chapter43 Why?

just another day, a Tuesday to be exact. she was busy, busier than usual. turns out, she has been slacking from work ever since her eventful day off with Lucas and she had to catch up, she also had to finish up work so that she can have a day off on Friday for her date.

she has waited for this for years. it is not a spontaneous arrangement or a coincidental meet up. it is a date. a real date. he personally asked her out. over the phone. no third wheel, no interruptions. just the two of them. that thought alone caused her to have a nose bleed.

she would have put up some work to be finished on the weekends but, if things go well she's planning ask Lucas to be her date to a social event holding on Saturday. it is supposed to be a charity event for Wildlife preservation and stuff but in all honesty, only two or three percent of the people in attendance are truly interested in 'saving wildlife' the remaining percentage are just there to show off their wealth and expensive lifestyle through their donations and Grace is definitely not part of the latter group.

she could only wonder what Friday has in store for her. but as of now, work calls.

she had managed to get half of her work done when Trevor barged into her office.

" hey, I thought you won't be back till next week" Grace greeted with a grin but Trevor remained silent. she quickly noticed that Trevor is visibly tensed, his posture, rigid and terrifying "what's wrong" her worry evident in her voice. Trevor sighed in defeat. it only made her to worry more.

"why?" Trevor asked in a small sad voice

"Trevor? what is going on?

"of all the people out there. why him?"

Grace proceeded to guide him to the leather couch in her office.

"why don't you calm down and tell me what is really going on. hmm?"

"why do you like... love him"

Grace was dumbfounded for two reasons.

one- how could she possibly start to answer such a question. two- why does she like, maybe even love Lucas Lin?

"I don't know. It happened the day I turned fourteen. it used to be just me and my dad. my mom had died two year before then. I was depressed, my dad was depressed. i started getting into trouble. more trouble than before." she chuckled sadly "my dad was drowning himself in work. and all a sudden, he was there sitting beside me while I cried my eyes out. I don't think I like him because of his looks or because of his wealth. maybe, maybe I like him because he was there twelve years ago or maybe the reason is deeper than that but that's all I can tell you"

"I wish I was there all those years ago" Trevor whispered.

"yeah?"

"yeah"

" now tell me why you barged into my office like an angry rabbit" Grace teased

"I was jealous" Trevor huffed

" I told you I don't like you like that"

"I know, I know. I was jealous of Lucas Lin"

"what!? you like Lucas too" Grace asked in bewilderment

"what! no! no! I hate him"

"Uhm hmm" Grace was skeptical

"its just. he is everything I'm not and perhaps wants to be. everybody loves him and admires him. no one points fingers at him. no one calls him a creep or weirdo. no one calls him a sociopath and maybe I am one. my therapist said so. but why?. why does he get do have a loving mother and sister while I don't? an aunt, cousins, a best friend... a family. our ancestors started this whole thing how come he gets to go and come as he pleases while I am stuck in this dark pit"

"wow." that is all she could say.

"yeah wow" Trevor agreed

"I don't know about your mother, sister, aunt, cousin or whatever but you are my friend and I care about you"

"really?" Trevor looked so unsure.

"really. you might be a therapist diagnosed sociopath. buried in a pit of crime and guns but you still managed to salvage the little pieces of humanity that was left for you. if that isn't admirable, I don't know what is" Grace said honestly.

Grace doesn't usually bother with people but Trevor is one of the few different ones. for some unknown reason he has been able to pull the strings of her heart and move her to compassion. something only a handful of people can do.

"Jasmine wants me to.... to kill you" Trevor said that last part in a sad whisper.

"I don't seem alarmed at all"

"do you want to kill me?"

"never! I will never do that to you" Trevor exclaimed

"then everything will be fine, I can handle Jasmine on my own"

"are you sure?" he asked with worry thick in his voice.

"yes. besides, without your support she is pretty defenseless. don't worry, I won't harm you sister. Maybe" she winked. mostly for comic relief and it worked, Trevor chuckled heartily.

"how did I get so unlucky with my family" he muttered to himself but Grace heard it.

"hey, my baby brother is coming home soon and we are having a dinner celebration. I was going to invite you when you come back from travels next week. you should come.."

"what?!" Trevor seem shocked "why would you invite me? I threatened his life few months ago!"

"it's in the past. it's not like you would do it again. right?" Trevor nodded immediately.

"but your family doesn't like me. at all"

"I wonder why." she teased "I don't know what you told my dad but you almost gave him a heart attack"

"in my defense, I was just letting him know that you were mine"

Grace shaked her head and chuckled.

"why?" Trevor looked like he was tried to figure out rocket science.

"I told you already. you are my friend" Grace answered truthfully.

oh of nowhere, Trevor hugged her tightly and he doesn't seem to be letting go anytime soon. so she began to pat his back awkwardly.

"I'm not very fond of hugs" Grace grumbled

"bear with me. please"