The Text

"It won't happen again, just believe me"

I read the text for the fifth time. Tears found their way to my cheeks. My brain has failed to produce any thoughts, I mean an answer. How am I supposed to reply to him after what he has put me through?.. My love for him might be gone, but deep down I know that I still love him, but I love Tlotliso now. I am happy with him, he brings peace, and He treats me well.

I wouldn't lie to myself and say I don't love him. Likewise, I have developed feelings for him quickly, but here is Arnold. Everything is confusing.

His sweets words have created another version of him. His words have created a shell against his actions. Arnold is a monster, but when he tries to show me how much he loves me he goes the extra mile. Look what he did now, he sent Craig to adapt me just so he can see me.

His action is shity so is his behavior… But why am I lying to myself, he is everything to me. He is my king, my happiness in human form. Yes he was, I have Tlo now. I feel it would be better not to be put in a position where I have to choose between them.

Without him, I am nothing, my soul, and my happiness will shuttle down in front of me.

But …

Why would he hurt me so much? Why would he bring the worst of me if he is truly my happiness and everything I would want in a man? I questioned myself about Arnold.

Why would Arnold do such if he truly loves me and appreciates the idea of me? My negative thoughts occupied my head.

As much as I try to push the negative thoughts to the back of my heart and listen to my brain, it's hard.

Because we all know the truth. I have Tlotliso the perfect boyfriend,whom we are still building our bond and on another side here is Arnold who will never rest until he gets what he wants. He is my ex, but I am still his to him. I wish I could convince him that I have moved on, but what we had was special.

I placed my phone on the floor next to me. Furthermore, I walked at Chantel who was still looking at me. I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I washed my face with cold water and drank some. When I finished, I walked back to the room and sat next to Chantel.

As much as I love pain and drama in my life, but this was beyond what I can take and control.

"I guess maybe if you could take a shower you will feel better, you look exhausted, "Chantel said as she brushed my back.

I walked to the shower and open the tap so the water can splash on my bare skin. I let the water distress my thoughts and my heart.

After a long cold shower, I walked out and wrapped my body with a purple towel, yes, which is my favorite color. I guess he knows that, but why wouldn't he since I am his everything. That's what he always says when he wants to cheer me up.

I walked to my room and noticed that Chantel was no longer there. I was thankful that she has left because I felt it would be better not to talk to anyone about this as yet. I applied lotion on my body with my body cream and put on my joking clothes.

Exercising helps to take off my problem and the reality I live on. I walked out of my room with my phone in my hand.

As I am walking to the kitchen, I bumped into my brother.

"Watch your way, actually, you have been out for how long? Remember we were supposed to go out with my girlfriend today," he said as he was still processing my body language. I guess I have dealt with a lot recently because I was supposed to meet with Chantel for breakfast in the morning if Craig did not kidnap me.

I held my phone in my right hand and let my left hand rub my right-itched eye.

"I am sorry. I had to be somewhere in the morning, I guess I was tired and forget our plans. But worry not because I will make it up to the both of you"I looked down since I was avoiding eye contact with him.

"I guess your results are stressing you out but don't worry I will let it slide. And how did you go?" his voice was still toughened up, it has now grown with a soft base.

"I went well thanks for asking, but I am running late, we will talk when I come back." I tapped his shoulder as turned my back on him and left him with a questioning facial expression.

Mbuleloo and our relationship have grown even more.

Everyone around us thinks we share the same mother because of the way we behave around each other.

We have our best moments together.

I walked out of the kitchen and found Chantel already in her jogging outfit too. I was surprised, but I guess I took forever to bathe. That is why she left and went to her house, since she doesn't live far.

When we reached the park, We found our other friends sitting on the bench while she was browsing on her phone. I walked smoothly and tapped her shoulder, and she jumped the hell out off the bench. We laughed our lungs out.

We exchanged greetings and started jogging. After 30 minutes she left, and I was left with Chantel my best friend. While we were still having a comfortable and jelly conversation, she stopped and looked at me.

"What is going on with you? Why did you come home crying and your eyes were red? Chantel asked.

"Mmh, what no?" I focused on the narrow road instead of looking at her.

"You forget that I know you more than you know yourself. So talk"

As much as I wanted to lie, I couldn't. I mean, I need solutions to deal with this…

"Well, Arnold is back from wherever he was. He has been sending me endless messages, and he wants me back. Today in the morning when we were supposed to meet, his guy kidnapped me, so he could see me. Imagine he wants me to dump Tlo for him. He wants me to forgive him after what he did." I stopped and tears started flowing.

"You remember back then when Arnold and I were still dating. When I told you that, Arnold and I are fine, and we solved whatever we were going through right. So on that last week on

Thursday he asked me to go out with him since he wasn't busy with whatever shit he does, so since I had already had plans I declined and what surprised me is that we had spoken about that, that we wouldn't go out since I am was still writing my exams. Hence, we agreed on that. Since I declined the offer, we then started fighting, and he thought that I was making an excuse to go out with him. So, he told me that since I can't go out with him, he is going to take his friend out and if he posts her, I shouldn't be jealous because they are just friend nothing more nothing less."tears were already running on my cheeks , and I was now exhausted.

"So Chantel instead of him noticing that I was mad and shit, he left me like that and acted like everything he was saying was good. Later on, Friday, Arnold started posting about his day with some chick. I then told him how I felt about it but all he said was "It won't happen again, just believe me" with some attitude and carried on with his life. How was I supposed to feel, tell me, friend? Not only that but on the day we were supposed to go out he went to smash some random girl since I couldn't sleep with him. I ended the relationship, and he is back in my life and demanding me to break up with Tlo who makes me happy" I couldn't see anything since my tears were all over.

She walked closer to me and hugged me until I felt better. She never said a word, but comforted me.

I wiped my tears off, and we continued with our jogging mission.