CHAPTER 04

A year ago.

FLASHBACK

“You’re not going for that print and design in Laguna! Use that skills in being an Intern as a Content Marketing. You need to focus on the company not on that weird hobby of yours Mariangela. I’m warning you, don’t even provoke me even more!”Dad shouted at me.

I don’t care about him. Because it was always been like that isn’t it? I can never become someone that he can be proud of. Because in his eyes I was just something that he can use in the company. He can never understand why arts is very important to me. Yes, it’s my fault again! When Yuuto cheated on me no one was there at my side, and it has always been like that. So what can I even expect from my father? There was none, right!? He can never understand me. And he will never be. That’s why I decided to run away from home and started living in the apartment in Cubao because I’m suffocated by his pressures on me in this house that’s why ever since I started college I started living alone.

So if he only knew how to humiliate me then he shouldn’t have been here in the first place. I quickly stood up and I sighed, “Then do what you want dad. Even if I whine about it there’s nothing that I can do anyways. Now, if you don’t have anything to say then leave my apartment. I don’t want you here! No matter what I do I can never be part of this family and because of that, you were just nothing but a dead man to me. After all, I’m just a failure wasn’t I? You made a fool of my dreams. You know that I love arts and you still have the nerve to talk to me in that way!?” I shouted at him and I bit my lip. Calm down Satsuki, this is not the time for you to have this nonsense fight.

And I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t stop him. My father decided to recommend me to Wei & Hua Group. It was hard for me, I always keep on failing and the Chief Executive was always been mad at me because my product designs weren’t that good enough. I’m not happy..no. But I have to lower my pride because I need to do this. I know that I wasn’t happy anymore so why do I keep doing this? No. I can never enjoy this thing anymore.

I stared at my hands and I can feel that my hands were trembling due to pressures that I got in my work and I hugged myself and I looked down and then I gripped my hair and I cried, “I’m so tired...very tired..”

There are no people here so I don’t care about what I’m saying right now. I keep on crying and let out all my frustrations, “Dad, I only asked you to understand me. I wanted to draw..but dealing with those designs was the hardest part for me. Is this a curse? Do I have to deal with this? Why does my siblings get what they wanted but when it comes to me, the odd hobby that I had you were like this to me? What do you need from me? I was a good kid isn’t that enough already? I was left by the guy that I like then now this too, dad? What do you need from me!” I slammed the table and I cried hard

“Ehem,” I was surprised when I saw the guy on my side. WHAT THE HELL! My face looked so wet because I was crying a lot, oh gosh this is so embarrassing! Geez Satsuki, you’re humiliating yourself again!

He’s the intern from accounting, right? All that I know is that he’s a big shot. I was so pressured on my work then I have classes in visual arts and animation too. He sat beside me and he pats my head and he sighed, ”Looks like you’re having troubles in your work? Are you okay?” He asked worriedly

“I know that I won’t be that much help but I’m going to say it. Do you know the reason why you were accepted into this company? Do you know why you were accepted here despite that you were the daughter of the Fukumoto Group? Do you know what’s the reason? Because I was the one who tell dad to accept you in the marketing department..” Chang Heng said and I was surprised at what he said and my eyes widened a bit because of what he said. What is he saying?

“I didn’t see the CEO’s daughter in you. What I can see is a wise woman who never gives up no matter what she does and you’re hardworking. You’re someone who refuses to give up. I hope this cheers you up, okay? Don’t give up.”He said and he pats my shoulders

He didn’t need to do those things to me but I wonder why he did it? He’s a heartbreaker, I know that he’s not serious with a lot of women. Wait, is this his way to target me? Haha, no way! For sure if he knew that I was a fujioshi he would probably think that I’m a creep. I can just feel that he would just break my heart like how Yuuto did. Damn asshole. For sure he was happy with his woman right now. My enemy, Aurora Matilda Asaki. Just thinking about them makes me so mad! Ugh. It’s 1:19 am, you should pack your things Satsuki. I still have character designs that I need to submit. And you need to work on your portfolios in your thesis.

Am I still a human? I can hardly tell that I have rest because of my requirements. If only dad can see this, will this even satisfy him? There you go, I’m in a mess. I accepted his anger and yet this isn’t even enough for him? I stared at the guy and I nodded at him and I smiled at him and then I wiped off my tears, “Then I will try harder then. Thank you. I should get home and draw some new ideas then!” I shouted

“Yes, Ms. Content Marketing if it’s you then I believe that you can do it.” Chang Heng said and he pats my head, “You should go home. It’s midnight. Just do your best tomorrow okay? Make me proud.”

