Actions vs words

She looked at his cold figure and said, "What could I have done at that time? I loved you so much. I was willing to lie all my life just to have you. I was so deeply in love with you. I was a fool and a coward who thought if I push you away and show you that I'm immune to your charm, you will eventually walk away. When I finally got the courage to confess, fate decided that you can't be mine. I think it was for the better. My love was turning into an obsession and possession. I was ready to destroy everyone who would think of having you. I sabotaged the Engelson family because they had their eyes on you. Do you hate me for all the things I have done?"