22. Eternity Is A Curious Thing

Sasori, Deidara and I walked over towards the enormous rock that was covering the entrance to the hideout.

"Release." Sasori says boredly. As the rock begins to rise off the ground the large space of the training room comes in to view. My eyes sweep over the room. I noticed two figure standing across from each other, their attention is focused in our direction. Hidan and Konan greeted us.

They must have been in the middle of training because there were small square pieces of Origami papers suspended within mid-air, they surrounded Konan, that and Hidan had his scythe in hand.

Sasori quickly walks in with Dei, I follow. He lowered the rock back down then turned to face us.

"I'll go report." His eyes shift from Dei to me before walking off. I turn to Deidara, he was watching as Konan and Hidan resumed their spar.

"I'm next yeah?" He yells at them. Hidan glances over.

"Yeh fine just shut the fuck up for now!" He yells back.

I decided to watch them for a minute too. Konan had sent long sharp paper spheres shooting towards Hidan but he continued to dodge them confidently as they flew by. Some spheres only missed him by an inch or so, It was very interesting to watch. Eventually, I decided to go and get something to eat so I nudged Deidara and told him I'd see him later.

As I strolled in to the kitchen I saw Kakuzu sitting at the dinning room table. There was a whole bunch of suitcases open which were filled to the brim with money. They were sprawled out and covered the entire table surface. Kakuzu was in the middle of counting a fat wad of cash when he looked up at me and put the cash down.

"It's you, huh? Did you just get back from a mission?" He asked, glaring at me. I nodded slowly. "Yeah, to gather some intel on the one-tail" I replied, walking over to him. I stared down at the multiple suitcases.

"Don't touch anything." He warned. I looked at Kakuzu. He held out a small bundle of bills to me.

"This is for today's mission." He grunted. I took it from him.

"Thanks."

I lifted my cloak and slipped it in to my leg pouch. He grunted again, as though reluctant to let the money go before going back to counting.

"Now shut up and don't disturb me, as you can see I'm busy." His aggravation quite blatant. I gulped thickly. Don't think I'll be annoying him anytime soon.

I made a salad sandwich and sat down at the kitchen bench. I ate quietly as to not disturb Kakuzu while he was counting.

"Ey! Kakuzu! How much fucking money do you have!?" Hidan exclaims loudly as he walks in. I look over my shoulder to see Kakuzu glaring at Hidan dangerously.

"Shut up Hidan or I'll kill you." His voice deep and serious.

"Sheesh. All you fucking care about is that filthy crap. You still fucking owe me for my last mission!" Hidan yells back. Kakuzu throws him the fat wad he'd just finished counting.

"Here. Now stop annoying me or I really will kill you." He booms. The room shakes a little. I turn back around feeling a little scared. These two are full on, huh.

"Tila, You fucking get paid too?" Hidan asks as he sits down beside me.

"Yeah." I reply, taking the last bite of my sandwich.

"I don't really give a shit about money but I need to go down to get a few fuckin things down at the village. You want to come too or what?" He asks, I look back up at him and nod as I swallow what's in my mouth.

"Yeah okay, I need to get a few thing too." I get up and take my plate to the sink. I sense Hidan watching me as I wash the plate and put it back away. When I'm done I turn back to see what he was doing. He quickly eyes Kakuzubefore looking back to me.

"C'mon, I don't have all fucking day. Let's get the fuck out of here." He stands up. Hidan and I walk down to the training room where Deidara and Konan were now in hand to hand combat. Hidan ignores them completely and walks over to the rock and smacks it hard. It starts ascending and we both step out on to the water. I notice that the sky is filled with dark grey clouds... There's a sent of moisture in the air. Hidan re-seals the barrier and we walk down the right side of the hill. As we go we start talking about all sorts of random things and I'm surprised that he's talking so much.

"Fucking Kakuzu. All he cares about is his money." He complains as we stroll side by side, making our way to the bottom of the hill.

"You just said that five minutes ago Hidan?" I chuckle lightly.

"Yeah, I fucking know but it just pisses me off." He waves his arms around.

"So, how the fuck did a girl like you end up joining the Akatsuki anyway?" He asks, looking me over, I think about it for a second before answering.

