4. Going Mental

TW: Noncon

He brought his mouth down to my exposed nipple and a tingling sensation ran down my body.. "No" I shouted " get off me Kabuto!".

He leaned up and looked at me a bit disappointed, he stood up and left without saying a word. The door clicked behind him, great I'm locked in for the night and I feel like I'm about to break down and cry.

No! I'm stronger than this. I lied to myself as tears ran down my face, I crawled into bed pulling the blanket over me. I curled up into a little ball and quietly sobbed myself to sleep. It had been a while since I had done this. I am so weak, I have to get stronger and even though this place was a nightmare the reason deep down that I agreed to this arrangement was for the pure fact of become strong. My eyes grew weary and I fell asleep holding myself.

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The next morning I woke up and got dressed, I felt dirty after last nights events but I couldn't leave my room until someone came for me. I opened the scrolls by my bed and started studying, I read all of them 3 times before I heard the door open again. It was kabuto. "Hurry up" he said loudly into the room, it echoed.

I got up and walked over to him, "Good Morning, I honestly still thought you'd be asleep". "I couldn't sleep" I quickly replied, eyes glued down. He walked out the door and down to a large spare room with lots of medical equipment. I looked around analysing and remembering what was in the room.

"Now, what do you know so far?" I looked at him in confusion, what a broad question.. "Um... I can do basic healing but nothing too fancy, I cannot heal cardiac muscle or connective tissue only epidermal, dermis and adipose tissue. I'm fairly good with my basic knowledge of the human body and I've worked with the basic range of herbs from the land of waterfalls." I concluded.

"So no knowledge of poisons, or how to sever tissue instead of heal?" Kabuto shot back with a disappointed look on his face.

"N.. no.." I stammered. He made me feel so inferior, it was hard to look at him after last night. I just had to suck it up and be strong I thought to myself.

"Okay, this week we'll work on brewing basic poisons an then we'll follow through with antidotes. It's important, there are a lot of dangerous opponents you will come across while working under Lord Orochimaru that will use poisons and you need to know how to make them yourself as well as come up with an antidote" he said smirking weirdly again.

"Alright" I said, mentally giving in to his weirdness. We went through a lot over the next few couple of days but I was getting it, I have a knack for learning things quickly especially if it's medical.

Although after each lesson he would take me back into my room after giving me time in the bathroom and try and come onto me. It was mentally wearing me down and I cried myself to sleep every night. Was this what becoming stronger meant enduring?

I was beginning to become accustom to the time without actually knowing. This morning kabuto let me roam around the base and showed me where everything was, he gave me a key but he said I wouldn't be able to get outside. I didn't think they would be dumb enough to anyway.

I sat in my room quietly waiting for Lord Orochimaru to come and collect me for our first training session. The door opened and there he was "Tila, come let us begin" he said in his strange but somewhat sexy voice, wait what! That didn't just pop into my head.. I give my head a good shake and then follow him into the same room we spoke in previously.

"Now my dear, show me what you've got" he looked at me with those sexy snake eyes.

OMG what, ahh my brain is turning to mush, okay stop thinking and do this already I thought mentally scolding myself. He threw me a kunai and I caught it in my left hand, I stood there contemplating how to approach this. I put the kunai in my shorts pouch and began to weaved my signs.

Saru - Uma - Ryo , "lightning technique: electromagnetic murder" I clasp my hand together in a ball and slowly open them while keeping eyes fixated on my target - Orochimaru. The lightning streaks started to leap out towards him he dodged again and again.

Why can't I hit him! Damn I thought this Jutsu was supposed to at least weaken him a bit but he brushed it off as if it were mere child's play. Orochimaru darted behind me and and went to stab the kunai he had in his hand into my throat, this guys not messing around I thought and quickly ducked before it could hit me square in the throat.

I rolled forward turned around and looked at him. Suddenly he put his hand up as to say stop, and beckoned me over. I looked at him confused for a second, "come here" he said out loud.

"Oh" I said embarrassed and walked over suspiciously.

