Where is Yuana?  

Ira took Manfred to Yuana's room. Manfred went inside and Ira stood guard at the door. Manfred looked at the room and saw what he could think of as a clue, to explain why Yuana had chosen to leave.

Manfred saw Yuana's cellphone on the table. Manfred took it and put it in his jacket pocket. Then he looked at the books on the shelf. diary.

"Diary?" Manfred quickly turned to the last pages. "Yuan, sorry, I had to read it."

*

I want to get away from all this. I am very tired. I'm alone now. Mom and dad almost separate. Manfred, he's busy in his new world. I feel like he doesn't really care about me anymore. It's a shame what he said was covered by the fame and big name that he achieved at this time.

I am left alone. With my tears, my anger, and with all my pain. What are you holding out for? How long will I be strong?

If I'm not wanted, what's the point of being here? Lamenting fate? Then die slowly? Isn't his name stupid?

I'm sick of all this!

*

Yuana's last sheet noted those words. It hurt to read what Yuana wrote. Manfred felt guilty for not understanding Yuana. What Yuana wrote was the scream of her heart. Even though she knew Mafred loved her, Yuana still felt alone and unloved.

"Yuan ... I'm sorry …." Manfred thought. He took the book and left the room.

"Find something?" Ira asked.

"No. I just took Yuana's cellphone and this book. Thank you," said Manfred quietly. Sadness struck the blue-eyed boy's heart.

Like when they went up to Yuana's room, they slowly came down again to the first floor, then they went out of the house.

"You are very loyal to Mr. Hardani." Manfred looked at the big house he was very familiar with.

"I don't feel safe to stay longer at this house. I've survived because I love Miss Yuana. Now she's gone. I want to quit. After this payday, I am going to my home town," said Ira. There was a hint of sadness in her voice.

"Oo ... I see." Manfred nodded.

"After all, the young lady is fussy, rude, bitchy, just ... you know," complained Ira.

"You are just like her competitor." Manfred smiled, trying to make a joke even though it didn't feel right.

"What? Ah, how can you …." Ira smiled.

"Alright, I am going. Thanks a lot. See you later." Manfred went to his motorbike.

Manfred left Yuana's house. His beloved girl was lost somewhere.

"Yuan, where are you? Why didn't you call me? Why didn't you want to talk to me? Yuan ...." Manfred was very restless.

"Maybe she's still on campus. I'll just try to find her there," thought Manfred and he immediately headed to campus. He looked for Yuana and asked her friends, he met.

"She hasn't been in college for a few days. Strangely, there is no news from her. Even though she is one of the diligent students so far," said Yoseph, who happened to have just left the class when Manfred arrived there.

"That's right, Manfred. She can't be contacted either. It's not like she usually does," said the boy next to him.

"Ok, thank you." Manfred nodded. Manfred's heart was getting more and more upset. Yuana must be so devastated, she didn't even go to college anymore. Then where was he?

Manfred was even more confused. Sitting on the motorcycle seat, thinking again. Whose Yuana's place to talk when if there was a problem in her life.

"Bobby ...." Manfred suddenly remembered his best friend. Manfred immediately called Bobby.

"Hi, Fred. You are still alive. No more gigs?" Bobby's voice sounded pleased at Manfred's call.

"Bob, did Yuana come to your place?" Manfred didn't answer Bobby's greeting. He got straight to the point of why he contacted Bobby.

"Yuana? No. What's wrong, Fred?" Bobby's tone turned serious.

"She left, Bob. She didn't go to college. She left her house. Because her parents divorced," said Manfred. Suddenly Manfred's voice was hoarse.

"What? So, Yuan ...." Bobby sounded surprised to hear the news.

"I'm so confused right now." Manfred grew anxious and panicked. Otherwise, Bobby didn't know where to look for Yuana. The girl was not close to other people anymore.

"Wasn't she at your place?" Bobby asked.

"Mother said she came at home. But not for long. I was out of town at the time. Today I came straight to her house, and she disappeared." Manfred shook his head painfully.

"When was the last time you had contact?" Bobby asked again.

"That is the problem, Bob. The last time I met her, she was angry with me. And we didn't communicate anymore. In the last three days I called Yuan's cellphone, it was never been active. It turns out that she didn't live on her cellphone." said Manfred. He was really sorry to lose Yuana.

"Don't you need to report to the police?" said Bobby.

"Se's not gone, but she determined to be gone. It's different. Even her parents just don't care about her." Manfred answered giddily.

"Then?" Bobby didn't even know what to do.

"I'll keep looking for her, Bob. Unfortunately, our contract isn't over yet. I can't stop it. I'll try to find time, however, to find Yuan." Heavy, pressing against Manfred's chest. It was like there was a rock in there.

"Yuan ... why?" Bobby sounded sad.

"Bob, I'm sorry. I can't look after Yuana. I'm busy with my own business, and I don't know what happened to her." Manfred was really sad. He promised to take care of Yuana, but he did not know what happened to Yuana. He didn't even know where Yuana was.

"Fred, I know you love her very much. It happened beyond our expectations, didn't it? We need to calm down," Bobby comforted even though he was also nervous.

"Yes, I know, Bob," said Manfred. "How are you and Lisa?"

"Very well, Fred. Thanks for your advice then." Bobby sounded calmer when he talked about Lisa.

"Hmmm?" Manfred remembered what he had said to Bobby.

"Lisa and I are getting closer. We're husband and wife, not friends anymore." Bobby's voice sounded like he was talking with a smile.

"What do you mean? Have you made a goal?" Manfred was a little excited by the news from Bobby.

Bobby was heard chuckling, not answering Manfred's question.

"Thank goodness ...." Manfred was delighted.

"Fred, you will be able to find Yuana. Trust me." Again, Bobby talked about Yuana.

"Yeah, how far she goes is still on earth too. I'll find her." Manfred assured himself that he would soon find Yuana back.

Until that day was nothing. He didn't know where Yuana was.

******

"I regret that I didn't force Yuana to tell me that time. Why didn't you force her to stay here ..." Manolita cried after Manfred told her that Yuana had left.

"Mom, didn't you feel something that day?" Manfred asked. "Didn't she say something that made you see her differently?"

"She's been crying for a long time. She asked about you. But when I asked, she just said it was normal, her mom and dad ... that was all." Manolita tried to remember what happened that afternoon.

"Only when she was going home, she didn't want me to take me to the front. She said it was like a distant guest. I didn't suspect anything, Fred. Surely she didn't want me to know she was leaving." Manolita cried again.

"I feel so stupid, Mom. I wish I hadn't left her that afternoon, and had a thorough talk with her. Ah, Mom ...." Manfred deeply regretted his last meeting with Yuana. Who would know, in just one week it all went awry?

"Just look for her, Fred. You have to find her." Manolita spoke pleadingly with her face wet from crying.

"Yes, Mom, I will," said Manfred. Restless, the only he could do, looking for Yuana until she would meet her.

Manfred sighed. Where else would he find the girl? So far, there were no clues.

"God ... where else should I look for Yuan?" Manfred's heart said. "Why am I insensitive to Yuan? She doesn't like me being a singer. She doesn't need me to be famous. She just needs me by her side. Ah, Yuan ... where are you?"

Manfred clenched his fists. His heart aches, misses, regrets, and accumulates other feelings.