54. Lost In Confusion

Everyone had finally woken up and were now gathered around the large oblong table in the dimly lit purply tinged meeting room to discuss their plan of action.

"There's been no change in Tila's condition to report overnight, she was asleep the entire time." Sasori informed everyone who sat silently.

"I'm going to set her things up in a room straight after this meeting" Konan then said, she received a look from Kakuzu who she could tell was rounding to say something.

"We need to get her memory back soon, or the amnesia could become permeant." Kakuzu's deep voice reluctantly said.

"Permeant?! What the hell!" Hidan exclaimed as he turned to face Kakuzu with an incredulous look.

"And how do you suppose we do that?" Kisame interjected.

Hn. Itachi mumbled from beside Kisame.

"There has to be a way yeah, we just have to try everything until she remembers! Hm" Deidara said.

"What do you mean by everything Deidara?" Sasori asked curiously as he sat forward in his chair from beside Deidara.

"I mean, ah" Deidara stopped and started looking around the room in confusion as though looking for an explanation.

"I think what he means is that we somehow try and re-jolt her memory. Perhaps we should wait until she's rested and then each spend a day with her and try to see if she remembers any of us" Itachi's deep voice then trailed into the other members ears.

Hm. Kakuzu gave a gruff grunt as though willing to accept Itachi's idea.

"That may actually work Itachi" Kisame said from beside him.

"And if it doesn't? Un" Deidara asked hesitantly.

"Well then it would be a good way to re-introduce ourselves to her.. At the least" Konan then said.

"Fuck, this is so messed up. I'm going to make Madara really suffer for pulling this shit" Hidan yelled angrily as he slammed his fist down on the table. All of a sudden the double door at the end of the room creaked open and Sasuke stepped in.

"She's awake." Sasuke announced in his unnervingly cold demeanour.

"Also, there's something I need to tell you all," Sasuke added. Everyone looked over to the young Uchiha curiously. "Madara plans to start a war against the five great nations and he will stop at nothing to get Tila back" Sasuke said coldly.

"How long do we have before Madara attacks?" Konan asked.

"Id say, about a month. Madara has joined forces with kabuto" Sasuke explained.

"We need to heighten security around this village, or else Madara will just walk in and destroy it all" Sasori posed.

"I agree. Kisame and I will help take care of the security issue after the meeting" Itachi proposed and Konan nodded.

"We're going to need a strong alliance if we plan to stop Madara" Kisame said.

"For once I agree with you Hm, all the more reason to get Tila back to her former self" Deidara replied.

"I'll get started on her room, we will move her Into their as soon as I'm done. Hidan, I believe it's your turn to watch her?" Konan queried.

"Yeah, fuck. I have to go" Hidan stands up and leaves the room.

_____________Tila's POV ______

My heads pounding, I'm filthy, I look around and I have no idea where I am.

I have no idea who I am. There's an anxious panic in my chest that I can't get rid of.

"Morning sunshine" a strange silvery haired and violet eyed guy says as he strolls into the room. I feel an unnerving panic inside me rise and my breathing hitched without my control.

"Stay away from me!" I scrambled backwards into the couch but all I got was a confused look from the guy as he slowly knelt down beside me.

"It's alright, fuck. I know you don't remember but my names Hidan. I'm going to fucking help you remember who you are" the guy said. I stared at him, into those violet eyes of his - my head pounded again hard.

"Ow, god why does it hurt so much" I winced as I held on tight to my head and squeezed it between my hands.

Who are these people..? Who am I?

"Look sweetheart, let's just get some fucking food into you alright?" The guys voice said, I slowly raised my head again to see he was still kneeling before me as I sat on this random couch.

I .. Can't trust anyone, was what my heart was yelling at me..

I don't know why but the intuition of my heart and mind were aching and.. For all I knew, these people might be the cause. There's no way I could know for sure. I stared at the guy who's name was supposedly Hidan before me blankly as I thought. Well, attempted to think. The pounding was still attacking my mind distracting me.

"Ok" I simply replied after at least a minute of staring at Hidan's face. His face was.. interesting.

"C'mon, follow me Tila" Hidan said sympathetically as he stood up again.

"Tila?" I asked him.. Was that me?

"Yeah, that's your name. Don't fuckin worry too much.. You'll remember eventually" Hidan said to me. I feel so unsure but.. I slowly swung one leg over the edge of the couch then followed by the other - I even more slowly tried to stand up.