"Well, Leader ordered Sasori and Deidara to basically kidnap me and I guess I just didn't have much else to do so..." He smirked. We made our way down a gravel pathway.

"Yeah, Sasori and Kakuzu fuckin convinced me to join too. Said I could kill who ever the fuck I want." He laughs.

"Oh, that reminds me. I need to pick up some fucking bitch when we get there.. Remind me, yeah?" He looks over at me again. I sort of fake smile and gulp. "Sure." I say slowly.

What in the world.. Am I going to be safe with him..?! Mental note.. Never EVER go to the market with Hidan again.

"Fucking finally," He exclaims as we emerge from a bunch of trees. The town entrance is just ahead. There isn't anyone in sight as I look around. We walk down the main path in to the town. There are shops open but no people, Hidan turns and enters a small dingy shop. I follow silently behind him. He walks up to the counter and starts talking to the shopkeeper, so, I look around. It isn't long until I see a massive wall filled with weapons. I get closer to inspect what there is.

Kunai, Shuriken, Swords, Nun-Chucks, Axes, Daggers and thin Needles.

I pick up one of the thin slender needles that hang on the wall. As I poke it against my finger a small trickle of blood drips. It's really sharp.

"You should fucking get some." Hidan voice came from behind me. I turned around to face him. He grabs my hand.

"Fuck those are sharp." He brought my finger up closer to his lips, pausing for a moment before licking the blood off my finger. A shiver runs through me as I watch a smirk form.

"You taste fucking good." He shoves my hand back down at my side.

"You're so weird sometimes..." I mummble, feeling a little worried and overwhelmed. He ignores me and turns back to look for the shop keeper.

"Hey! Can we fucking get some of these needles!" He yells, grabbing my wrist and pulling me over to the counter. The shop keeper grabs a box from under the counter and puts it down in front of us. I look up at the wall behind the counter and notice some beautiful small lanterns hanging in a line from a string.

"And I'll have a set of those too please." I smile at the old man as I point up to the pretty lights dangling behind him. He reaches down again and pulls out another box and puts it down next to the other. I hand him the cash and he takes it giving me coins as change. I slip it into my pouch then take the boxes. Hidan and I leave.

We start walking back down the pathway towards the front of the village. I see a tall beautiful woman smile at Hidan as we walked past.

"Fuck, I'll be back." He quickly turns around the corner to follow her.

I stand in the middle of the village, remembering that he'd mentioned needing a sacrifice for Jashin? I shake my head, not really wanting to think about it. Instead, I make my way to the entrance of the village, where I quietly wait behind the trees along the forest line.

I didn't have to wait for very long until I saw Hidan walking nearby. He had the girl he'd spotted earlier unconscious, lugged over his shoulder

"Hey! What're you doing?" I yell out to him. He turns around.

"Oh, there you fucking are. C'mon, lets get the fuck out of here." He smirks. I break out in to a light jog as I catch up with him. Unable to take my gaze off the girl over his shoulders.

He stops walking and throws her down on the grass. She makes a dull thudding sound at she hits the floor.

"Now, I'm really going to fucking enjoy this." Hidan pulls out his scythe and scratches her face with it. Blood trickles from the gash. He licks the residue blood from the tip of blade, cackling in euphoria. I stepped back and sat down to watch. I had no idea what Hidan was on about so I just listened while he rambled on about Jashin.

He stabbed himself, heavy trickles of blood seeped out of the wound in his chest. I closed my eyes, resting my head in to my knees. I'd seen enough. I wasn't really interest in watching anymore. I just wanted to get back and set up my new lanterns.

"C'mon, I'm fucking done with this bitch." Finally. I look up to see him covered in blood. A long thin metal pole was stuck in his chest. But, he seemed unbothered by it.

"Doesn't that hurt?" I ask, standing up. I approach him.

"Fuck yeah." He sounds so excited. I take another step towards him, grabbing the metal pole. Hidan watches as I pull it out of his chest. Inspecting the gaping hole in his chest. I put my hand across his wound and start to heal it. Hidan laughs at me.

"Your wasting your fucking energy." He looks down at me. I wait until the hole had closed then retract my hand.

