Anais

Pov: Juliet

-How to explain that flowers were once beautiful, if you only see them when they fade?

-we were once different from what we are today?

I remember when I first came to this city at school everyone bullied me, because of my hair color, not very normal.

I also didn't have parents to take care of me, I knew that as soon as I got to him they pushed him away.

I wanted to apologize, I wanted to tell him that I didn't want him to leave, but it wasn't necessary, he was strong, he defended me together with his brother and little by little I got to know him.

His brother with long black hair and glasses always smiled at everything, with his head held high, pointing where no one even dared to imagine.

I remember he once said.

"if you start at the bottom, you'll never get to the top."

William turned out to be someone serious, but cheerful at the same time, quite intelligent, much more than average, on the other hand Chase just built air castles, with false illusions, big hearted, but was a complete idiot in studies.

Both were my friends at school, at home, my intimate friend was Nidia, to whom I happily told everything that happened.

One day I told the lady about William, after all despite being a boy of only 15 he was hired as an assistant in a medical company, to look for a cure for cancer, that's how Chase and I were left alone.

Chase behaved kindly with me and always promised me various things. I remember he wrote songs of pain and sorrow, but of love and illusion.

"you are my muse"

I did not understand at that age what he was referring to, but unfortunately one day it happened, the lady bought the company where William worked and fired him, he did not give up and aimed for the stars.

"If the same human will impede his health, I have no choice but to look beyond."

The smile on his face never faded, but from that time on I never saw them the same way again.

William and Chase left with the person who took care of them, curiously he also worked for the lady, she came back but they did not.

I was not able to see them again until high school, when Chase came back, not in the same way, he was wounded, weak, doubting himself and with much more weight than before.

The lady forced Nidia to hurt him, but when he didn't want to, she promised to banish him and leave him in the street.

Although it was too late, it only took the first few days of harassment by Nvidia for the rest of the school to see him as an easy target.

They threw flour, eggs, liquids, pushed him off the stairs, scratched his notebooks, hid his backpack, filled his lunch with garbage, sometimes with bugs, I could never help him, because to protect Nidia I made sure that he stayed late in class, sometimes punished for no reason.

I never noticed it, but even in summer I wore a vest, it was something strange but I had to close my feelings and destroy the one I loved, to protect the one I cared about.

I never saw William again, he never named him, he just cried in a corner hidden from everyone, seeing him like that, it broke my heart, I blamed myself and destroyed myself, throwing my feelings away, until that day.

A strange sound attracted me to the bathrooms, where every time I heard the sound of pounding flesh, until I saw him with my own eyes.

He was tied with tape to a bathroom door, while being beaten by the rest of the students, the students smiling and laughing at what they were doing, blood flowing from their lips and noses, tears escaping their eyes.

That image tore me apart, hurt me and I refused to hurt him again, but it was too late.

When she informed the lady that she would no longer be terrorizing, she smiled in satisfaction saying.

"Never mind the job is done."

What job? Was this so important to her?

Still, as I said, it was too late.

The next day the teacher in charge arrived informing me that Chase was in the hospital and would not be returning to our school.

I ran in search of him, I ran to the hospital, but it was too late, he was gone, they left the same day.

I lost you again, but this time it was my fault.

Nidia and I continued to live together, even though I denied my feelings, I don't deserve to feel love, much less happiness, after all I took it away from the one I loved.

I saw him again years later, he performed under the name of "Moon" on the stages of the world.

He was part of a big band and he sang me a song, he sang to Anais his greatest love, a farewell song.

my heart aches, how can I be worthy of you?

Little by little he disappeared again, they changed him in the band and he never showed up on stage again, I really miss him.

I cried full nights, I suffered in silence knowing that you still loved me but we couldn't be together.

Until the passage of time led to the lady fulfilling her promise, Nidia was taken out of the house and I followed her calmly, after all she was the only thing I had left in this world.

until I saw you, I touched your shoulder trying to surprise you, to do it all over again, but your face only reflected panic.

Only then I saw your arms.

How much pain did we do to you?

I'm sorry, but when you told me it was all in the past, the flame inside me was lit, giving me the hope to be together again.

Now I see you lying next to me, and I decide to tell you the truth.

"I am Anais"

my heart aches, tears escape me though I hold them back, I bite my lip hard to keep from making a sound, waiting for your words.

Chase I love you, I always loved you.