I'm Jealous

It was Zoren. My body automatically moved and sat

properly against the edge of my bed. My heart started pounding

fast as I stared at his username for several seconds.

Why is he calling at this hour?

I took a deep breath, trying to compose myself. In one

swipe, I answered his call, gulping.

"Hello?" I greeted in a low voice, hiding my excitement.

"Hi, my Señorita, how are you feeling?" The moment I

heard his concerned voice, my lips immediately curled into a

smile. I grabbed one of the pillows from my bed and held it as I

cleared my throat.

"I-I'm good," I answered shyly. Even without him by my

side, I could feel my cheeks turning bright red from listening to

his voice. "Although..." I paused for a moment, hesitating if I

should say it.

"Although what?" I embraced my pillow tightly in my

arms.

"I can still feel the soreness in between my thighs," I

uttered, almost like a whisper.

I know I'm acting too bold, mentioning this sort of thing

to him but I can't help it! I squeezed my phone in my right hand,

embarrassed with what I just blurted out. I wanted to shout right

now and slap my face but I stopped myself.

As I was busy complaining and regretting my words just

a few seconds ago, I unexpectedly heard him chuckle.

Huh?

My eyebrows furrowed in confusion followed by my

mouth wanting to speak when suddenly, I heard him stop and

talk.

"Take some pain reliever," he said. "If you can't come by

tomorrow, you can request a leave of absence. I already know

the reason behind it so you won't have any problems." Upon

hearing his suggestion, my lips sunk into a frown. For some

reason, my mind immediately thought of doubting his words;

thinking that maybe he just wanted me to leave so he can meet

those three women and possibly have sex with them.

"Does that mean, you'll be free to mingle with those

ladies?" I gulped, restraining myself to ask those words. I stayed

silent on the other side of the line, contemplating.

I don't think I'm in any position to question him nor his

actions. I'm not even sure if we're an official couple or just

plainly fling who shared the same warmth in one blissful day.

I felt something sharp indulge my heart. What am I

thinking?

"Hello? Are you still there?" Zoren's voice dragged me

out of my deep thoughts. I turned to gaze at my phone again and

loosely hugged the pillow in between my arms.

"Yes, thank you for your concern. I'll be sure to message

you if ever I can't come tomorrow for work," I replied, dryly.

"Alright, go to sleep and don't forget to have your

medicine," he said to which I nodded. I bid him goodbye and

slowly, I reached my finger towards the end button.

To be honest, I wanted to continue talking to him but I

know he's busy and tired. A bitter smile crept into my face.

Remembering what happened between us earlier made

me have this thumping joy in my heart. The way he held me, the

way he kissed and thrust himself inside of me until I reached my

climax. I sighed to myself.

I put my phone down on the side table of my room and

headed straight to bed. I laid myself gently onto the foam and

pulled up my quilt to cover my body.

I stared blankly at the ceiling of my room. If my parents

were still alive, I know I wouldn't have to struggle so much just

to survive. They will be there to guide and support me with

whatever decisions I make but also... I wouldn't have been able

to meet Zoren.

I've never once opened up to my mom regarding crushes

but she never failed to tell me that I should just follow my heart.

In time, my consciousness was dragged away by

oblivion and everything became another passing day.

It was already past eight in the evening when I spotted a

black Maybach stop in front of our shop. I was standing on the

other side of the counter, stationed to give away the take-out

orders of the customers when unexpectedly; two women

emerged out of nowhere.

The two of them looked quite expensive wearing such

dashing clothes and shining jewels flinging around their bodies.

My eyes followed them, wondering what they wanted until they

started walking towards the east direction, not far away from me.

It looked like they spotted someone they wanted to meet

and immediately made their way towards him; Zoren.

I stole a few glances, switching my gaze from my

customers and how they were interacting until my eyes widened

in shock.

One of the women, assumingly older than me for a few

years, hugged and worst, kissed him on the lips. I could see how

disdained Zoren's face turned, wanting to struggle away from the

woman's embrace and stared right through her eyes.

"Veron, can you please behave yourself and what are the

two of you doing here?" I can sense the irritation in his voice.

"Isn't it obvious?" the woman asked, crossing her arms.

"We're here to pick you up. It's been more than two months now

since you came home."

"You need to come home because your wedding will be

held next month. There are a lot of things to be prepared and we

need you," the other woman added. It looked like she was

already in her forty's judging by her stature and face.

Upon hearing their conversation, my mind automatically

went blank. My heart started skipping a beat with countless

thoughts rushing towards my head.

I quickly finished my task in front of the counter and

headed straight to the locker room without finishing their

exchange of communication.

I held my forehead using my hand and wiped off the

buds of sweat forming. So, Zoren is getting married? Does that

mean he was only playing with me this whole time?

I felt a stung on my chest.

I gave him my femininity because I trusted him. I fell in

love with him and yet, this is how it's going to end?

I just found tears streaming down my cheeks. How could

he do this to me?

I wiped off the tears in my eyes and left the shop without

saying a word. I started walking without prior direction.

I don't know what to think at all.

The sound of loud honking and curses was the only thing

that engulfed my ears. I didn't even bother to flinch nor look at

the road properly. The only thing I knew of, was that I was

pained.

Was he playing with me all along