"Ah o—okay? Thank you!" I shouted

I guess he’s not that bad after all. Well, I heard that he’s a heartbreaker so what I should think about him then? Ugh, I don’t know if you ask me. I decided to focus writing on my BL ever since I broke up with Yuuto. It’s just too hard you know whenever that Harumi and I have to visit Oxhelm, I have to see that bastard’s face! I can’t even complain because Oliver and he was an architecture student. And they were classmates at Oxhelm University of Manila. Geez, I shouldn’t even think about these things. So I decided to grab my laptop along with my pentab and with my other designs. I hope that I can catch a bus! I don’t know if I can catch a taxi or bus to go home!

Chang Heng went out after me and then he took my hand and I was surprised on what he did. Wait, what is he going to do? I was about to say something but then he cut me off, “You won’t see any bus or taxi at this hour. Where do you live? I’ll lead you there--”

“No!” I shouted and looks like he was surprised by it. Duh, as if I can show him those BL posters in my house and it was too messy! And I haven’t cleaned my room and there’s a lot of sketches of Rin in my house. That Rin, the character that I inspired to him!

If he finds out about it for sure I’m dead. As if it was that easy for me to show him! Of all people, the man that I inspired my BL? It’s not that easy. My BL Writer career will be ended if he finds out about it. I know that he was nice but I have to refuse him! I have to save that secret no matter what. I need your looks, Chang Heng, that’s the only thing that I’m after. Once that was done I promise that I won’t bother you ever again. I just need to pass those drawings and my storyboard to my publisher and once I passed it to him I will stop this.

Looks like he was so confused about what I acted but I become even paler here in the usual. I won’t let that happen! I won’t let anyone see that. Just no! I grabbed my bag and I waved my hand and I smiled at him and I sighed at him deeply, “Go on! Go home! I’ll be fine here and thanks for cheering me up I’ll be fine on my own here. Bye!” I shouted and I laughed. Geez, Satsuki you looked like an idiot! Are you that desperate that your BL might be exposed? I don’t know! I just need to do something to protect that. I can’t let him see that.

My life was peaceful at that time...

not until I have met my doom.

~ END OF FLASHBACK~

How I wished that my life was so peaceful at that time, but now? I don’t know! I’ve been carrying these heavy papers that he should be doing anyway! I can’t help but sigh in here. Why is this even happening? I thought that he was just going to give me some folders to carry yet it’s not only the only folder but his reports as well and it was so damn heavy you know! Does he have some conscience, I’m a girl you know! He was just tossing his coin and flipping it in his fingers and he was humming. He smirked at me and he decided to walk faster than me, “Hey crazy girl you’re so slow.” Chang Heng said and I glared at him. He must be having fun teasing me, huh?

Is he doing this on purpose? He’s not even funny. This is not happening! I couldn’t help but roll my eyes and he was just smirking at me. Robert got closer to us and he took half of the papers and he pats my shoulders, “Looks like that girl-boy made fun of you again. He lacks attention haha, sorry about him.”

“Looks like it! Why does he even treat me like his slave!?” I said irritatedly and I rolled my eyes. I didn’t know that man can pull such tricks. He was so irritating!

Fine, I know that he’s good looking but who does he think that he is? To treat me a slave like this, he’s the worst! Oliver walked at us and he was holding his plates and he smirked at me, “Sucks to be like you huh, fujioshi? Of course, I won’t help you. I would like to tease you even more.” He said to me and I rolled my eyes at him. That guy too! He has the guts to tease me but when it comes to the girl that he likes he can’t even get close to her. He has a lot of time huh?

“I hope Akari would break your heart,” I said to him

Harumi laughed loudly and she shook her head, “That’s kinda mean Satchan you know? But you’re right I hope Akari would really--”

“Oh really? As if you don’t have some guy that you can crazy with photojournalist?That hottie in Seaton branch in Manila? Really? I’m not the one who’s crazy in love here too.” Oliver said and Harumi just hissed at him.

Hey, what is this! Harumi got a crush? Wait, I didn’t know about that! I was about to say something but Chang Heng got closer to me and he hit my head, “You have guts to have chitchat in front of me. Take those reports. I won’t accept any laziness crazy girl. I hope that you haven’t forgotten what you did to me. Now get going.” He ordered me and I fake smiled at him and I rolled my eyes. He was so irritating! He was always doing these things! This won’t last long, as long as I finished my book you’re so dead Intern Accountant Chang Heng Wei, you’re not getting away from this!