chapter52 Stressed smile
five months has gone by and it has been the best months of her life. everything was coming up Grace. especially four months ago when Lucas officially asked her to be his girlfriend. he asked her out on a dinner date, a candle lit dinner date with candles and fairy lights and roses and other sappy romantic stuff. it was something p for a really long while and it has been years since I wanted approach you only having the courage to do so now. what I'm trying to say is, before my new found courage runs out, will you be my girlfriend?" -the fact that he was so nervous made her feel all the more special. she refrained herself from screeching and shrieking joyously and answered: "yes totally."
it isn't a marriage proposal but it was the next best thing as far as Grace was concerned. Lucas is her first real boyfriend. this time around, she didn't snatch him from another person or blackmail him, he is the first genuine person who seems interested in her as 'Grace' and not as the heiress of the Tang fortune or miss CEO. everyone else wanted something or the other way around. either money or a contract or sex.
Anyway, the points is, that after over twelve years of hopeless crushing, she is officially Lucas girlfriend and that fact got her smiling so much, people around her started to get... worried?
" you know I love you and I want you to be happy but seeing you smile so much; it's... it's just so weird" Maya grumbled.
" I get that you're happy and stuff but you're studying to look like a Cheshire cat". baby Lillian loves her smile so, whatever.
" I haven't known you for all that long but I know that grin on your face is it normal" Trevor commented.
even her dad and Mark had something to say about how boisterous smile.
" is it just me or is your grin getting larger and larger. at this rate your lips might reach the back of your head"
" yeah sis, are you planning something? you look like an evil scientist"
evil scientist, Cheshire cat, weird grin?
Grace decided to check out her award winning smile in front of a mirror. the end result was horrid.
she look like an evil Cheshire cat scientist. she saw herself smile three month ago and it wasn't like this. it was happy and calm and graceful but this smile, it might be happy but it also felt stressed.
the question is, why would Grace be stressed when everything is going great?
the answer is simply complicated.
all those books and movies lied to her. the hero of those stories were almost always brazen and bold. a flirt with an outgoing and sexy personality.
she has always known that Lucas is shyer than most and an introvert but she didn't expect this level of pudency.
let's face it, Lucas is a healthy man and healthy man has needs. she didn't expect him to be a nasty pervert but the degree of his reservation from anything sexual, blows her mind. they only ever hold hands and they kissed one time but truth be told, it was sloppy and awkward.
she noticed Lucas trying to work on his shyness of preservations and she is determined to help him out. he did confess to having a 'mild' case of gynophobia. so that is that. the situation stressed her out but it was a happy kind of stress. a worth it kind.
*ding -she received a message form Lucas
Lucas *can we meet?
me. *sure
Lucas *lets meet at my apartment downtown.
- when can you come over?
me. *I have some work to round up. give me
fifty minutes.
Lucas *okay see you soon.
within those fifty minutes, her mind went haywire. a troublesome thought kept popping up in her head.
'what if he wants to break up with me?'
Lucas still lives in his family's house but he has apartments here and there and he frequents this particular one regularly.
Lucas place is a stereotypical man cave. a huge screen TV, large couches, game stations, snacks packed fridge, animal skin rug and whatnot.
Grace has been to this place once before. they made lunch together or more accurately, Lucas made lunch for the both of them. (sigh). good times.
"I know you've been stressed a lot because of me so I thought, why don't I help my lady relax a little" Lucas does have his hardy moments.
Grace smiled and not the stressed kind. "what do you have in mind?"
"movies! choose your pick. romances? adventure, thriller? horror?" Lucas showed off his impressive collection of movies.
'romance movies -bunch of liars, adventure movies -no thank you. horror movies? don't mind if I do'. "let's watch horrors"
" I should be surprised but somehow I'm not" Lucas chuckled "I have popcorn, ice cream, sushi, beer and so one. whatever you want"
"you've thought of everything, haven't you?"
they started out with a decent amount of space between them and ended up cuddling soon after. watching horror movie after horror movie. some of them were really awful and some of them actually scared the living daylight out of her. it was amazing.
just the two of them. no tension, no stress. her stress actually wash away as soon as she saw him. it always did.
she could envision a life, a future together, the two of them, living together. eating breakfast together, going to bed together, waking up together. she have been having these kind of thoughts a lot lately and it would make her heart beat faster and her hands shake with excitement.
"Grace?"
"hmmn?"
"can i kiss you?" his voice sounded shaky and unsure.
"you don't have to" she really wants that kiss but knowing his predicament, she didn't want him to do something he is not ready for. deep down, she hopes she has the patience to be patient.
"I want to" and that settled it. as soon as she nodded, he mashed his lips against her's.
unlike the last time, their lips moved in sync. the sparks dancing in their veins. the kiss started slow and gentle but it escalated into something deeper and aggressive.
one of his hands, at the back of her head tangled in her hair and his other hand, gripping her hip just a little shy from her butt.
he is diving so deep, it almost feels like he wants to devour her and she loves it.
"wow." they finally broke apart, panting.
"yeah" he agreed.
'where he learn all that from?'
"you didn't go around kissing people. did you?" she wanted to say it as a joke but she couldn't help the work that leaked out of her voice.
"I would never do that to you. I urh.. searched 'how to kiss properly' on the Internet"
"really?" Grace teased "that must have been awkward".
Lucas chuckled. "you have no idea"