How can I get all of my memories back

Phoenix with shaken body filled with sobs when Xuan Ti heard it in the middle of the party, he rushed over to her. Holding her shoulders. He called her out "Qing-qing, what's wrong with you?" he asked, he saw that Phoenix's eyes were tightly shut.

Filled with anxiety he called out to her again "Qing-qing! Wake up" he shook Phoenix's body in an attempt to make her aware of whatever she was going through right now.

The party that was filled with cheerful voices earlier, the bickering between Bai Lung and Zhu Lung was still going on, suddenly die down after hearing Xuan Ti's screams. Who is now squatting in front of her. Anxiety was clearly visible on his face.

On the other hand, Hai Zian gasped when he heard Phoenix's cry. his body was less quick to react than Xuan Ti who was rapidly approaching her. Now he just stood, still transfixed one step away from Phoenix. he fisted his palms on either side of his body. Holding the anger inside of him. Angry at himself, why was he slow to react.

Yuen Fei stood up, rushed over to where the phoenix was sitting "What's wrong with her?" she asked Xuan Ti, panicking. "She's still fine just now"

"I don't know" Xuan Ti said briefly, still worried about Phoenix who still didn't answer his call. She seemed to be asleep but at the same time she wasn't sleeping. She seemed to be in a transition between the real world and the unreal world. And this is not good. He concluded himself inwardly

On the other hand, Phoenix was still under the influence of the flash that appeared before her eyes. the two bodies of the chief of slayer and the girl, suddenly turned into silver-coloured ashes. Then flew into the sky until it disappeared behind the clouds that were already bright. The rain has stopped. A rainbow appears behind the valley. Beneath the rainbow appeared the girl's soul. she stood there alone with a face no longer filled with sorrow. A small smile appeared on her face. Then the soul absorbs into the rainbow and disappears there.

Phoenix pensively saw this. what is the meaning of all this? she asked herself. In the midst of her thought. She saw and was somewhere else. She didn't know where she was. The place looked like a small village in the middle of a cold mountain valley. Filled with thick snow on the top surface of the mountain. Makes the surrounding air cool.

She saw the figures of little girls and boys, playing together. Their faces looked happy. No fear, anxiety, or anything else. Only one is happy. The flash kept moving, were the two small children, now grown up and still filling each other up. It's just that the girl considers the man who has been with her as her brother and nothing more. On the other hand, the boy has a crush on the girl, it's just that he has not the courage to express his feelings to the girl.

The days passed, until the girl met another boy, both of them when they first met already had crush, which in the end they fell in love with each other and chose to continue their family life.

This makes the boy who has spent time with the girl since childhood, does not accept the reality. He tried various ways to separate the two but always failed. Until the wedding day arrived. But on the wedding day the boy who was supposed to be married to the girl just disappeared. No one knows where he went. Because all the wedding preparations have been prepared and the invited guests are already present. To avoid embarrassment. In the end, it was decided that the girl would marry the man who she considered as her own brother but with a heavy feeling she had to accept the fact that she had to marry him and become his wife.

For a man, the days are full of joy, happy with the woman he loves is finally living with him.

The opposite was not happened with the girl. in front of the man, she smiled as if there was nothing happen and she showed that she loved the man, she did this only because of her devotion and love for her parents and did not wish the shame they will face that would be received from other people if her marriage fails.

This lasted until the end of her life. And the girl died leaving sad because in the end she unexpectedly met and knew the man she loved, leaving her because of her husband's actions. that would threaten to kill his parents and other siblings if he continued to marry the girl. the girl left with a bitter taste when death came to pick her up.

The flash jumps into another life between the girl and the same two boys only in different forms, Phoenix draws a conclusion. It was as if they were bound by an invisible rope. For them to keep repeating the same bittersweet life. Like a circle that continues to roll without stopping. And don't know when to stop. Because a circle has no beginning and no end, unless the circle separates from the bond that holds the two ends together before becoming a circle.

Their lives continue to roll from one life to another. Like there's no end. The man who loves the girl always dies in one-sided happiness, the girl leaves with sadness and regret. And the man that the girl loves for the sake of the girl's happiness he chooses to give up and live in the shadows. But in the last his life when he saw the girl die sadly, the boy realized that his actions were wrong, and he was determined in the next life he would fight to be happy and live with the girl no matter what.

Phoenix woke up with furrowed brows on her forehead. She winced as she tried to move her head. Her head felt heavy, like a rock had hit her head and settled on her head.

Spontaneously she raised her hands and held and rubbed her head slowly. Hope the weight goes away.

Xuan Ti who was sleeping sitting with his head propped up on the bed beside Phoenix felt some movement. He raised his head and saw Phoenix massaging her head. A wide smile graced his face, delighted.

"Qing-qing, are you awake?" he asked in an excited voice. He straightened his body, seeing the phoenix continue to massage her head he pouted. "What's wrong Qing, your head hurts?" this time the voice changed drastically to one of worry.

Phoenix slowly opened her eyes, turning to the source of the familiar voice. She didn't answer Xuan Ti's question right away, only gave a small smile and it was clear that she was holding back the pain. Her eyes opened and closed, dim and looked tired.

Xuan Ti turned his body on the bedside table. Pour water into a glass. Then brought it before the Phoenix. "Drink first" after saying so, Xuan Ti got up from his seat and sat on the bed next to Phoenix, helping her up and propping her body on his chest.

Phoenix drank half the water in the glass assisted by Xuan Ti. Seeing that she didn't want to drink anymore, Xuan Ti placed the glass on the bedside table. Then his attention returned to Phoenix who was now no longer massaging her head. She just rested her head on his left shoulder, with her eyes closed, silent.

A moment later Phoenix's voice was heard "What happened? Why did I end up in bed, as I recall, last night I sat by the bonfire and ate the dinner you guys prepared?" With the last words spoken, she took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly.

"You suddenly lost consciousness, so I brought you here to rest" Xuan Ti conveyed patiently, he didn't say that she suddenly cried hysterically and then fell unconscious.

"Sorry, the party got messed up because of me" she said softly, her voice sounded sorry, and her tone seemed to have sadness in her. Because indeed all the flashes of life she saw last night filled her head again. She took a deep breath and exhaled.

"Xuan Ti, it seems that my memories haven't come back yet, how can I get all of my memories back?" Phoenix's words made Xuan Ti's body stiffen. He didn't think she would ask this question.