Sindrinanna

A 24 years old woman prays whoever-is-listening-to-her for an exciting life.

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Huayan Ye is a loner, she has no friends nor family anymore. She spends all her days at home a crave for.... Something else. She wants to wake up happy in the morning and look up to something in her life for once.
She complains with humor but is actually depressed inside.


Will she find happiness in her next life?

A desperate wish

I have no illness. I never had one. I am not in pain. No one mistreats me and I have what I need to live.


I've graduated from college one year ago and I work from home as a designer in a small company. My daily routine consist of sleep work eat and sleep again.


I have no friends to hang out with and no real family. I cut ties with them. They were only a symbol of pressure and stress in my life and I figured that distancing myself from them was the best idea. I don't like talking to people so socializing is not an option.....


To ease my heart I read novels, romance novels and I am very jealous of each protagonist.  They transmigrate in other worlds and go on adventures.


I, too, wish Truck-Kun would send me to another world! I am only waiting for this to happen but... I never go out.


I command all my groceries and there is a trash bin in the hall of my appartement floor. I work from home and send my work by e-mails. 


The more I stay alone and the more I don't want to go out. This dilemma is killing me.


I wanted to adopt a cat to quench my loneliness but I couldn't bear the thought of leaving it one day...


So here I am in my bed, at night, looking at the moon through the window next to me and wondering.


I finished the novel of a girl transmigrating in a novel she hated but ended up staying in the end, because she  found love .


And I'm left alone. I don't want to search for another novel to read, I don't want to sleep too. What should I do?


I'm in my own prison. My fear and laziness are its locked doors and windows.


But I have no mate in my cell and no guardians. The keys are in my hands but I am more interested in this little screen, my phone is my escape route, it leads me to happiness but also despair, as I get to enjoy an experience I'll never live.


I sigh and shift my attention to the clock. 


I want Truck-Kun to come up and send me somewhere else, far from myself an my torments!!


This night, I had a dream. I was flying in an open field of yellow flowers. The time seemed to stop and the wind cooled down the warmth of the sunlight.


I was light and free like I never was before. All the worries in the world couldn't make me fall from the sky.


My fingers fluttered in the air and I felt like a child.


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