"Let's just go." I sigh.

As we walk back to the hideout Hidan explains what Jashin is and all about his religion. How he needs to sacrifice people. He tells me how he just loves killing. I don't really get it to be honest. But, I'm not going to try and convince him otherwise. If that's what he's into, who am I to tell him differently. Besides, he isn't really that bad of a guy. He just comes off a little crazy when you first meet him.

We finally reach the hideout. The training room is empty. Hidan and I go our separate ways so I head to my room to set up my new lanterns. When I had finished hanging them from one side of the roof to the other, I turned them on to see what they looked like. They glow a dim pink colour, I smile at how pretty they look. Afterwards, I pull out the needles and put them on top of my cupboard. They'll be good to use these the next time I train. I take a seat on my bed, feeling tired.

On deciding to wash up I shower and brush my hair. The long blonde strands of my hair are falling loose, maybe I should pin it back. After sliding a cute clip in my hair I check in the mirror to see how it looks. Happy with the results I go and sit back down on my bed, staring at the door.

As though on cue, there was a knock. Then, Sasori opened it. His eyes fall on to me instantly. I smile.

"I was looking for you earlier." He calmly says, closing the door behind him and taking a seat beside me.

"I went down to the village with Hidan to get a few things." I explained, Sasori slowly pulls out a cutely decorated box. It's blue. He hands it to me. My eyes widened in surprise, silently I take it from him, hesitant but still opening it up. I see a petite donut with pink icing and sprinkles.

"It's so cute." I smile, looking up at him. This was so unexpected. I nearly didn't have words.

"It reminds me of you, actually." He says blankly. But, the way his gaze shifted gave me the impression he was thinking about something. He glanced at the wall, averting his focus to the lights that glowed a dim pink.

"You got lanterns?" He askes, bemusedly.

"I saw them while I was out and decided they would look nice." I told him, taking a bite of the donut.

"Sasori…" I lowered my donut slightly, swallowing the remnants.

"So, you couldn't take a bite of this even if you wanted too?" I asked carefully, hoping that he wouldn't snap at me like last time. He let out a heavy sigh. Eyes searching mine for a moment.

"Let me explain something to you Tila, I've tried to hold it off but your quite persistent. I think I've left it waiting long enough." I hold my breath, listening intently as he starts to give me the answers I had been wanting to know for so long.

"Growing up, pain and suffering were emotions I came to know better than most. I was enslaved by them, my entire childhood. Unable to control those feelings, it taunted me." His gaze held mine steadily. Not even a blink. Tingles formed in my stomach.

"You can imagine, with me being a puppeteer how much I loathed it. I wanted nothing more than to be like one of my puppets. They Don't feel trivial emotions. Loneliness. Self pity." He paused.

"I searched for a solution to my problem for a long time. Eventually, I found the answer."

I swallow hard, breathing shaky as he recounted his past. All this time, not knowing the depth of it. He continued to talk, I listened.

"I became the closest thing to a puppet that I could be. Leaving worthless human elements behind. Now, this is all that is left of me."

I looked down as he pulled his cloak aside, revealing flawless porcelain skin. Imbedded in his chest was a cylinder shaped heart. It was lodged where his real heart should have been... I watched in shock at the way it beat slowly. My eyes widened as realisation washed over.

"I understand now... Sasori. But, you've cared for me ever since I arrived here. If you've erased emotion fro-" I stopped as he raised his hand, his touch against my lip making my heart skip a beat.

"When I look at you, I can't help but see a reflection of myself. When I see a broken doll, I want to fix it." Waves of uncertainty roll over my skin, making me shiver. I didn't know what to say. Sasori went on.

"I don't suggest turning you into a puppet. No, when I think back... If someone had held out their hand to me. Perhaps, I may not have have suffered as much as I did..."

The fact that Sasori had just shared so many vulnerable and personal details with me, had opened up, it was overwhelming. It felt hard to breath, a lump catching in my throat. Small wet drops hit my thighs with a soft pat. Sasori quietly watched as I silently cry for him.

He raised a hand to my cheek, gently wiping them away with his thumb.

