SUPER_WEIRDO

>>Before you read further, this is a dark reverse harem R-18 novel.>Imagine dying. Not naturally or anything but because a male like you, and you just wanted to experience life. The first is so traumatic to you that it is vague, while the second.... ahh...that one you didn't have a body left.
In the third life, you somehow became a mother, have four husbands from the beginning, and later realised the world you are in you are labeled as a beast, and the other species; humans, elves, and fairies can summon you or your young at any time. 
what would you do?
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>>Join Du-Gooder Xiala on her journey to experience life, raise her young, and bond with her mates.
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Side note: there should be 7-8 males at the end.
>>Dark fantasy
>>Blood gore and descriptive violence.
>>Sexual content.
PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION!!!

All I want for Christmas...

It was as if I had been in an endless dream. Floating in an endless space where I was teetered to nothing. A dream not even pleasant nor a nightmare... it is just that thought; a dream.

I gritted my teeth feeling rather annoyed; one after another, I had suffered, I had loved, and felt so much sorrow.

Memories are like a torture, being ignorant had been so beautiful but alas I had the unfortunate thing of being enlightened. I wished to myself that I did not remember it at all. That I could simply continue being ignorant. What I had remembered of my past had only been a tip, walking around ignorant as though I knew things, looking down on the beast side but, haha, I had been so naïve. When the memories had appeared I had no idea if I should hate, despair or smile in joy.

Imagine the life on the island had been so beautiful.

Memories are like torture