LETTING GO

"Stop it, man," Sean took Leo's bottle of beer and placed it on the table. "Drinking here will not fix anything, and don't kill yourself as a result," He said. After dropping the bottle, he sat back in his chair and fixed his gaze on Leo with. Leo simply ignored Sean and snatched the bottle of beer from the table, continuing to drink. "I'm not going to kill myself," he said, his voice mournful. He laughed softly and said, "Of course, I knew you'd say that." "So, tell me, What's the matter this time, because there's always something wrong or wrong with you when you come to my bar. So, tell me about it. What's the deal this time, man?' He sneered at Leo as he sipped from his bottle of beer. It's...' He drank from the bottle once more before lowering his head and staring at the ground, avoiding Sean's gaze. "It's exactly what.' Sean had inquired. He'd known Leo since they were in high school, and the two had been friends for quite some time. They are still friends, even though they make fun of each other and have fun with each other without any love feelings. Sean was from a destitute family, with only his mother and a younger sister as his only relatives. He was a man of twenty-eight years old. He overcame adversity and hardships to get to where he is now, and he is a wealthy guy. Despite the fact that Leo is wealthier than him, he seems unconcerned and continues on with his life. 'Man, I'm talking about my fiancee.' He then raised his head and looked Sean in the eyes. "What about her,' he inquired. "I feel like an awful person because I'm hurting her so much, and...' "Of course, you're a bad person, Leo," he exclaimed. Sean is known for being a blabbermouth, to the point where he has to contain himself so that his words don't get him in trouble, yet he's always himself with Leo, which is one of the things Leo admires about him. Being outspoken also makes him trustworthy. "Is it for dating her, right?' he inquired. "It was obvious to me. You did it to forget about Storm because you weren't in love with her, right?' He gave Leo a questioning glance that said, "AM I RIGHT?" Leo exhaled a sigh. Sean was the only person in the entire world who knew about his feelings for Storm, or so he thought. "My father wants me to marry her, and I'm not ready...so...I just want her to be happy and look for someone else who isn't like me or perhaps better...because...I can't be the man she wants me to be Sean." He shook his head. "I can't, and I'm afraid I'll end up hurting her, and..." "Sometimes it amazes me how you kept your secret about your sexuality and affairs from her and she hasn't discovered it?" He said this while resting his cheek on his hand. "Well?' Leo sighed and shrugged his shoulders. "Did you break up with her?" "'I don't even know where to begin,' he said as he finished his bottle of beer and placed it on the table. "You must end your relationship with her; however, you are not required to inform her of your sexual orientation. Just do the necessary and tell her you're not ready,' Sean said casually as he opened another bottle. "It's easy for you to say,' Leo hiccuped. Sean teased, 'Are you getting drunk?' "No, I'm not,' he said, scratching his head. "Stop having these feelings for Storm. He'll never love you, so give up and look for someone else. You know, when I say something, just listen and do as I say. He is never going to reciprocate your feelings?' "I attempted Sean. I tried everything I could to forget about Storm.' He clutched his hair and continued to speak. "Sean, you know what I mean. 'Sometimes you speak in a way that irritates me.' In a solemn tone, he stated. "How do I irritate you by telling you the truth?" Sean sighed and shrugged his shoulders. "No? It's because you're saying the truth and don't understand it. I've tried everything I can to forget about my feelings for him, but I can't get them out of my head, Sean.' In his rage, he kicked the table, and two of the bottles, among others, fell down and broke. "Then you should stop sleeping with him." Sean said this despite the fact that Leo had broken his bottles and he knew he would replace them. "What!!! Leo took another look at him and locked his gaze on him. "Yes, that is one of the steps you must take if you want to abandon your feelings for him. You're in love with him, and he's unaware of your feelings, as you've stated. He despises love and ignores anything with the word "Love." And part of the reason you came to my bar today is that you need to clear your head after learning that he's getting married. Is that why you appear so white, as if you've given up on everything in life?' Sean explained, then took out a cigarette and lit it, emitting smoke. "Do I really look like that?' Leo inquired. Sean gave a nod. "Obviously?' "'How did you find out he was getting married?' Leo inquired. Sean's knowledge of the news, despite it being a family secret, surprised him. "It's all over the news," he said. "Are you kidding me?" "It seems to me.You haven't seen the news yet,' Sean explained as he smoked another cigarette. "No, I haven't." Sean held Leo's gaze. "Sean, I'm in desperate need of your help. Please help me forget about him just for tonight. Please?' Tears streamed down Leo's cheeks, and he wiped them away despite the fact that they continued to flow. "Leo, you are a man. I understand, but you should stop seeing Storm; I'm also his friend, and this is an advice from me.' He stood up, walked over to where Storm was sitting, sat beside him, grabbed his hair, turned to face him, and kissed him deeply. Sean knew why Leo had come to him tonight. They've known each other since high school. Sean discovered he was gay and kept it a secret from everyone, continuing to hang out with Sean and Storm at the time. He didn't want to tell his friends about his sexual orientation. He was terrified that they would judge and despise him. He tried asking girls out and sleeping with them, but it didn't work for him, no matter how hard he tried to look at all the different aspects of ladies. With the large breast and all. It has no effect on him; some boys are turned on by seeing those things, heaven was their bedroom to do those sort of things, but Sean was unaffected in the least. Until one day, alone in his room, he became aroused and searched for some sexy videos to watch. While searching, he came across a gay porn and hesitated before clicking on it. And what he saw awakened him. He is aroused that he didn't even realize what he was doing when he started stroking his crotch getting faster and faster. "This feels so good," he murmured as he continued to go faster and faster, moaned loudly, and shoot out his sweet release while trying to catch his breath. "What have I done?" he pondered. And then he dropped his phone on the bed and covered his face with the same hand. Sean was so ashamed of himself that he vowed to himself that no one would ever find out about his secret and that he would never do it again. How could he be moved by a gay porn? No way was this happening to him; he's not gay and never will be.