my face look neutral without any feelings "Listen Abhilash, It was nice meeting you. I liked your company. But this thing.." I showed between us to make a point "Between us should never have been happened. It was not right and it was not correct in the first place. And most importantly, I don't want to be in contact with you." I said looking straight in his eyes. I can see the clear emotions on his face. His smile has dropped from his face and he was looking at me like he wanted to say a million things to me at once but nothing is coming out of him. I think for a full minute we were watching each other until spoke.

"Are you sure that you don't want to be in contact with me in future?" he asked me looking serious while folding his hands in front of him.

"Yes. I am. You are good. But I have a goal to reach in my life and this will only be a distraction for me which I can't afford it. So it's better this way." I explained the reason which is half true. But still, it is true. He doesn't need to know about another half reason.

"If that is your decision, then I agree with you." He said smiling and stepping closer once again.

"Thank you for understanding," I said smiling and relaxing that he didn't create any drama.

"Your welcome Cutiepie. It was nice meeting you. Maybe it was only for a few hours but still, it was worth knowing you. I hope we could be in touch. But I respect your decision." He said stepping in front of me. Now there is only one feet gap between us.

"It was nice meeting you too," I said sincerely. I too hoped that we could be in touch. But I don't want to say that to him especially when it's me who don't want to be in contact with him in the first place.

He hugged me by placing one hand on my back and other around my waist. At first, I just stood there without doing anything then I lifted my hands and hugged him in return by placing my hands around his waist and keeping my head on his chest. We stood like that for some time and then he tilted my head upwards towards him by his right hand and placed his lips on mine in a gentle and breathtaking kiss. This kiss is not about desire. It's completely about how much he wanted me to stay in contact with him and his way of saying goodbye.

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