"I've said it before. Tila, you're too beautiful to cry. It's not too late for me to try and fix that broken heart." No words come to my mind, only the pull of string on my heart. Sasori leans in, kissing me softly. I close my eyes, accepting him. What is this feeling? For the first time in my life, could I say I felt loved? Knowing Sasori didn't feel emotions like love or pain was conflicting. But, somehow he had made me feel that way. As though I mattered to him.

His tongue massaging sensually against mine, I part my lips wider, wanting to let him in. As I do, he takes advantage, deepening the kiss. Ravishing my mouth with his, mercilessly. He gently pushes me down on to the bed, leaning over me. He breaks away, our gaze connecting. Searching mine, as though asking for permission. I give a small nod, tingles roll over my skin.

He leans over me, trailing sweet butterfly kisses along my neck. I tilt my head aside, mind clouding over as he reaches my collarbone.

A light moan escapes me, my body feels light, tingling. I'd never felt this way before. He slowly lifts my shirt up, gently touching my stomach. I peer down at him. His beige eyes grazing up my body until they stop at mine. The heat in my cheeks burns lightly, my breathing irregular. He smiles, lowering his messy red head of hair. Kissing those same soft lips to the skin of my stomach. I falter under his touch, trying to not come undone under him. He trailing higher, it's as though every kiss was erasing the pain. One by one, healing.

"Sasori" I whispered, he inches my shirt up, his lips grazing up the mounds of my breasts. Then, the cool sensation on air hits my uncovered nipples. His tongue swirls and flicks at the sensitive buds. They harden at his teasing licks. I pant, desperately trying to catch my breath. I could feel a wetness pooling between my legs. I'd relinquished all control to Sasori. Rushes of emotions overtake my mind and body, as they do I feel weak.

Sasori pulls away, looking back up at me. I slowly sit up, completely flushed with lust. I attack his lips with hasty kisses, wanting more of him. I ached for him to touch me. His firm grip wrapped itself around my mid, pulling me against him. I slip off his cloak and lock my legs around his hip. As he continues to kiss me deeply, I feel a hardness press against my inner thigh.

Sasori pull away slightly, letting go of me. I fall back on the bed, my legs still wrapped around him.

"Does it feel good?" He gently tickles my thighs.

"So good." I closed my eyes tight as I feel his hand make it's way higher, gasping as he rubs my panties. Arousal throbbing at his touch. My eyes are forced open again, only to see Sasori leaning between my legs. He licks teasingly at his bottom lip. Slowly slipping down my ruined panties.

He throws them aside before leaning over me, placing a soft kiss to my lips again. The feeling of him pressing at my core, lingering for a moment.

"Are you sure this is what you want? there's no going back once you're mine." The words he breaths in my ear send chills all over me.

"I've wanted to be yours from the start." I whispered back, sliding my hands down his lower back and pushing him in me. His thickness stretching me out causes me to moan. I feel so dizzy, mind full of him, he pushes deeper, body so full of him. His lips meet mine again forcefully, possessively. Slowly, he rolls his hips, still trying to adjust to his size. I whimper into his mouth, falling apart under him. Deeper, faster. My back arches, soft moans escaping me. I tighten my hold around his shoulder but I'm barely holding on.

"Are you ready?" He asks, breathing heavily. I nod quickly, squeezing my eyes shut. He picks up the pace, thrusts becoming erratic until I feel climax washing over me, as I clench around him I feel him spill inside me.

I lay there, desperately trying to catch my breath. Sasori carefully pulls out, falling onto his back in the space beside me, pulling me protectively in to his chest. We lay there silently for a while, I bury my face deeper into his chest, taking in the stillness of the moment.

"I wish I could capture this moment for eternity." He finally speaks, his voice soft, tickling my ear. He twirls a strand of my hair between his fore-finger and thumb.

"We can..." My voice muffled by his skin. He pauses for a moment, listen to me.

"Cause we will be together for all of eternity..." I tilt to see him, only to see a small smile playing on his lips. I nuzzle back in to his chest and close my eyes. I have never felt so happy in my entire life. Is this what real love feels like?

Sasori gently plays with my hair, slowly it pulls me in to a peaceful sleep.