"You need to work on your speed, I'll give you small weights to wear on your shins. From now on you'll wear them while training" he said abruptly. "If you think it will help then okay.." She still looked puzzled. The spar went on for another hour and Tila was at her limit.

Orochimaru stopped the match and praised her on her hard efforts. "Lord Orochimaru" Tila quickly said before he was about to walk off, "yes" he turned around and faced her.

I've been thinking about saying something about Kabuto's actions for a few days and I've decided to do it. "It's Kabuto.." I started, he nodded as to go on " he has been trying to touch me physically and it's making me really uncomfortable, I've never had that sort of contact.." Orochimaru interrupted " I'll have a talk to him".

"Okay thanky.." He interrupted again " Tila, I know it's me you want".

"Wha..t?" Part of the word didn't come out because i was so taken back. " I can see it in the way you look at me dear" he continued, "all you had to do was ask me you know". He stopped and looked me in the eyes and for some reason I looked back lustfully. What was wrong with me.

I've never had sexual contact before but for some reason after kabuto touched me it's like a fire ignited inside myself and I couldn't help but to look at Orochimaru and long for him to touch me..

Was it that obvious that he read me like a book..

This is so embarrassing I hadn't even admitted it to myself, yet some how he knew.. maybe he could take my pain away if I let him.. "Orochimaru.. Please .." I blushed profusely. He held his gaze with mine, "you must do something for me in return" he said seductively as he slowly walked closer to me and brought his hand up to cup my cheek.

My face was already as red as it was going to get but he completely ignored it.

"What is it?" I asked shyly but still really wanting to know what it was..

"You must let me do as I wish with your body... my dear" my eyes sort of flickered as I completely tried to imagine what he was capable of with my body left to his sick mind.

"I.. I mm" he saw I was stumbling my words and interrupted "do you not trust me? Sweet Tila?" I looked down to the ground contemplating, after a few moments I looked back up but not meeting his hypnotising eyes and said "I need a few days to answer you, Lord Orochimaru" his eyes soften slightly.

"I understand" he whispered, "let me know before the end of the week, dismissed" he said as his seductive touch retracted from my cheek and he turned around now proceeding to walk out of the room. I decided to sit down on the large rectangular table, I buried my head into my arms with my face down on the table deep in thought.

What is going on with your mind Tila? Why would you lust for the man that killed the only family you've ever known and ripped you away from your beloved home?

I don't know! I yelled back into my subconscious mind, there was something luring me in and I couldn't rationalise why. All of the facts screamed against this ridiculous decision.. There is no way your going to agree?!

I don't know!! I yelled again at my self in my head, god am I loosing the plot or what?!

I need to breath. I decide to stand up as casually as possible and make my way to the bathroom, hopefully I don't run into kabuto because that's the last thing I need.

I make my way down the hall, pull out my key and unlock the door to the perfectly pristine bathroom. I walk in and lock it behind me, I decide to run the shower seeing as I have the room to myself and no wondering eyes are following my body like a damn hawk.

The warm water feels refreshing as it rolls over my skin, I feel so dirty lately and it doesn't surprise me why. At the least I've gotten kabuto to stop acting on his strange urges towards me.. That was all I really wanted, or was it?

I find my mind slowly drifting away wondering what it would be like to have Orochimaru's body against mine.. Stop. Tila, you need to get your self together.

I hop out of the shower seeing as it's not stopping me from having mental arguments with myself.

Wrap myself in my towel and quietly open the bathroom door and look both ways, I forgot my clothes due to my distracted thoughts so I'll have to make a run for it.. I quickly slipped out the door, locked it and then proceeded to swiftly walk down the halls.

My bedroom was within sight, I reached the handle and turned it.. Safe! Made it back unscathed, I had a massive grin on my face. I must've looked weird grinning from ear to ear at myself.

I must say thought it's the only thing that'd made me smile all week, literally. I had a fairly pleasant nights sleep and the rest of the week wasn't anything special, kabuto stopped coming on to me. I guess speaking up was the right thing to do after all. The end of the week drew nearer and nearer until the morning came in which I had to give an answer.