A blessing in disguise
It's still vivid in my memory!!
1 year ago…
"Wake up sleepyhead," I whisper in low tones.
"Hmmm, what is it ren?!" her voice is a quiver.
"Aren't you gonna wake up?"
"I still feel drowsy," she mumbled.
"Are you gonna sleep with me or just gonna stare at me like that," she said with a quavered voice.
"Well if given the choice, I think staring it is," how can my eye ignore such an astonishing view.
"You're such a jerk ren," she giggled.
"Haha, I'm not sure if I'd appreciate your tone."
"Why do you love me ren, why do you care about me so much?" she asks out of the blue.
"Huh, where did that come from?"
What you're talking about," I smile.
"Why you're so nice to me."
"Are you kidding me, why do you ask something to which you already know the answer," I chuckle.
"I love being with you idiot, a day without you feels likes eternity," I run my hand through her hair and hold her chin with my thumb.
"Ever since I've met you I've come to believe that there should be at least one person in your entire life for which you can draw a line on everything, all your beliefs and at the very moment you're that person in my life," I can see tears swimming in her eyes.
"Please ren, don't trust me like a blind sheep, I know you love me with everything you have but sooner or later that would gonna make you suffer and you would hate me for that?" She mutters while whining.
I struggle to hide my stifle. "How could you hurt me, I'm the most precious person to you, I know you would never do anything that will me make suffer, would you?"
"Hey stop it already, it's not like you can't live without me," she twirled her eyes.
"Yeah, of course, I can live without you," she looks at me with her crucial gaze.
"But I just don't want to," she flushed, I can see her face all soften up, she flattered.
"She reaches for my lips and kisses me softly."
OH GOD REN….
SMOOCH SMOOCH SMOOCH
"I used to believe that future is nothing but unrealistic euphoric possibilities that our mind choose over pragmatism."
"But my heart and brain are frequently telling me to draw the line on this one, I would love to believe that you'll always be with me in every step that I take, it's a long journey we need to stay by each other's side."
"You know that's not possible still you love me ren, I don't understand," she murmurs.
"I don't understand either, eventually I have to ask myself, It's just I want to take good care of you, I love the smell of your hair, I love how you're nice to others, I love living under the same roof with you, I love your body, I love the way you love me.
She runs her hand in my hair, gazing with her lovely eyes.
"There's no need to remind me of that okay."
"I love you ren," she says.
"I love you too Emi," I replied.
Back into the reality…
I turn myself to the other side of the bed, she's still sleeping, well isn't that obvious last night was such a blast, she wanted it all to be rough, I wonder why is that.
I know, I'm good at sex but it's been months since I've done it with someone, so there's no point I was doing it with my full attention and potential.
Why does she even bother to do it with me anyway, she is a charming woman, I'm damn sure men's must throw themselves at her then why me?
HAAAA! what was that feeling?
AHH…. A feeling that I'm already familiar with, It's so thrilling just thinking about last night, I feel so drowsy and tingly at the same time so good, so many things happened since she moved in here.
Girls are ludicrous, it's beyond my understanding…
"But not mine." My brains voice.
"Hey brainy, I'm in an irrefutable situation here."
"My my, you poor thing."
"Hey, what with that haughty attitude, I'm in a fucking crisis here."
"Well well, look at you, seeking my solace, why should I help you boy."
"What were you saying, wisdom lies not in seeing things, that gibberish."
"Brainy, it's not the right time, better give me what I seek."
"Ohh yeah, you want my advice here is one."
"what you're doing it's all pointless, pointless with pumpkin pie but pointless."
"Hey, brainy listen to me."
"I listen to you, I'm the master, I'm the brain, based on your meaningless thinking you better listen to me, I am omniscient, I represent a total accumulation of knowledge."
"Tell me one thing ren, what makes you think you stand a chance in front of me hmm."
"I have told you gazillions of times, you must not listen to your heart, it's pointless but all you did is to defy me in every way imaginable."
"I have been analysing you for years ren, you are beyond pathetic and I can not afford to become one too."
"I'll give you what you seek but in return, you have to solemnly promise you'll never listen to your heart ever again."
"Brainy I'll do whatever you say even if I don't agree with it, so you'll help me?"
"Do I have a choice?"
"Tell me what you wanna know about, exactly."
"I couldn't figure it out that we're not even close and yet we."
"We what?"
"You know brainy."
"Of course, why would she sleep with someone as filthy as you right ren?"
"HMMM."
"You have to address me more formally if that is what you wanna know about."
"Yes, that is it brainy, if you're done with your manipulation, would you figure it out for me."
"Based on your useless thinking you probably wouldn't know, so I have to run my omniscient knowledge."