Aiden

"Nuel are you going for the party at Michelle's house?", Perry my best friend since childhood asked.

"I don't think I will attend the party tonight", mom is going on her first date with a man she met during her business meeting, and am left to babysit my little sister.

"You're no fun", he whined like a little kid, " you've got to come, Aiden will be there", he says to get me to come for the party.

At the mention of Aiden's name, my heart skipped a beat or better still, it skipped many beats.

Aiden's my crush, a male I admire from afar. He's the star quarterback of my school.

"Mom is going on another date tonight, and I can't leave Clara alone at home", my little sister is too dependent to be left alone at home.

He nods, "don't worry man, you will get another chance to go with me", he says in reassurance, but my mind, body, soul and spirit isn't listening to him.

There's rather attuned to whatever the handsome blonde male in front of me is currently doing.

Aiden is sitting at the popular student's table with his friends surrounding him.

"Hmmm" I breathe out in admiration of the fine specie in front of me, "what I wouldn't give to be at their table this time around", I sighed.

Perry chuckled, " you've got it bad man. I mean look at him, he's not even aware someone like you exists", Perry discreetly pointed at him.

" It's not my fault Perry, my heart is just drowning in his ocean of love, and my heart keeps beating to the tune of his choice", am far gone on my admiration of the male, but I can't seem to stop my heart from beating everytime he's in close proximity, neither can I get the butterflies in my stomach to stop taking flight at the smiles he gives his friends.

"You have to stop your foolish fantasy of true love, it doesn't exist at least not in this realistic world", he( Perry) tsked.

" I don't care for the fantasy of things neither does it's realism mean anything, all I know is am in love", too in love I will be able to do anything he asked of me if only he will spare me a smile or two.

Perry smiled, "I hope love favours you Nuel, you deserve someone who cherishes you for who you're".

I scoffs at his words, " no one can cherish a nerd like me for who I am. Am not loveable, and can never be noticed".

Am too ordinary looking to be considered lovable, with my black stubborn hair that doesn't stay down even with the heavy amount of gel I add on it everyday.

I always take great pain in keeping my hair flat and straight ever since I noticed Aiden likes males with flat hair.

"Stop looking down on yourself Nuel, you're more handsome than you let yourself believe. You've got to have more faith in yourself, stop belittling yourself every damn time all because of him", he said as the bell rang signaling the end of our cafeteria break.

" I will see you after school at our normal spot?", Perry asked, disposing our half full tray in the dumpster.

" You bet that", I smiled at him.

Walking to the class I have after cafeteria break makes me as nervous as any nervous male can be.

I can't help the jitters I feel in my stomach at the prospect of seeing my crush in class.

He and I share the same table in history class, and Irrespective of the nerves I get when am around him, I can't miss the class for anything in the entire world, not even am earthquake can keep him me away from the class.

I sat down as delicately as I can manage so as to not disturb his writting.

"Hey", he smiles like he always does whenever I sit beside him.

"H...Hi", I nervously blushes, keeping my head down to avoid him seeing the pinkness of my cheeks.

Like always, he turned to the back to chat with one of his football friends.

While I like always , tries to keep my beating heart in check. Most times am afraid my heart will run out of my chest based in how fast and loud it always beats whenever he's around.

"Hi students, welcome to the most interesting class of the day", Miss Heri smiles as she writes History in bold letters on the board.

She always starts must of her classes like this, and that might be the reason she've won the most loved teacher's awards three times now.

"We will be talking of the second world war and it's impact on our lives", and like that our class starts.

" Do you have a spare pencil?", I heard him ask as he leans over towards me.

His close proximity towards me made my already skipping heart skip numerous beats.

" Uh, um.... sure", I blush while handing him my favorite pen( the best for my favorite), the pen I call Lucky.

" Thanks", he smiles, taking the pen from me, he turns to face the board.

All the while his face was neutral, while my face and heart were in a competition of redness and fast beating.

I can't believe he actually talked to me for three long seconds ( I know cos I counted it). Oh my gosh, am swimming in the ocean of happiness right this instant.

"Mr Nuel?" I heard the teacher call,

"ye.. yes miss?",

"can you tell me the last words I said?", she asks with her hands on her hips.

My red cheeks became more blazing hot at her question, "no idea ma", I nervously smiled.

"Next time pay attention in class, and stop daydreaming", she said as she resumes teaching.

Her words and the Snickers from the other students made me wish the ground can actually open if you will.it long enough to do so.

Chancing a look at Aiden, I found out he's too engrossed in whatever he's writting on his book to pay attention to what's happening around him.

Seeing his lack of focus in the class, I breathe out a sigh of relief, one I don't know am holding.

"Here's your pen", Aiden smiles as he handed the pen over to me, "thanks once again for it", he says before walking away, leaving me foolishly clutching the pen to my heart.

I won't ever write with this pen, I will keep it in a safe place where it will be preserved.

The pain have touched the hand of a male I love more than life itself; a pain he clutched in his delicate fingers.

Gingerly to avoid tainting the pen with the other pens I keep in my bag, I placed the pen in a safe place where it will be till I reach home.

"Why do you have that goofy look on your face?", Perry the moment he saw me.

"What goofy look?", I faked ignorance. I know quite well what he's talking about, but I won't be caught dead admitting the fact to him..