Missed Calls

I drove to home, took a long shower and threw myself to bed. I am still processing of what happened. I rewinded the whole thing inside my head, It was like I couldn't breath at that moment, I am not even sure I can breath properly now. However I managed to sleep but that scene was haunting me....

I woke up and made some pancakes, checked in with aunt and I sat on my couch to see

"The Vampire Diaries", I took my phone and switched on it. It was shaking with vibrations..

32 missed calls from James at 6 at the morning...

My heart started beating again and all nervous, I'm about to throw up, I didn't responded to any of it. I wanted to tell this to chloe and gia but I couldn't. I don't know I just wanted it to keep it myself, think it and also I dont want them to make it a big deal, even though it is...

Dear Diary,

Its 6 pm, I slept at 2 in the noon and I just woke up now, Iam feeling like the whole world is spinning, I cant concentrate in anything, I feel like being sober after drinking. I decide to read but no use, nothing, all I can think about is James....

Then I went to the "Cafe du Monde", I tied my hair into a pony tail and wore a white t-shirt with red striped and black jeans, I was bored at home and I went to the shop and bought some sweets such as Cupcakes, Muffins, Icecream and also a coffee, I was walking with coffee on my hand and shopping bags on other hand, I stopped at the theme park and saw him looking at me....