My legs were so weak. They shook as I tried to put weight on them to stand. It hurts so much.

"I.. Can't" I finally said as I involuntarily shivered.

"Fuck. Madara really did a number on you.. Tila I want you to know this. The person who's fucking responsible for hurting you like this. He's going to fucking pay" Hidan said to me. I closed my eyes.

That name.. Madara..

My heart started beating faster.. It pained me to hear it..

"I'm carrying you to the fucking kitchen okay?" I heard Hidan say and I quickly snapped open my eyes again only to be picked up and thrown over this guys shoulder!

"No, please, don't hurt me!" I screamed and tried desperately to loosen myself from his grip.

"I'm not going to hurt you, just calm the fuck down." Hidan started walking out of the room. I looked around at the large room he just carried me into. It looked like some sort of large bare lobby.

I quietened down as I took in my surroundings. He kept walking down a hallway until he turned left into a kitchen. There was a big square table and lots of seats around it. I felt a panic as Hidan set me back down onto as chair at the table. I looked at him, he seemed so.. Worried now that I took the time realise.

"Just sit here, I'm going to make you some fucking pasta," Hidan turned around and walked over to the cupboard. I watched him closely as he started cooking.

Tila..? Was that really my name..?

Why can't I remember.. Hidan had said this person Madara had hurt me..

I tried desperately to remember but all that there was is blank.. A dark abyss in my mind.. There was nothing. It scared me..

"Tila..?"

"Hello?"

"Are you fucking alright?" I snapped back from my thoughts and realised Hidan had placed a plate of paste down in front of me.

"I.. Can't remember anything.. Hidan" I stammered to him. I watched as he took a seat beside me and gave me a worrying look.

"I told you before, don't fucking worry cause we are going to get you to remember. No matter what it fuckin takes."

I looked from him back down at the delicious looking pasta.. Maybe he wasn't who I was supposed to be scared of..

I picked up the fork in my hand and slowly put a small mouthful into my mouth. The tastes were tingling on my tongue in a way I never thought was possible. As though I hadn't tasted food in such a long time. I chewed slowly and then when I felt ready I managed to swallow. My jaw hurt so much as I continued I chew a second mouthful.. And after the fourth mouthful I felt completely full.

I put my fork back down and then I felt something wet on my cheeks. I kept my head lowered, not wanting someone I barely knew to see me crying.

"I can't eat anymore.. Hidan" I managed to say. There was a small silence as I looked down at the wood of the table. I saw Hidan's hand grab the plate and then I heard him stand up and walk over to the sink. My tears fell uncontrollably as I sat with my head lowered.

Why am I feeling like this? Why can't I stop it?

"Tila's rooms ready," a feminine voice then called from the direction of the doorway.

"About fucking time. She needs a good rest Konan." Hidan replied. The girls footsteps went away. I quickly whipped my tears before Hidan came back over to me. I could feel him standing in front of me.

"That was a pretty fucking poor effort at eating, I don't blame you though. If you ask me, you just need a good shower and to sleep it off." I felt myself being picked up again.

"Put me down!" I panicked but as soon as he had me over his shoulder again my strength to fight had disappeared. I felt myself being plonked down on something soft, a big bed with velvet black sheets..

Were these familiar..?

I stared down at them as I ran my fingers through them... No.. I can't remember.. Everything is so confusing..

"I'm going to take a shower" I told Hidan who took a seat beside me.

"Sure you can manage that?" Hidan asked cockily.

"I don't know who you are but I don't like you, so stay out of my business!" I yelled at him.

I ignored his sad reaction and slung my feet off the edge of the bed in a second attempt to stand. As I put weight down on my legs, I could feel a little strength coming back to them..

"See, I'm fine" I said to Hidan who was still siting on the bed watching me.

"Yeah yeah, if you need any fucking help just call for me."

What the hell did he just say?

"Okay," I slowly walked over into the bathroom and shut the door. I let out a long breath as I lent against the closed door. My eyes suddenly stopped at the sight of the window in front of me.

My head clouded with a million questions..

I seriously can't take this anymore. I need to get out of her.

I turned on the shower and then walked over to the window and climbed up onto the windowsill.

"Goodbye, whoever you were," I muttered under my breath.